YabadiDabado
at 19 i got everything i ever wanted
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I (31M) have always known I'm ugly, on account of being told so on a number of occasions growing up (by other kids at school occasionally, and by my own mother very regularly). I was hoping I might become more attractive with age like lots of men do, but it never happened. Now I'm just as ugly as I've always been, but with more grey hair. My face is disgusting, and most of my teeth are crooked.
So needless to say, I've never had a girlfriend (and I'm not going to now, because you can't start at 31). I go on a reasonable amount of first dates, but never any second ones. They always say something like, *"I had a nice time, but I didn't really feel a spark."* Which is just a polite way of saying, *"You're nice enough, but not physically attractive enough for me."*
And even outside of dating, being ugly has plenty of disadvantages in everyday life. Strangers in public places laugh at you and/or look at you like you're an alien. You get excluded from social events. Nobody goes out of their way to talk to you or hang out with you.
It's infuriating that I don't get to experience having a loving, caring partner like almost all other people do at some point in their lives. The loneliness has become absolutely excruciating and debilitating, as has the knowledge that all of this is extremely unlikely to ever change. There's absolutely no way I can carry on with this level of embarassment and loneliness for the rest of my life.
So needless to say, I've never had a girlfriend (and I'm not going to now, because you can't start at 31). I go on a reasonable amount of first dates, but never any second ones. They always say something like, *"I had a nice time, but I didn't really feel a spark."* Which is just a polite way of saying, *"You're nice enough, but not physically attractive enough for me."*
And even outside of dating, being ugly has plenty of disadvantages in everyday life. Strangers in public places laugh at you and/or look at you like you're an alien. You get excluded from social events. Nobody goes out of their way to talk to you or hang out with you.
It's infuriating that I don't get to experience having a loving, caring partner like almost all other people do at some point in their lives. The loneliness has become absolutely excruciating and debilitating, as has the knowledge that all of this is extremely unlikely to ever change. There's absolutely no way I can carry on with this level of embarassment and loneliness for the rest of my life.
