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I'm nearing the stage of freedom , doom and total awareness all in one ..I used to be really depressed when I realised I could never have functioning human relationships like other people ..those were the beginning of my post blackpill phase .now I have accepted my fate ..and sometimes chuckle at myself and the world ...maybe I was destined to be this way ..I have never been like other people
Like for example , when I see people in relationships , I could never see myself that way ..cause one it feels like a prison and so 'grownup' like ..imagine q child looking at grownup people in relationships and be like 'gross' ..yes I'm like that .. I'm 23 and I still feel like a child .I still don't know where to go make ATM cards or how to be responsible for something ..I still remember the time when I had the only gf ..I remember when she held my hand , I felt so weird ...it felt so cringe to me ..like something I wasn't supposed to be doing ..I immediately declined her saying 'dont do that ..it feels weird to me '
yes I crave sex but that's all about it ...am I a weirdo ??am I an autist ??Honestly I don't know ..but I feel very different from other people ..maybe that's the reason I'll forever be single ..
Sometimes it makes me depressed why I couldn't be like the others ...but as time goes on , I have learnt to accept it ..right now , I'm working on myself and my chakras to free myself off lust ..so that I truly go on the way to enlightment ...I cant let lust control me ..I can't fake my personality just to be with a woman ..when my end goal is to only have sex ...acceptance is the key to freedom
Like for example , when I see people in relationships , I could never see myself that way ..cause one it feels like a prison and so 'grownup' like ..imagine q child looking at grownup people in relationships and be like 'gross' ..yes I'm like that .. I'm 23 and I still feel like a child .I still don't know where to go make ATM cards or how to be responsible for something ..I still remember the time when I had the only gf ..I remember when she held my hand , I felt so weird ...it felt so cringe to me ..like something I wasn't supposed to be doing ..I immediately declined her saying 'dont do that ..it feels weird to me '
yes I crave sex but that's all about it ...am I a weirdo ??am I an autist ??Honestly I don't know ..but I feel very different from other people ..maybe that's the reason I'll forever be single ..
Sometimes it makes me depressed why I couldn't be like the others ...but as time goes on , I have learnt to accept it ..right now , I'm working on myself and my chakras to free myself off lust ..so that I truly go on the way to enlightment ...I cant let lust control me ..I can't fake my personality just to be with a woman ..when my end goal is to only have sex ...acceptance is the key to freedom
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