
iblamemandible7
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Ive been sub5 for my entire life and its definitely shaped my personality for the worst, I used to be outgoing as a child, which I think all children naturally are, but after being treated worse for my looks over and over again and having this reinforced throughout the years, I became much more withdrawn and pessimistic about people, I dont ask anyone for help or really care about making an effort with people, going through the motions feels so useless and futile when my face reflects the opposite of what I want to convey
You guys dont understand for how long I've been BP'ed, my first BP memory is in kindergarten or first grade, in school we had to do a project where we traced our side profile onto a black piece of paper, my "friend" pointed out that he couldnt tell the difference between my lips and my chin in the side profile, it just looked like 3 little bumps. I was already fucking recessed at 5 years old. I would also get teased for my horrible eye area as a young kid. Nothing I could do would ever make up for my hideous. My actions were meaningless because of how I looked. And everyone tried to convince me there was no problem, there was no elephant in the room. It's a hellish feeling, my life has been a big delusion. As I grew up the judgement and the hate became less obvious and more hidden, people would talk about my appearance behind my back or act passive aggressive to me, even adults, and I was so confused as to why. I didn't do anything to them. But just having to look at my face hurt them. Ive been afraid of mirrors since I was a child too. No child deserves that. Its unnatural. Nature is cruel. I definitely would not be the person I am today if I didn't get so genetically unlucky.
Does anyone else here relate?
You guys dont understand for how long I've been BP'ed, my first BP memory is in kindergarten or first grade, in school we had to do a project where we traced our side profile onto a black piece of paper, my "friend" pointed out that he couldnt tell the difference between my lips and my chin in the side profile, it just looked like 3 little bumps. I was already fucking recessed at 5 years old. I would also get teased for my horrible eye area as a young kid. Nothing I could do would ever make up for my hideous. My actions were meaningless because of how I looked. And everyone tried to convince me there was no problem, there was no elephant in the room. It's a hellish feeling, my life has been a big delusion. As I grew up the judgement and the hate became less obvious and more hidden, people would talk about my appearance behind my back or act passive aggressive to me, even adults, and I was so confused as to why. I didn't do anything to them. But just having to look at my face hurt them. Ive been afraid of mirrors since I was a child too. No child deserves that. Its unnatural. Nature is cruel. I definitely would not be the person I am today if I didn't get so genetically unlucky.
Does anyone else here relate?
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