Ascending but staying ND is hell

[manuIQ]

I honestly think ive grown a lot physically and mentally over the last couple of years. One thing I still struggle with is having meaningful and interesting conversations with women. I recently started talking to this new girl and I still find myself making awkward comments and just overall not being able to reply correctly to the conversation being talked about. When I get home and lay in my bed I just ponder about what words or sentences I should have said in place of the ones I did. It's like a never-ending loop of regret and embarrassment. The next morning, I wake up and tell myself I'm going to think things through and make genuine connections w/o sounding or even acting retarted but when I'm faced with the issue I sort of blank out and just forget how to act and speak normally. And no, in not an antisocial gooner that fapps all day. I just struggle with what to say and how to act when Infront of new people I am getting to know (girls in specific). With my "looks" improving I am getting more attention from females but can't keep shit because of the connections I fail to commit to.

 

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