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Pythagoras
Pieces must be sacrificed
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I'm usually a calm guy, I guess pretty cool to hang with and i don't raise my voice too often in the wrong way. but, i have those moments in my life where i would just burst out of nowhere, i would feel a warm feeling in my body and i would just want to hit stuff and scream at people who try to talk to me. usually people i know. i'll ignore people that i don't know at all. it seriously fucked up, the whole process is quick (like 15-50 seconds) where i would just lose my head and after that i would be like 'why? why i did that? why i screamed at X like that? I'll literally be on the verse of crying after such a burst because i feel hopeless to it. it's like a fucking demon, I'll slam stuff and people around me would literally think i'm crazy and wouldn't say a word because they know it would just make things worse.
It's not even logical, they would try to help me and i'll be like 'what a fucking dumb advice, just stfu' I can play with friends some videogame and we would talk on discord and I'll just burst and rage quit. the fact that it's not always logical just leaves me helpless and confused, it's about the most random stuff.
Again this moments are rare, as i am usually a calm guy. but lately it got worst and i honestly don't know what to do, it's not even just psychological, i would literally feel it in my body, like my blood is about to explode and I'll have to do something to cut it off, something stupid. ngl i might have autism or something. Fuck bros, wish i could fully control it or at least not harming others (It's never physical, I'll never hit people) I just had a burst rn and wanted to vent idk.
It's not even logical, they would try to help me and i'll be like 'what a fucking dumb advice, just stfu' I can play with friends some videogame and we would talk on discord and I'll just burst and rage quit. the fact that it's not always logical just leaves me helpless and confused, it's about the most random stuff.
Again this moments are rare, as i am usually a calm guy. but lately it got worst and i honestly don't know what to do, it's not even just psychological, i would literally feel it in my body, like my blood is about to explode and I'll have to do something to cut it off, something stupid. ngl i might have autism or something. Fuck bros, wish i could fully control it or at least not harming others (It's never physical, I'll never hit people) I just had a burst rn and wanted to vent idk.
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