blackpill has led me to the lowest point of my life. read below about an event that just happened

[ascensionneeeded]

blackpill has fucking ruined my life.

i’m 16. right now i’m on a school trip in morroco. the sun has set and my entire class has gone to the beach. as i’m writing this, the other 25 students are diving into the waves. they’re screaming, shouting, running, laughing under the moonlight. just like a movie.

i’m stood at the edge of the water with my toes in the cold water. i didn’t go into the water because i hate my physique. the thought of my skinny arms and legs being seen by everyone in the water.

why am i like this? i used to be the most talkative, excited and outgoing kid. now i’m some outlier standing on the sand. everyone else has worn shirts and a t shirt for this trip. i’m 3 days in and i’m yet to wear shorts. i’ve been wearing a hoodie and thin trousers which the bigger guys call me out for.

im not exaggerating when i say every single day i cry in the mirror while looking at my face. all i ever do is think about how unfortunate i am to live with a face that i don’t like one bit and is also below average. i’ve watched my confidence go down exponentially over the years.

every time i look at someone i feel my stomach drop from the thought of my sub-human eyes looking back at them. i squint and all my friends make fun of me for it. even my family got my prescribed eye drops for my dry eyes (which i don’t have) - it’s just me squinting like a weirdo. i know it looks stupid but i cant help myself.

i cant be in any photos anymore and i’m genuinely just living a pretty bad life now. i have money, good school, good friends. it’s like a part of me is missing that will never come back.

people used to call me popeyes (my eyes are my biggest insecurity) and people still frequently make fun of my physical appearance. comments about my eyes, nose, body. i just want it to all stop. but ik there’s nothing i can do. i’m 16. i’ve tried every method possible. i eat and sleep the best in my year, don’t drink. everyone else looks way better than me and does whayver the fuck they want while i stay at home eating food i don’t like and not going out to drink. i’m not looking for attention and ik some people will say some dnr stuff. i don’t mind. just sharing my thoughts

 

[Hernan]

reminds me of my first rejection ever boy did that fuck with me. it will get better i promise you that. lookswise anyways.

 

[vincentzygo]

 

[MrMinimalist]

blackpill has fucking ruined my life.

i’m 16. right now i’m on a school trip in morroco. the sun has set and my entire class has gone to the beach. as i’m writing this, the other 25 students are diving into the waves. they’re screaming, shouting, running, laughing under the moonlight. just like a movie.

i’m stood at the edge of the water with my toes in the cold water. i didn’t go into the water because i hate my physique. the thought of my skinny arms and legs being seen by everyone in the water.

why am i like this? i used to be the most talkative, excited and outgoing kid. now i’m some outlier standing on the sand. everyone else has worn shirts and a t shirt for this trip. i’m 3 days in and i’m yet to wear shorts. i’ve been wearing a hoodie and thin trousers which the bigger guys call me out for.

im not exaggerating when i say every single day i cry in the mirror while looking at my face. all i ever do is think about how unfortunate i am to live with a face that i don’t like one bit and is also below average. i’ve watched my confidence go down exponentially over the years.

every time i look at someone i feel my stomach drop from the thought of my sub-human eyes looking back at them. i squint and all my friends make fun of me for it. even my family got my prescribed eye drops for my dry eyes (which i don’t have) - it’s just me squinting like a weirdo. i know it looks stupid but i cant help myself.

i cant be in any photos anymore and i’m genuinely just living a pretty bad life now. i have money, good school, good friends. it’s like a part of me is missing that will never come back.

people used to call me popeyes (my eyes are my biggest insecurity) and people still frequently make fun of my physical appearance. comments about my eyes, nose, body. i just want it to all stop. but ik there’s nothing i can do. i’m 16. i’ve tried every method possible. i eat and sleep the best in my year, don’t drink. everyone else looks way better than me and does whayver the fuck they want while i stay at home eating food i don’t like and not going out to drink. i’m not looking for attention and ik some people will say some dnr stuff. i don’t mind. just sharing my thoughts

lmao what did i just read sybau

 

[SilverStCloud]

Sorry to hear that man. I don't know much abt your personal situation but I think it would be better to leave this community for a while since nothing good came from it in your case at least. I hope it gets better for you and that you'll be able to find your happiness once again.
You have quite a way with words you should try writing, maybe use it as a way to unload this emotional burden you are feeling in a constructive/creative manner.

 

[afghanincel]

same bro
I hate my physique and my face too. Like, whenever a friend of mine wants to take a picture with me, I try my best to avoid it because I'm so fking ugly that I want to kms

blackpill has fucking ruined my life.

i’m 16. right now i’m on a school trip in morroco. the sun has set and my entire class has gone to the beach. as i’m writing this, the other 25 students are diving into the waves. they’re screaming, shouting, running, laughing under the moonlight. just like a movie.

i’m stood at the edge of the water with my toes in the cold water. i didn’t go into the water because i hate my physique. the thought of my skinny arms and legs being seen by everyone in the water.

why am i like this? i used to be the most talkative, excited and outgoing kid. now i’m some outlier standing on the sand. everyone else has worn shirts and a t shirt for this trip. i’m 3 days in and i’m yet to wear shorts. i’ve been wearing a hoodie and thin trousers which the bigger guys call me out for.

im not exaggerating when i say every single day i cry in the mirror while looking at my face. all i ever do is think about how unfortunate i am to live with a face that i don’t like one bit and is also below average. i’ve watched my confidence go down exponentially over the years.

every time i look at someone i feel my stomach drop from the thought of my sub-human eyes looking back at them. i squint and all my friends make fun of me for it. even my family got my prescribed eye drops for my dry eyes (which i don’t have) - it’s just me squinting like a weirdo. i know it looks stupid but i cant help myself.

i cant be in any photos anymore and i’m genuinely just living a pretty bad life now. i have money, good school, good friends. it’s like a part of me is missing that will never come back.

people used to call me popeyes (my eyes are my biggest insecurity) and people still frequently make fun of my physical appearance. comments about my eyes, nose, body. i just want it to all stop. but ik there’s nothing i can do. i’m 16. i’ve tried every method possible. i eat and sleep the best in my year, don’t drink. everyone else looks way better than me and does whayver the fuck they want while i stay at home eating food i don’t like and not going out to drink. i’m not looking for attention and ik some people will say some dnr stuff. i don’t mind. just sharing my thoughts

 

[Hernan]

it would be better to leave this community for a while

 

[Iblamesaddamhussien]

blackpill has fucking ruined my life.

i’m 16. right now i’m on a school trip in morroco. the sun has set and my entire class has gone to the beach. as i’m writing this, the other 25 students are diving into the waves. they’re screaming, shouting, running, laughing under the moonlight. just like a movie.

i’m stood at the edge of the water with my toes in the cold water. i didn’t go into the water because i hate my physique. the thought of my skinny arms and legs being seen by everyone in the water.

why am i like this? i used to be the most talkative, excited and outgoing kid. now i’m some outlier standing on the sand. everyone else has worn shirts and a t shirt for this trip. i’m 3 days in and i’m yet to wear shorts. i’ve been wearing a hoodie and thin trousers which the bigger guys call me out for.

im not exaggerating when i say every single day i cry in the mirror while looking at my face. all i ever do is think about how unfortunate i am to live with a face that i don’t like one bit and is also below average. i’ve watched my confidence go down exponentially over the years.

every time i look at someone i feel my stomach drop from the thought of my sub-human eyes looking back at them. i squint and all my friends make fun of me for it. even my family got my prescribed eye drops for my dry eyes (which i don’t have) - it’s just me squinting like a weirdo. i know it looks stupid but i cant help myself.

i cant be in any photos anymore and i’m genuinely just living a pretty bad life now. i have money, good school, good friends. it’s like a part of me is missing that will never come back.

people used to call me popeyes (my eyes are my biggest insecurity) and people still frequently make fun of my physical appearance. comments about my eyes, nose, body. i just want it to all stop. but ik there’s nothing i can do. i’m 16. i’ve tried every method possible. i eat and sleep the best in my year, don’t drink. everyone else looks way better than me and does whayver the fuck they want while i stay at home eating food i don’t like and not going out to drink. i’m not looking for attention and ik some people will say some dnr stuff. i don’t mind. just sharing my thoughts

have you tried substance abuse?

 

[ascension]

You remind me of myself at that age. Riddled with insecurities. My mistake was carrying on down the blackpill rabbithole for years and years, making the problem worse.

Kids are just going to say whatever everyone else says, so that they fit in. That includes insults/bullying a certain person. Most of them couldn't give a shit about your eyes being weird or whatever, but they'll say it to fit in and reaffirm their position in hierarchy (everyone's looking to tread on others to elevate their position).

School is fucking brutal and you gotta get through it with a strong mentality, otherwise you'll drown. I went to school with guys who got bullied relentlessly for years. Brutal bullying. Now, most of them are married, engaged, working good jobs and happy. Why? Because they didn't get sucked into the negativity and maintained their sense of self worth. I wasn't bullied, but I let my self esteem get lower and lower because of this blackpill bullshit, believing I looked worse than everyone else, when in reality I didn't.

 

[ascensionneeeded]

You remind me of myself at that age. Riddled with insecurities. My mistake was carrying on down the blackpill rabbithole for years and years, making the problem worse.

Kids are just going to say whatever everyone else says, so that they fit in. That includes insults/bullying a certain person. Most of them couldn't give a shit about your eyes being weird or whatever, but they'll say it to fit in and reaffirm their position in hierarchy (everyone's looking to tread on others to elevate their position).

School is fucking brutal and you gotta get through it with a strong mentality, otherwise you'll drown. I went to school with guys who got bullied relentlessly for years. Brutal bullying. Now, most of them are married, engaged, working good jobs and happy. Why? Because they didn't get sucked into the negativity and maintained their sense of self worth. I wasn't bullied, but I let my self esteem get lower and lower because of this blackpill bullshit, believing I looked worse than everyone else, when in reality I didn't.

thank you for this

 

[Va-qoh]

blackpill has fucking ruined my life.

i’m 16. right now i’m on a school trip in morroco. the sun has set and my entire class has gone to the beach. as i’m writing this, the other 25 students are diving into the waves. they’re screaming, shouting, running, laughing under the moonlight. just like a movie.

i’m stood at the edge of the water with my toes in the cold water. i didn’t go into the water because i hate my physique. the thought of my skinny arms and legs being seen by everyone in the water.

why am i like this? i used to be the most talkative, excited and outgoing kid. now i’m some outlier standing on the sand. everyone else has worn shirts and a t shirt for this trip. i’m 3 days in and i’m yet to wear shorts. i’ve been wearing a hoodie and thin trousers which the bigger guys call me out for.

im not exaggerating when i say every single day i cry in the mirror while looking at my face. all i ever do is think about how unfortunate i am to live with a face that i don’t like one bit and is also below average. i’ve watched my confidence go down exponentially over the years.

every time i look at someone i feel my stomach drop from the thought of my sub-human eyes looking back at them. i squint and all my friends make fun of me for it. even my family got my prescribed eye drops for my dry eyes (which i don’t have) - it’s just me squinting like a weirdo. i know it looks stupid but i cant help myself.

i cant be in any photos anymore and i’m genuinely just living a pretty bad life now. i have money, good school, good friends. it’s like a part of me is missing that will never come back.

people used to call me popeyes (my eyes are my biggest insecurity) and people still frequently make fun of my physical appearance. comments about my eyes, nose, body. i just want it to all stop. but ik there’s nothing i can do. i’m 16. i’ve tried every method possible. i eat and sleep the best in my year, don’t drink. everyone else looks way better than me and does whayver the fuck they want while i stay at home eating food i don’t like and not going out to drink. i’m not looking for attention and ik some people will say some dnr stuff. i don’t mind. just sharing my thoughts

DNR