Fire9488
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I've ascended to HTN, 5'10 (gym maxxing, hair, skin, fillers, lasers, smile-makeover) but I'm socially autistic at 23. I've also quit drugs and realized all the friends I ever had I connected with through drugs, smoking, alcohol, but never had any true friends who wanted me for me. I also have serious trauma from being a sub5 from school and college (I only realized I am ugly at 21 and looksmaxed these 2 years). I've had a text and FaceTime based gf at 17 who I met twice but only kissed her on the cheek (was too naive to lead and make out with her, let alone fucking her), then she left me for another dude later. I tried banging hookers a few times a few years ago, the experience was shit to mediocre, I did not enjoy. Basically I have 0 regular girl kiss/sex exp.
Not only I'm nervous/anxious around girls, I have no idea what to say to girls that i would talk despite the fear. But I do get a lot of checkouts at the gym and in public. I do get matches on dating apps a lot but all of these girls seem very intimidating and they act like I'm probably someone who has a body count of 50 since I'm good looking now. A lot of them asked me for hook ups, with a lot of them convos go nowhere and I end up getting ghosted. I'm also scared to come off as some kind of virgin and I'm shit sure that if I try to meet any girl from dating apps they are gonna figure that out within the first 5 mins, and if they then end the date or leave me without fucking, it's gonna ruin whatever confidence is left in me. Taking a girl on a normal date then escalating from there? I never had much going on in my life except doing drugs with a bunch of losers and I've been super broke my whole life too and started looksmaxing when I finally started earning some money. That's it, I have no material or personality in me to keep a girl entertained or not make them bored on a date so I have not been on any dates because what's the point.
Even with guys who I can talk to normally, shit gets boring very quick as I soon have nothing much to add up and I'm like socially behind like a 15-16 year old, the guys catch it and think I'm weird or why am I like this. I am just a HTN looking tree at this point.
Is sex life over for me? I don't need friends as I'm used to it now living alone. Should I just hookermaxx? I don't like hookers, I feel kinda dirty vibes from them and then there are STD risks.
Not only I'm nervous/anxious around girls, I have no idea what to say to girls that i would talk despite the fear. But I do get a lot of checkouts at the gym and in public. I do get matches on dating apps a lot but all of these girls seem very intimidating and they act like I'm probably someone who has a body count of 50 since I'm good looking now. A lot of them asked me for hook ups, with a lot of them convos go nowhere and I end up getting ghosted. I'm also scared to come off as some kind of virgin and I'm shit sure that if I try to meet any girl from dating apps they are gonna figure that out within the first 5 mins, and if they then end the date or leave me without fucking, it's gonna ruin whatever confidence is left in me. Taking a girl on a normal date then escalating from there? I never had much going on in my life except doing drugs with a bunch of losers and I've been super broke my whole life too and started looksmaxing when I finally started earning some money. That's it, I have no material or personality in me to keep a girl entertained or not make them bored on a date so I have not been on any dates because what's the point.
Even with guys who I can talk to normally, shit gets boring very quick as I soon have nothing much to add up and I'm like socially behind like a 15-16 year old, the guys catch it and think I'm weird or why am I like this. I am just a HTN looking tree at this point.
Is sex life over for me? I don't need friends as I'm used to it now living alone. Should I just hookermaxx? I don't like hookers, I feel kinda dirty vibes from them and then there are STD risks.
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