The Dark (coolguy)
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When I was little i would constantly get abused and i went to a shitty school with a bunch of weird kids as my friends (which was a bad start for my social life). And I have to say that I've spent my life in severe fear and anxiety cus of my parents, which are a bunch of careless ugly retards and my mom is a useless foid that barely provides for the family and my sister is a genuine npc. The reason why I'm telling you this is because it never got better. When I got to fifth grade is when i stopped having friends all together and i got bullied by classmates. Keep in mind at that time i didn't even know how to interact with people. (I'm not sure if I'm even on the spectrum but all these things did lead up to a lot of shit). Until I got a friend in sixth grade and we actually grew pretty close and the happiness I felt was beyond anything and that was the last time I felt happy. Eventually in 7th grade he cut me off but around that time my mental health started declining (this time into depression and anxiety but it wasn't because that friend cut me off). Anyways a girl I liked told me we could be friends and from there I met people from her class. This is where I met my "friend" who I would call R. Now R and me immediately became best buds alongside another friend who i would call T (He's currently my only friend and has always been my closest). And even with these new friends i didn't feel the slightest bit better so around that the time (the beginning of 2024) I moved to my grandma so I wouldn't share a room with my sis and she (granny) did live close by so it wasn't anything too serious, but it did mean way more freedom from my parents' bullshit, but it gets to show that even after having that freedom everything goes to shit (my parents became worse). So I get these finals, sure they're important but i nail them get a new setup and go to the best school in town. Now that would sound like a perfectly good reason not to rope but i still felt like shit from all the stuff that had happened to me in the past. The summer wasn't anything special but i did hang out with T a lot. Now depression eventually goes away, right? So stuff was gonna get better until 8th grade started and that is when shit TRULY hit the fan. Met up with a girl who became one of my closest friends, lets call her A. Now me and R became closer because we ended up in the same class. And shit hit the fan after having really bad fallouts with T and A because dumbass dramas, which is almost their entire fault. Almost getting expelled everyone treating me like shit, js genuinely falling into psychosis and that was truly the worst i have ever felt. Now when ninth grade rolled around all I had to say was just how chopped, fat, retarded and nd I saw I was. And R turned on me. (I had made up with T and A). So now its time to tell you that R is a genetic king some of yall here could give him hhtn easily, nt and he will be well over 6'3" by the time he stops growing. Now pair that with how shit everything is. I'm 5'10,
20% bf and worst grades out of the entire grade, and that lead to being bullied by R and the other friends i made at school. Now this isn't the entire reason for wanting to rope because roping in this situation isn't not taking it anymore, but it is more of a logical solution to life and a lot of philosophers have thought about the suffering of humankind. Like no point to be born and suffer. Anyways 9th grade ended and we are in the current times (why it's over).
I lost 6 kilos of fat still look just as ugly
Recessed everything (mainly low hyoid, recessed maxilla and mandible, my face can only be described as this thing from tboi:
and my eye area actually scares people and I'm not even kidding( and I'll never get the money for surgeries and even then i would carry my ugly gene))
No friends (I cut them all out cus they weren't gonna do me any good except T but we aren't in the best relations)
I genuinely stopped feeling anything but aggression
I don't love anyone and I'll probably never feel love towards a woman and only lust except there wont be any woman that would go in a 20 meter radius of me.
khhv
sub5
5'11" at almost 16 (but I have hair everywhere and my face has already matured so that's over)
I'm this close to committing something horrible. And i think it would just be what's best for me and anyone else if i rope. I don't feel bad. I feel relief, like it would be the right thing to do. Lemme know what you personally think I'm not attention seeking I'm just expressing my opinion and views on life. And I have to say nothing in life has to be too complicated so when it comes to suffering Just Let Go And Rope.
JFL ofcourse
PS: I just remembered I'm so ugly and weird that at least 5 girls that know about me think I'm not human and another one tried getting me expelled out nowhere (like I've never interacted with her). I'm also the entire school clown. Like yeah, it's over.
