being a cocsa victim as a male is brutal

[sharkboa]

i cant even really resent the person who did it to me since they where a child and didnt know any better i hate it so much i feel gross and disgusted anybody else gone through smt similar?
(cocsa stands for child on child sexual assault)

 

[sharkboa]

also being male its not taken as srs i feel or ppl will say i prob enjoyed it or they wish that happened to them when it was another boy much older than me and i was 5

 

[averagetotaluser]

HOLY SHIT, I FEEL SORRY​

 

[averagetotaluser]

also being male its not taken as srs i feel or ppl will say i prob enjoyed it or they wish that happened to them

how old were you?

 

[sharkboa]

how old were you?

5 the guy was like 9 ish idk he js molested me and exposed me to porn and it ruined my life till late middle school

 

[averagetotaluser]

5 the guy was like 9 ish idk he js molested me and exposed me to porn and it ruined my life till late middle school

is he still alive? if yes you should make a contract with a black rapist

 

[sharkboa]

is he still alive? if yes you should make a contract with a black rapist

idk i asked one of his friends what ever happened to him and he said he hasnt seen him in like 6 years and that friend of his is now in jail for breaking into cars and other things

 

[averagetotaluser]

idk i asked one of his friends what ever happened to him and he said he hasnt seen him in like 6 years and that friend of his is now in jail for breaking into cars and other things

you should go to a therapist

 

[sharkboa]

you should go to a therapist

i am right now court mandated i js got a new one cuz my last one quit to pursue other things i never talked to the old guy abt anything serious because idk i js didnt feel like it i might talk abt this typa thing with the new therapist tho probably not i dont like the zoom calling therapy ima try to go to in person therapy after im off probation in a month and can leave this therapy

 

[Eric_mxcl]

Youre not alone bro

 

[sharkboa]

Youre not alone bro

thanks man i hope your doing good if you have went through smt like this

 

[Eric_mxcl]

thanks man i hope your doing good if you have went through smt like this

It didn't really affect me tbh

 

[sharkboa]

It didn't really affect me tbh

it doesnt affect me most the time now i kinda forget about it but when i remember its horrible i feel so incredibly unclean and gross that that happened to me

 

[Eric_mxcl]

it doesnt affect me most the time now i kinda forget about it but when i remember its horrible i feel so incredibly unclean and gross that that happened to me

Thats understundable but bro it's really not your fault