milkshake_addict
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ever since my last year of middle school where ive been awakened of how much i do not fit into society ive made a pact to drop the depression/loner phase and finally rid myself of my insanely high inhib
ive had my ups and lows i even started taking antidepressants then dropped it to be better and tried alot of ways to break myself out of my shell (examples are cold approaching, talking to randoms, involving myself into convos, helping people such as seniors and disabled people, giving compliments and experimenting ways to start and continue convos) it was hell ive always felt that i was bothering or pissing someone off and i have terrible body coordination so i looked stiff and gruff when talking to people so it was insanely hard to force myself to do stuff like that then recently ive gotten sick and its been even worse but i still pushed through and tried to wire myself to be something cool and able to transverse through life easily school came around and i had a stellar first day and was finally proud of myself i finally got a number of this one mtb in my class and I was actually happy until last friday when i had a terrible day (got friendzoned,insulted,had stains of ketchup and sauces all over my sweater and i couldnt take it off because ive been out of shape and got laughed at) i told myself it was just a bad day and shouldn't do anything to my memo of trying to be NT. i dragged myself for the first time in 10 years to talk to my mom about my mental state and she basically said that she understand my struggles but im old now so i should figure it out myself and my dad told me that being sad over little stuff like this is sissy behavior and he changed the topic into me doing chores ive never been taken seriously by my family so I just put my head down and moved on and waited until today. today was HORRIBLE (got discarded and got called laughed at for my stance and etc.) im lost in my life last time I was like this i became a shut-in and was severely anti social so im asking you guys if I should tough this out or try to put my energy in something else because i see nothing coming out of this
TLDR dont cope with being neurotypical it matters but never as much as self respect,dignity and looks
ive had my ups and lows i even started taking antidepressants then dropped it to be better and tried alot of ways to break myself out of my shell (examples are cold approaching, talking to randoms, involving myself into convos, helping people such as seniors and disabled people, giving compliments and experimenting ways to start and continue convos) it was hell ive always felt that i was bothering or pissing someone off and i have terrible body coordination so i looked stiff and gruff when talking to people so it was insanely hard to force myself to do stuff like that then recently ive gotten sick and its been even worse but i still pushed through and tried to wire myself to be something cool and able to transverse through life easily school came around and i had a stellar first day and was finally proud of myself i finally got a number of this one mtb in my class and I was actually happy until last friday when i had a terrible day (got friendzoned,insulted,had stains of ketchup and sauces all over my sweater and i couldnt take it off because ive been out of shape and got laughed at) i told myself it was just a bad day and shouldn't do anything to my memo of trying to be NT. i dragged myself for the first time in 10 years to talk to my mom about my mental state and she basically said that she understand my struggles but im old now so i should figure it out myself and my dad told me that being sad over little stuff like this is sissy behavior and he changed the topic into me doing chores ive never been taken seriously by my family so I just put my head down and moved on and waited until today. today was HORRIBLE (got discarded and got called laughed at for my stance and etc.) im lost in my life last time I was like this i became a shut-in and was severely anti social so im asking you guys if I should tough this out or try to put my energy in something else because i see nothing coming out of this
TLDR dont cope with being neurotypical it matters but never as much as self respect,dignity and looks
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