bpd impairing my self view, rate me instead

[pubertimaxxxng]

The very first day I joined org, i told myself i’d never ask for a rate and id just lurk and soak up information, but at this point i don’t care i feel confident enough in myself to take what i might end up hearing here. Anyway here’s the story,

Every single day i feel different about myself, can’t tell if im htn potential, or stuck mtn. i know other factors like height play a role in an overrall smv, which is also something that is fucking shit up for me ngl. one day i feel like chad next day i feel subhuman ngl.

im not even lean , never have been in my life. so i dont know what i truly look like, which is why i have dnp on the way but my mother tells me im very attractive even though im constantly telling her i feel ugly. i also get positive reinforcement socially, respected by others, looks from girls, smiles good energy etc, but idk something feels off about my face. dont rly care about my rating because of the things ive just said i know ill have a good life, but i wanna know what others on this site think and if you guys could maybe point of flaws i dont see.

irl my eyebrows are nowhere near that high set as they are in my driver license but they aren’t as low as a caucasian which is ropefuel but ik that jbw shit is cope. i’m also 6’3 if that helps with overall rate not even bragging cus i still don’t get as many women as id like. i dont put myself out there at all but i feel like if i look good they will just come to me more often. i’ve been approached multiple times but i want it to happen more and they only happened in school, not in public.

i’m 17 next month, im already on roids, already leanmaxing my skins been perfect my whole life but im on tret and shit. all the water stuff. i’m def looking into surgery for my browridge if the androgens don’t grow it more and radix surgery cus my shit isn’t that good from the side, not super nigger recessed tho, also will try skin lightening soon, maybe even the jamaican skin bleaching(ik i said jbw is cope but i lowkey hate being looped in with this stupid ethnicity) But that’s pretty much everything im doing right now since im broke.

Okay TLDR: I just want a rating from other people in the space since ive only asked my mom to directly rate me, and she’s my mom so i cant just believe everything she says.


Also showing my base just cus, i feel like its an mtn base looking back but that mole genuinely fucked my mental health, only thing i ever got bullied for yet it still made me an incel until 16. still fighting the mindset

 

[pubertimaxxxng]

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[Schumac09]

are you a straight male????

 

[pubertimaxxxng]

k

The very first day I joined org, i told myself i’d never ask for a rate and id just lurk and soak up information, but at this point i don’t care i feel confident enough in myself to take what i might end up hearing here. Anyway here’s the story,

Every single day i feel different about myself, can’t tell if im htn potential, or stuck mtn. i know other factors like height play a role in an overrall smv, which is also something that is fucking shit up for me ngl. one day i feel like chad next day i feel subhuman ngl.

im not even lean , never have been in my life. so i dont know what i truly look like, which is why i have dnp on the way but my mother tells me im very attractive even though im constantly telling her i feel ugly. i also get positive reinforcement socially, respected by others, looks from girls, smiles good energy etc, but idk something feels off about my face. dont rly care about my rating because of the things ive just said i know ill have a good life, but i wanna know what others on this site think and if you guys could maybe point of flaws i dont see.

irl my eyebrows are nowhere near that high set as they are in my driver license but they aren’t as low as a caucasian which is ropefuel but ik that jbw shit is cope. i’m also 6’3 if that helps with overall rate not even bragging cus i still don’t get as many women as id like. i dont put myself out there at all but i feel like if i look good they will just come to me more often. i’ve been approached multiple times but i want it to happen more and they only happened in school, not in public.

i’m 17 next month, im already on roids, already leanmaxing my skins been perfect my whole life but im on tret and shit. all the water stuff. i’m def looking into surgery for my browridge if the androgens don’t grow it more and radix surgery cus my shit isn’t that good from the side, not super nigger recessed tho, also will try skin lightening soon, maybe even the jamaican skin bleaching(ik i said jbw is cope but i lowkey hate being looped in with this stupid ethnicity) But that’s pretty much everything im doing right now since im broke.

Okay TLDR: I just want a rating from other people in the space since ive only asked my mom to directly rate me, and she’s my mom so i cant just believe everything she says.


Also showing my base just cus, i feel like its an mtn base looking back but that mole genuinely fucked my mental health, only thing i ever got bullied for yet it still made me an incel until 16. still fighting the mindset

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are you a straight male????

lowkey bi curious but that doesn’t matter here right? i said i don’t actually care about you guys opinion on a deep level, i lowkey like to hear opinions on my face, and just wanna know what people think simply. don’t like asking this question irl cus it exposes narcissism

 

[pubertimaxxxng]

k



lowkey bi curious but that doesn’t matter here right? i said i don’t actually care about you guys opinion on a deep level, i lowkey like to hear opinions on my face, and just wanna know what people think simply. don’t like asking this question irl cus it exposes narcissism

sadly this thread gets no views when every other thread i post gets engagement, even the one i posted 15 mins ago so id appreciate your opinion atleast?