blackpill actually ruined my life

[Foreverbrad]

I've been doing looksmaxing nonstop for 4 years and would like to take a break, but if I stop I'm afraid of looksmining and going back to where I started

Yeah don’t do it, I descended in a matter of just 3-6 months of time off and still didn’t get back to where I was, a year later.

 

[JustCope]

people always say things like "bro, leave the blackpill before it's too late." most of the time, these people just seem like attention-seeking nerds, but i have to admit there's truth to it. my life is still normal - i don't have thoughts of harming myself or anything like that. it's just that the quality of my life feels like it's taken a huge hit

i can't stand having photos taken of me anymore. i can't even make eye contact with attractive girls because i imagine them seeing me the way i see myself in photos - disgusted. i find myself squinting constantly but it doesn’t make me look better. instead, i just look odd, to the point where people ask if something’s wrong with my eyes. i’m always checking my reflection in my camera, and i’m genuinely revolted by what i see. my face doesn't match the image i have of myself in my mind

i want to be attractive and there’s a part of me that believes i could be, but i know i’m not and will never be. the realisation, that conflict between what i want to believe and the harsh reality hits me over and over. i’m not above average in any way. i never will be.

i've tried everything; maintaining a low body fat percentage, following a high frequency gym split, eating loads of red meat, avoiding estrogen, getting sunlight. i've even tried cope things like thumb pulling hoping it would make a difference. none of it works. i’m stuck with a face i can’t stand.

the only thing that represents my existence, my face, brings me so much sadness and disgust. this thought lingers in my mind constantly and it makes life feel miserable. and as much as i’d love to believe otherwise i know it’s true. looks matter so much, and i can’t escape that reality no matter how much i want to.

Cry

 

[ascensionneeeded]

I've been doing looksmaxing nonstop for 4 years and would like to take a break, but if I stop I'm afraid of looksmining and going back to where I started

just take a break and don’t stress for a while

 

[googlemoggee]

I mean I just look in the mirror and say alright

 

[xlegend]

insanlar her zaman "kardeşim, çok geç olmadan blackpill'i bırak" gibi şeyler söylerler. çoğu zaman, bu insanlar sadece ilgi arayan inekler gibi görünürler, ancak bunun bir gerçek olduğunu kabul etmeliyim. hayatım hala normal - kendime zarar verme veya buna benzer bir düşüncem yok. sadece hayat kalitemin büyük bir darbe almış gibi hissediyorum

artık fotoğraflarımın çekilmesine dayanamıyorum. çekici kızlarla göz teması bile kuramıyorum çünkü onların beni fotoğraflarda gördüğüm gibi gördüklerini hayal ediyorum - iğrenmiş. kendimi sürekli gözlerimi kısarken buluyorum ama bu beni daha iyi göstermiyor. bunun yerine, sadece garip görünüyorum, insanlar gözlerimde bir sorun olup olmadığını soracak kadar. sürekli kameramdaki yansımamı kontrol ediyorum ve gördüklerimden gerçekten tiksiniyorum. yüzüm, zihnimde kendimle ilgili oluşturduğum görüntüyle uyuşmuyor

çekici olmak istiyorum ve içimden bir ses bunun olabileceğine inanıyor ama olmadığımı ve asla olamayacağımı biliyorum. inanmak istediğim şeyle acı gerçek arasındaki çatışmanın farkına varmak beni tekrar tekrar vuruyor. hiçbir şekilde ortalamanın üstünde değilim. hiçbir zaman da olmayacağım.

Her şeyi denedim; düşük vücut yağ yüzdesini korumak, yüksek sıklıkta spor salonuna gitmek, bol miktarda kırmızı et yemek, östrojenden kaçınmak, güneş ışığı almak. Hatta başparmağımı çekmek gibi başa çıkma yöntemlerini bile denedim, bir fark yaratacağını umarak. Hiçbiri işe yaramıyor. Dayanamadığım bir yüzle baş başa kaldım.

Varlığımı temsil eden tek şey olan yüzüm, bana çok fazla üzüntü ve iğrenme getiriyor. Bu düşünce sürekli aklımda dolaşıyor ve hayatı berbat hissettiriyor. Aksi yönde inanmak istesem de bunun doğru olduğunu biliyorum. Görünüş çok önemli ve ne kadar istesem de bu gerçeklikten kaçamıyorum.

I'm like that too, but I don't show it on the outside and I try not to see women as an object and stay in contact with them, they even gave my type 8.5 just because I was nt, just keep living and be the best at nichemaxxing, that's the only looksmax.

 

[C4NC4N]

real bro. take a picture of yourself with back camera and flash while completely relaxing your face. it’s fucking brutal.

this is probably the worst feeling ever, cause u cant even see yourself when you do it. so when u turn your phone around its just an instant shot to the heart all at once, everytime i turn my phone around i wish i had a handgun next to me so i could just shoot myself without thinking

 

[Dawn_]

people always say things like "bro, leave the blackpill before it's too late." most of the time, these people just seem like attention-seeking nerds, but i have to admit there's truth to it. my life is still normal - i don't have thoughts of harming myself or anything like that. it's just that the quality of my life feels like it's taken a huge hit

i can't stand having photos taken of me anymore. i can't even make eye contact with attractive girls because i imagine them seeing me the way i see myself in photos - disgusted. i find myself squinting constantly but it doesn’t make me look better. instead, i just look odd, to the point where people ask if something’s wrong with my eyes. i’m always checking my reflection in my camera, and i’m genuinely revolted by what i see. my face doesn't match the image i have of myself in my mind

i want to be attractive and there’s a part of me that believes i could be, but i know i’m not and will never be. the realisation, that conflict between what i want to believe and the harsh reality hits me over and over. i’m not above average in any way. i never will be.

i've tried everything; maintaining a low body fat percentage, following a high frequency gym split, eating loads of red meat, avoiding estrogen, getting sunlight. i've even tried cope things like thumb pulling hoping it would make a difference. none of it works. i’m stuck with a face i can’t stand.

the only thing that represents my existence, my face, brings me so much sadness and disgust. this thought lingers in my mind constantly and it makes life feel miserable. and as much as i’d love to believe otherwise i know it’s true. looks matter so much, and i can’t escape that reality no matter how much i want to.

I’m sorry you have to go through this, but in a way I also congratulate you. You are one of the few who truly understand the world, you understand the hierarchy, you understand the roles of each human in the sense of BP. But moving forward, don’t lose help, consistently will always lead to results even if they’re minimal. It’s never over until you’re 25 and above so until then, stay strong.