Being ND is just so fucking weird

[WELOVELOOKS]

Like I know exactly how to act NT and I feel like I do but I never reap the benefits of it

And I don’t feel like my NDness is off putting literally at all, I feel like it’s funny and interesting the little quirks it gives me. I’m good socially, good at fucking talking to people, well spoken, polite but not some cuck, yet still regardless I STILL GET ALL THE REPERCUSSIONS of being nd it will never make any fucking sense to me.

Other people tell me I’m great all the time. Compliment my humor, my abilities, my intelligence, my personality yet somehow I still fail at every crossroad

 

[DrRodger]

You can't just act nt. Look, you're probably not neurodivergant, you don't seem like someone that would be based off of what you're saying. You're just trying to victimize yourself using buzzwords

 

[WELOVELOOKS]

You can't just act nt. Look, you're probably not neurodivergant, you don't seem like someone that would be based off of what you're saying. You're just trying to victimize yourself using buzzwords

That’s the thing right

I don’t even seem non NT

I was diagnosed with ADHD at like fucking 11 years old, and it checked out and looking back know exactly why and even then I kinda knew deep down maybe that I was annoying to other people, I had to change myself fundamentally with drugs and other mental processes or else I’d literally be an annoying fucking spazoid, I used to do really weird shit like dance around and beat box and do random bullshit in settings where it wasn’t even remotely appropriate

And when I research ADHD so many of the symptoms fit me

And that’s the thing, people don’t expect me to have some weird mental process because I’m well spoken and intelligent and literaly people tell me I’m victimizing myself that KNOW ME. Like I said, I fucking wish I was.

But being inside of my brain is fucking intense

 

[dhusc]

Like I know exactly how to act NT and I feel like I do but I never reap the benefits of it

And I don’t feel like my NDness is off putting literally at all, I feel like it’s funny and interesting the little quirks it gives me. I’m good socially, good at fucking talking to people, well spoken, polite but not some cuck, yet still regardless I STILL GET ALL THE REPERCUSSIONS of being nd it will never make any fucking sense to me.

Other people tell me I’m great all the time. Compliment my humor, my abilities, my intelligence, my personality yet somehow I still fail at every crossroad

translation: I make up a fake illness to fit in with the other retards on this forum

 

[WELOVELOOKS]

translation: I make up a fake illness to fit in with the other retards on this forum

I’m literally diagnosed u spaz, I was in the special ed program in school. I’m a grown ass man now and I’ve matured but I bet you wouldn’t say this to me 3 years ago you’d 100% believe it based off the stuff I used to post

Are you trolling, or what gives you the idea that I’m actually NT?

 

[dhusc]

I’m literally diagnosed u spaz, I was in the special ed program in school. I’m a grown ass man now and I’ve matured but I bet you wouldn’t say this to me 3 years ago you’d 100% believe it based off the stuff I used to post

Are you trolling, or what gives you the idea that I’m actually NT?

I refuse to believe all these fake illnesses are real

they’re all an excuse for shortcomings

people made up these terms and they’re all diagnosed with the individuals words, have they ever checked for brain functionality, have they ever done a MRI or checked your brain waves or whatever?

it’s all fucking bullcrap and I’m done pretending otherwise

if you truly were ND you’d be extremely aspie and you’d struggle to form a normal sentence

 

[them streets b cold]

So you're like autistic or introverted?

 

[WELOVELOOKS]

I refuse to believe all these fake illnesses are real

they’re all an excuse for shortcomings

people made up these terms and they’re all diagnosed with the individuals words, have they ever checked for brain functionality, have they ever done a MRI or checked your brain waves or whatever?

it’s all fucking bullcrap and I’m done pretending otherwise

if you truly were ND you’d be extremely aspie and you’d struggle to form a normal sentence

ND is a spectrum, and I don’t need a brain scan to know that I’m way different than the average NT person. I’ve always had very different behaviors from other people and I know this because I’ve been singled out by people my entire life when I’m not even trying to come off a certain way

number 1: anger issues

I am legit fucking explosive, I’ve toned it down and learned to cope with my anger, but I’ve legit spent almost the last 8 years beefing with people online over the stupidest shit, I can explode incredibly easy, regardless of knowing this and wanting to improve it I physically haven’t been able to for nearly 30 years of my life. Only very recently have I been able to control it and that’s because I’m controlling the interactions I put myself in

Number 2: obsessions

If I’m interested in something and like it it will literally be ALL I do, for hours upon hours a day, for literal years. I become obsessed with video games, or art or some random thing and it will be literally almost all I do for months on end. This isn’t NT, normal people have hobbies and that’s something they do in their free time. I do it for 9 hours a day everyday for months

Number 3: focus

I’ve never been able to keep a consistent focus for anything that I’m not obsessed with

I will try my best, and as soon as it’s not remotely working out or I become uninterested I drop it and literally put almost 0 mental effort into that thing. I’ve also been fired from more than 10 jobs in the last few years. It’s not like this is something I’m consciously doing, because I am aware of this obviously. And just because I know doesn’t mean it’s easy to control. It’s like telling a person with schizophrenia to stop seeing visions just because they’re aware when they come down from psychosis that it wasn’t real

I could name a lot more things that I’ve experienced and I could go on but that’s enough for me to know that I am not the same as other people it’s as simple is that, they don’t struggle with things like this as much as I do.

 

[WELOVELOOKS]

So you're like autistic or introverted?

ADHD

 

[dhusc]

ND is a spectrum, and I don’t need a brain scan to know that I’m way different than the average NT person. I’ve always had very different behaviors from other people and I know this because I’ve been singled out by people my entire life when I’m not even trying to come off a certain way

number 1: anger issues

I am legit fucking explosive, I’ve toned it down and learned to cope with my anger, but I’ve legit spent almost the last 8 years beefing with people online over the stupidest shit, I can explode incredibly easy, regardless of knowing this and wanting to improve it I physically haven’t been able to for nearly 30 years of my life. Only very recently have I been able to control it and that’s because I’m controlling the interactions I put myself in

Number 2: obsessions

If I’m interested in something and like it it will literally be ALL I do, for hours upon hours a day, for literal years. I become obsessed with video games, or art or some random thing and it will be literally almost all I do for months on end. This isn’t NT, normal people have hobbies and that’s something they do in their free time. I do it for 9 hours a day everyday for months

Number 3: focus

I’ve never been able to keep a consistent focus for anything that I’m not obsessed with

I will try my best, and as soon as it’s not remotely working out or I become uninterested I drop it and literally put almost 0 mental effort into that thing. I’ve also been fired from more than 10 jobs in the last few years. It’s not like this is something I’m consciously doing, because I am aware of this obviously. And just because I know doesn’t mean it’s easy to control. It’s like telling a person with schizophrenia to stop seeing visions just because they’re aware when they come down from psychosis that it wasn’t real

I could name a lot more things that I’ve experienced and I could go on but that’s enough for me to know that I am not the same as other people it’s as simple is that, they don’t struggle with things like this as much as I do.

this is so fucking stupid LMAO

oh I’m so different I’m ND trust me I have slightly different fucking traits that almost everyone has

I have the same fucking shit too to the point people called me out on it guess fucking what I’m not ND nor do I claim it now for I realise it’s retarded and a trait that can develop over circumstances and not because there’s some underlying mental issue you have

what a bunch of hogwash, you named basic traits that almost everyone in the modern day generation struggle with and said yeah trust me I’m super fucking different, your a prime example of people using the term “neurodivergence” as an excuse

 

[cold_nano]

translation: I make up a fake illness to fit in with the other retards on this forum

Is it true ugly guys got girls out there I'm in my room from last 2 years what is happening outside idk

 

[WELOVELOOKS]

this is so fucking stupid LMAO

oh I’m so different I’m ND trust me I have slightly different fucking traits that almost everyone has

I have the same fucking shit too to the point people called me out on it guess fucking what I’m not ND nor do I claim it now for I realise it’s retarded and a trait that can develop over circumstances and not because there’s some underlying mental issue you have

what a bunch of hogwash, you named basic traits that almost everyone in the modern day generation struggle with and said yeah trust me I’m super fucking different, your a prime example of people using the term “neurodivergence” as an excuse

Whatever you say bud, MAYBE I’d agree if I wasn’t literally diagnosed as a child and showed all the symptoms. I don’t know literally anybody who has this intensely like I do, but I guess it’s common? Do you even socialize with the real world to know what’s normal or are you chronically online and you think that’s “normal”. It’s not remotely normal or typical to use a fucking looksmax forum 9 hours every day for years of your life because of an obsession, i don’t know anybody else in real life who did shit like that

When someone is ND it shows the most by their behavior in adolescence. The kids around me were not doing the same things I was doing, so I’m not sure how you’re gonna claim it’s normal to randomly start tap dancing in math class when every body else is just sitting there