Rzn
found out ,. how this box works .
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I am fucking SICK of being autistic. I AM 23 ON THIS STUPID FUCKING FORUM AND I'VE BEEN AROUND SINCE THE R/INCELS SHUTDOWN IN 2017. CONSIDER WHAT MY LIFE MIGHT LOOK LIKE. PROBABLY A LITTLE UGLY WITH AN UNDERDEVELOPED MIDFACE. Mask enough to BARELY fall into the uncanny valley if we have a couple real conversations. I HATE EVERYONE and EVERYTHING. Probably due to abuse. I. Don't. Fucking. Care. Every time I date I get cheated on or left. I'm just boring. I've never had a woman call me boring, because I'm not - empirically described as eccentric. All I do is sit and read about new things and I want to like going out and being sociable.
I. Hate. It.
I FUCKING HATE GOING OUT. YES I'D LOVE TO GO TO STAND AROUND AWKWARDLY AT THE SAME DIVE BAR AGAIN. LIKE I DID LAST TIME. YES I WOULD LIKE TO APPROACH NO ONE BECAUSE I HATE APPROACHING PEOPLE.
All of my friends either moved away or are busy or died. I'm burnt out from constant work and school and my girlfriend (Hate this dumb FUCKING bitch. caught her talking to MEXICANS behind my back. BROWN MEXICANS). I have no self respect. Why would I if I so clearly deserve so little. Sound like a stupid worm creature.
ALL OF THIS. All of this because I got raped as a kid and repeatedly neglected. I can't even blame my parents. I was a kid smart enough that it was actually astonishing, so you'd expect by 13 I would've said "Hey I've grown out of my spiderman blankets" or "I think it's time to put away my giant box of toys". I have seen what it's done. I'm over it all. Decade ago (still young... Dunning Kruger). I just don't like fun. I don't like how terrible people are. Family or friends or stupid bitch girlfriend call me to yell at me over something either accidental/because they're simply in a bad mood like I am their pincushion. I don't know why Hanlon's Razor never passes these animals' minds.
Unfortunately because LEAPING FROM A ROOF gets me exactly NOWHERE but the ground, I must suck it up and deal with it: the alternative is to truly have nobody. There is no "getting people to understand how badly they hurt me, time after time". Put it this way. An hero right. "Oh wow I miss him sooo much I don't know why he would do that" and even at the consideration of fault people wouldn't treat me better. Because I am dead.
People can't treat you better when you're dead. So torture is instead acceptable.
I must tolerate a degree of imperfection from others as I am similarly imperfect. just much more understanding of mistakes. except when my stupid bitch girlfriend goes and facetimes some guy the day i leave for boot camp, but can't really call that an accident.
I grew out of hating people but I've just been betrayed for the last time. I don't know how to expect literally anything else anymore. I literally just wanted a bit of romance (without getting kicked/my ass beat/cheated on) and an okay job.
Fucking stupid retards I hate everyone
I. Hate. It.
I FUCKING HATE GOING OUT. YES I'D LOVE TO GO TO STAND AROUND AWKWARDLY AT THE SAME DIVE BAR AGAIN. LIKE I DID LAST TIME. YES I WOULD LIKE TO APPROACH NO ONE BECAUSE I HATE APPROACHING PEOPLE.
All of my friends either moved away or are busy or died. I'm burnt out from constant work and school and my girlfriend (Hate this dumb FUCKING bitch. caught her talking to MEXICANS behind my back. BROWN MEXICANS). I have no self respect. Why would I if I so clearly deserve so little. Sound like a stupid worm creature.
ALL OF THIS. All of this because I got raped as a kid and repeatedly neglected. I can't even blame my parents. I was a kid smart enough that it was actually astonishing, so you'd expect by 13 I would've said "Hey I've grown out of my spiderman blankets" or "I think it's time to put away my giant box of toys". I have seen what it's done. I'm over it all. Decade ago (still young... Dunning Kruger). I just don't like fun. I don't like how terrible people are. Family or friends or stupid bitch girlfriend call me to yell at me over something either accidental/because they're simply in a bad mood like I am their pincushion. I don't know why Hanlon's Razor never passes these animals' minds.
Unfortunately because LEAPING FROM A ROOF gets me exactly NOWHERE but the ground, I must suck it up and deal with it: the alternative is to truly have nobody. There is no "getting people to understand how badly they hurt me, time after time". Put it this way. An hero right. "Oh wow I miss him sooo much I don't know why he would do that" and even at the consideration of fault people wouldn't treat me better. Because I am dead.
People can't treat you better when you're dead. So torture is instead acceptable.
I must tolerate a degree of imperfection from others as I am similarly imperfect. just much more understanding of mistakes. except when my stupid bitch girlfriend goes and facetimes some guy the day i leave for boot camp, but can't really call that an accident.
I grew out of hating people but I've just been betrayed for the last time. I don't know how to expect literally anything else anymore. I literally just wanted a bit of romance (without getting kicked/my ass beat/cheated on) and an okay job.
Fucking stupid retards I hate everyone
