susisesi
desperate oldcel
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I thought my life would be better magically when I start looking some way.
I really don’t wanna ramble about my rating but the lowesr I have been rated is lhtn and the highest it hhtn for context.
And one year ago I was deffinetly ltn.
I am still the same person who got cheated on. I am still the same fragile fat kid who got bullied his entire childhood.
I don’t feel good, I still feel ugly, I am ashamed to show my face thus I have no social media.
I don’t go outside, if we exclude the gym and groceries I haven’t gone outside in 4months. My dopamine was so low that my prolactin spiked, and I got put on medication for it.
I miss how I loved, who I was, how I had butterflies in my stomach to hold a girls hand. But now I will never experience that feeling anymore. I have no interrest in women or anything at this point. My hormones are just messed up and I am just a crying in my room wasting my youth.
I had so many bad experiences and wish I could just go back to before those experiences. I don’t feel like there is any way to fix it or get over it, or my mind is fucked and I can’t let go of things that happened years ago. All I can think about is what if those things didn’t happen.
Still trying to look better but I feel uglier each day. I just want to drop out quit everything and rot
I really don’t wanna ramble about my rating but the lowesr I have been rated is lhtn and the highest it hhtn for context.
And one year ago I was deffinetly ltn.
I am still the same person who got cheated on. I am still the same fragile fat kid who got bullied his entire childhood.
I don’t feel good, I still feel ugly, I am ashamed to show my face thus I have no social media.
I don’t go outside, if we exclude the gym and groceries I haven’t gone outside in 4months. My dopamine was so low that my prolactin spiked, and I got put on medication for it.
I miss how I loved, who I was, how I had butterflies in my stomach to hold a girls hand. But now I will never experience that feeling anymore. I have no interrest in women or anything at this point. My hormones are just messed up and I am just a crying in my room wasting my youth.
I had so many bad experiences and wish I could just go back to before those experiences. I don’t feel like there is any way to fix it or get over it, or my mind is fucked and I can’t let go of things that happened years ago. All I can think about is what if those things didn’t happen.
Still trying to look better but I feel uglier each day. I just want to drop out quit everything and rot
