Blackpill is all I can think about

[Prøphet]

Today I left the house for the first time in weeks to see some family. All I could think about was how pathetic and weak an excuse I am for our whole gene pool. It hurt me to look people in the eye, knowing how crosseyed I am, and trying to make conversation, knowing even my own blood judges me more by how I look than the content of what I say. Of course even on gaba I still made a fool of myself, acting incredibly ND and low sentience. I’m so depressed by my situation I couldn’t get it off my mind, just talking as little as possible in monotone. But it’s whatever. I don’t feel as much shame for how I act now, because I know that’s just what was determined to happen. I am just a product of all of this. Bad hand.

 

[Chungus]

Kill them then

 

[Prøphet]

Also it was ropefuel how I had to eat and expose my malformed jaw to everyone as I chewed. I really hate having short face syndrome because of how it forces you to fraud if you want to even look like a human. Normally I would feel really embrassed but I couldn’t be fucked.

 

[tansel]

have you considered therapy?

 

[Prøphet]

have you considered therapy?

I used to go to therapy for years as a child. It was such cope, because the solution to my problems will never come from mere words, mentalities, or thoughts. That actually causes even more problems to me. I am a low sentience ND and the only thing that can possibly be fixed is my face. I will never be normal because of how I developed during those critical years and my cognitive genetics, but at least if I could just look like a normal guy instead of a subhuman, I could have something in my life not to be ashamed of.

 

[Prøphet]

I will never look forward to anything in my life until I can fix my broken face.

 

[tansel]

I used to go to therapy for years as a child. It was such cope, because the solution to my problems will never come from mere words, mentalities, or thoughts. That actually causes even more problems to me. I am a low sentience ND and the only thing that can possibly be fixed is my face. I will never be normal because of how I developed during those critical years and my cognitive genetics, but at least if I could just look like a normal guy instead of a subhuman, I could have something in my life not to be ashamed of.

have you tried medications? maybe antidepressants & plastic surgery can give you a whole new life

 

[1in3]

have you tried medications? maybe antidepressants & plastic surgery can give you a whole new life

Just the plastic surgery part

 

[tansel]

Just the plastic surgery part

not necessarily, vasiliy stepanov had all the beauty in the world & look what happened to him.

 

[Prøphet]

have you tried medications? maybe antidepressants & plastic surgery can give you a whole new life

I’m very wary about ssri’s, but if I ever get bad enough then maybe. I think most of my problems stem from my situation. If I can be loved by even one person I’ll have succeeded.

 

[annenisikeyim]

Today I left the house for the first time in weeks to see some family. All I could think about was how pathetic and weak an excuse I am for our whole gene pool. It hurt me to look people in the eye, knowing how crosseyed I am, and trying to make conversation, knowing even my own blood judges me more by how I look than the content of what I say. Of course even on gaba I still made a fool of myself, acting incredibly ND and low sentience. I’m so depressed by my situation I couldn’t get it off my mind, just talking as little as possible in monotone. But it’s whatever. I don’t feel as much shame for how I act now, because I know that’s just what was determined to happen. I am just a product of all of this. Bad hand.

its not that serious dawg

 

[Prøphet]

its not that serious dawg

It is that serious, Ive been blackpilled since I was 5 years old getting pushed around and mocked for being crosseyed by everyone and yelled at at home, now that’s become an internalized part of who I am, it might be over

 

[tansel]

I’m very wary about ssri’s, but if I ever get bad enough then maybe. I think most of my problems stem from my situation. If I can be loved by even one person I’ll have succeeded.

yeah i completely understand, looks are life, as soon as you start to look better everything changes

 

[Matrix88]

Today I left the house for the first time in weeks to see some family. All I could think about was how pathetic and weak an excuse I am for our whole gene pool. It hurt me to look people in the eye, knowing how crosseyed I am, and trying to make conversation, knowing even my own blood judges me more by how I look than the content of what I say. Of course even on gaba I still made a fool of myself, acting incredibly ND and low sentience. I’m so depressed by my situation I couldn’t get it off my mind, just talking as little as possible in monotone. But it’s whatever. I don’t feel as much shame for how I act now, because I know that’s just what was determined to happen. I am just a product of all of this. Bad hand.

Wow I've been reading many of your posts and I empathize with you so much. Staying at home because of embarrassment of being seen, feeling awkward while talking to your own family.

I'd like to know your age and if you have surgery or any other looksmax plans

 

[Prøphet]

Wow I've been reading many of your posts and I empathize with you so much. Staying at home because of embarrassment of being seen, feeling awkward while talking to your own family.

I'd like to know your age and if you have surgery or any other looksmax plans

18

I’m getting surgery for my eyes asap hopefully in the 1st half of this year

Ive been waiting for an eternity basically forced into being a recluse because of how badly crosseyed I am, I’m basically the modern equivalent of a leper people have been disgusted with how I look for as long as I can remember

 

[hyperbeast]

If I can be loved by even one person I’ll have succeeded.

Brutaled all in my pants after reading this



Wish you the best

 

[Prøphet]

Brutaled all in my pants after reading this



Wish you the best

Thanks big E