Jason Voorhees
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Things aren't as vivid and exciting anymore and days blend into routines that once felt full of potential. I would wake up in college every day a blank page, full of unpredictable challenges, new faces, random plans that turned into stories I can tell for years.
It's partly because novelty wears off. When you're younger, almost everything is new. The first trip with my friends, the first kiss, first real tastes of freedom. Brain lights up with dopamine from all that unexplored territory. As years stack up, you've seen variations of most things. These days I have very little interest in going to parties or doing the stuff that I used to do the "first time" magic fades..
But one thing is that intensity of youth's highs often came bundled with equal lows. I was at my lowest point in my life in college. Already had a foot in the grave teetring on the line of substance abuse that could have ended everything if my dad hadn't stepped in to pull me back, uncertainty that kept you up at night. That every day different energy was exhilarating but exhausting. Now It's just stability no big ups or downs happening it is a constant line.
It's partly because novelty wears off. When you're younger, almost everything is new. The first trip with my friends, the first kiss, first real tastes of freedom. Brain lights up with dopamine from all that unexplored territory. As years stack up, you've seen variations of most things. These days I have very little interest in going to parties or doing the stuff that I used to do the "first time" magic fades..
But one thing is that intensity of youth's highs often came bundled with equal lows. I was at my lowest point in my life in college. Already had a foot in the grave teetring on the line of substance abuse that could have ended everything if my dad hadn't stepped in to pull me back, uncertainty that kept you up at night. That every day different energy was exhilarating but exhausting. Now It's just stability no big ups or downs happening it is a constant line.
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