Appetite went to shit

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I be having food in front of me and just stare at that shit in my hands, and when I do pick up my food I just stare at it slowly and eat it. I’ve also been dehydrated for like weeks, I don’t think I even get half a liter in my system a day and just end up making it worse by drinking coke. Add drug use to that and I just be fucked up all the time.

I been joking about dying in my 20s, but it really might just happen, for better or worse. I don’t enjoy doing anything anymore. Nobody around me in college understands how fucked up mentally I was before I arrived. Matter of fact, I nearly got myself killed while driving (was about to front-end somebody on the other side of the road too and take ourselves out, wasn’t just some suicidal shit), that’s how bad I was losing it. Makes it the second time I attempted. Younger me would look at who I am know and just see a pathetic failure.

People think I’m a funny chill dude, but I don’t know how much longer I can keep up the act so I’m always keeping them at a distance. I gotta do so much just to preserve my image but am running out of motivation and energy.

I already said this in another thread but a friend in my fraternity told me that some sorority chicks mentioned to him how they think I’m handsome and funny but don’t talk to girls and stay on my phone all day, which fucking sucks because I’m getting attention when I don’t fucking want it. I can’t even begin to try and chat them up because I’m mentally fucked and it will just show quickly. Even if I secured a girl, it’s not like I’m gonna be around long on this earth to enjoy it.

I’m gonna burn out eventually and at that point I’ve got two options, disappear or just die. Not sure what’s better.

 

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Dnr dumb fuck

 

[134applesauce456]

mirin u have natural glp1 medication

 

[134applesauce456]

oh i didnt read the whole thing brutal bhai im sorry

 

[scrunchables]

oh i didnt read the whole thing brutal bhai im sorry

Nah u chillin it was funny

 

[savage21]

I be having food in front of me and just stare at that shit in my hands, and when I do pick up my food I just stare at it slowly and eat it. I’ve also been dehydrated for like weeks, I don’t think I even get half a liter in my system a day and just end up making it worse by drinking coke. Add drug use to that and I just be fucked up all the time.

I been joking about dying in my 20s, but it really might just happen, for better or worse. I don’t enjoy doing anything anymore. Nobody around me in college understands how fucked up mentally I was before I arrived. Matter of fact, I nearly got myself killed while driving (was about to front-end somebody on the other side of the road too and take ourselves out, wasn’t just some suicidal shit), that’s how bad I was losing it. Makes it the second time I attempted. Younger me would look at who I am know and just see a pathetic failure.

People think I’m a funny chill dude, but I don’t know how much longer I can keep up the act so I’m always keeping them at a distance. I gotta do so much just to preserve my image but am running out of motivation and energy.

I already said this in another thread but a friend in my fraternity told me that some sorority chicks mentioned to him how they think I’m handsome and funny but don’t talk to girls and stay on my phone all day, which fucking sucks because I’m getting attention when I don’t fucking want it. I can’t even begin to try and chat them up because I’m mentally fucked and it will just show quickly. Even if I secured a girl, it’s not like I’m gonna be around long on this earth to enjoy it.

I’m gonna burn out eventually and at that point I’ve got two options, disappear or just die. Not sure what’s better.

I hope it get better for you brah .

I can’t relate to much except just staying on my phone all day in college. No one bothers talking to me and I don’t bother talking to anyone. Right now it’s fine I guess but it will eventually take its toll.
Try to make better friends with that frat bro or something. Ik it’s going to be extremely difficult because of neurodivergence but if you want to live a normie life you gotta socialize

 

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I hope it get better for you brah.

I can’t relate to much except just staying on my phone all day in college. No one bothers talking to me and I don’t bother talking to anyone. Right now it’s fine I guess but it will eventually take its toll.
Try to make better friends with that frat bro or something. Ik it’s going to be extremely difficult because of neurodivergence but if you want to live a normie life you gotta socialize

My only ND issues are from ADHD. I’m pretty sure I don’t have autism, and even if I do its impacts on my life are negligible. My biggest mental issue is my depression (7-8 years).

I also do socialize a lot, I go to parties all the time and hang out with people frequently. I’ve made a lot of friends by now (basically everybody in the frat + some people outside) and I’m generally well-liked. Depression just makes me really drained oftentimes, and I suck at talking to women.

 

[Coolman788]

I hope it get better for u

What happened to ur mental health?

 

[12aff]

I be having food in front of me and just stare at that shit in my hands, and when I do pick up my food I just stare at it slowly and eat it. I’ve also been dehydrated for like weeks, I don’t think I even get half a liter in my system a day and just end up making it worse by drinking coke. Add drug use to that and I just be fucked up all the time.

I been joking about dying in my 20s, but it really might just happen, for better or worse. I don’t enjoy doing anything anymore. Nobody around me in college understands how fucked up mentally I was before I arrived. Matter of fact, I nearly got myself killed while driving (was about to front-end somebody on the other side of the road too and take ourselves out, wasn’t just some suicidal shit), that’s how bad I was losing it. Makes it the second time I attempted. Younger me would look at who I am know and just see a pathetic failure.

People think I’m a funny chill dude, but I don’t know how much longer I can keep up the act so I’m always keeping them at a distance. I gotta do so much just to preserve my image but am running out of motivation and energy.

I already said this in another thread but a friend in my fraternity told me that some sorority chicks mentioned to him how they think I’m handsome and funny but don’t talk to girls and stay on my phone all day, which fucking sucks because I’m getting attention when I don’t fucking want it. I can’t even begin to try and chat them up because I’m mentally fucked and it will just show quickly. Even if I secured a girl, it’s not like I’m gonna be around long on this earth to enjoy it.

I’m gonna burn out eventually and at that point I’ve got two options, disappear or just die. Not sure what’s better.

Hope it gets better dude

 

[scrunchables]

I hope it get better for u

What happened to ur mental health?

Basically became depressed around middle school and never really recovered. Kills all my ambition and drive, now I don’t even enjoy playing guitar and that’s something I’ve worked hard on for 10 years