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I like to say to myself that I could've done so much and the world made me give up on my dreams but how much of that is really true?
Walking around in my city, seeing the ordinary lives of people around me makes me so incredibly uncomfortable. Whether it’s narcissistic or not is irrelevant. I don’t want to end up a wageslave.
I’m sure I’m not alone in this thought process, as children we might not have had the most clear and cutout vision of what we strived to become in life but at the very least some of us had random ambitions that we wanted to pursue. Maybe it was being an astronaut, maybe it was being a racer. The access to the internet gave us an unlimited amount of inspiration that couldn’t be channeled effectively.
It should be known that the education system does not reward ambitions. You’ll constantly be told you can’t do it because of some bullshit excuses like “Oh too many people are doing it already”, “Oh you started too late” or even “Oh your grades/proficiency is subpar”. Teachers and classmates alike have a tendency to think this way, they think they praise and uphold ambition, but only in theory. They don’t know what true ambition looks like because they label it as “foolishness” or “naivety” and that’s exactly what gives birth to that normie who feels as though their dreams and ambitions died with them and wishes they could turn back time.
But at the end of the day, maybe you could just push a little extra harder and maybe you’d see results right? This world praises the extroverted mind. There’s no need for me and my high inhibited brain to second guess everything if the natural born extrovert can get whatever he wants just because he feels comfortable showing that he wants it more. Naruto would never have become Hokage without such pure brazenness and resilience no matter the depth of his ambition. But knowing that, knowing that I could’ve done something to help myself means that it was all in my control and I am responsible for letting my dreams die. It’s an uncomfortable possibility.
Everyone has their disadvantages. Maybe what makes you “better” is how you excel despite that.
But at the same time all disadvantages have their own complications and affect people differently and it’s not fair to instil the same expectations on them as everybody else.
Walking around in my city, seeing the ordinary lives of people around me makes me so incredibly uncomfortable. Whether it’s narcissistic or not is irrelevant. I don’t want to end up a wageslave.
I’m sure I’m not alone in this thought process, as children we might not have had the most clear and cutout vision of what we strived to become in life but at the very least some of us had random ambitions that we wanted to pursue. Maybe it was being an astronaut, maybe it was being a racer. The access to the internet gave us an unlimited amount of inspiration that couldn’t be channeled effectively.
It should be known that the education system does not reward ambitions. You’ll constantly be told you can’t do it because of some bullshit excuses like “Oh too many people are doing it already”, “Oh you started too late” or even “Oh your grades/proficiency is subpar”. Teachers and classmates alike have a tendency to think this way, they think they praise and uphold ambition, but only in theory. They don’t know what true ambition looks like because they label it as “foolishness” or “naivety” and that’s exactly what gives birth to that normie who feels as though their dreams and ambitions died with them and wishes they could turn back time.
But at the end of the day, maybe you could just push a little extra harder and maybe you’d see results right? This world praises the extroverted mind. There’s no need for me and my high inhibited brain to second guess everything if the natural born extrovert can get whatever he wants just because he feels comfortable showing that he wants it more. Naruto would never have become Hokage without such pure brazenness and resilience no matter the depth of his ambition. But knowing that, knowing that I could’ve done something to help myself means that it was all in my control and I am responsible for letting my dreams die. It’s an uncomfortable possibility.
Everyone has their disadvantages. Maybe what makes you “better” is how you excel despite that.
But at the same time all disadvantages have their own complications and affect people differently and it’s not fair to instil the same expectations on them as everybody else.
