Bro I think I'm depressed and feel nothing

[eyemax]

Idk its weird, I feel really dissociated and most of the time it doesn't really feel like I'm the one talking, the words are just coming out. It's almost like I can think while talking/zone out while talking. I feel like I zone out frequently and nothing really feels the same anymore, I almost feel like I am floating, just experiencing stuff. Sure, I have fun every once in awhile, but I don't feel bored at all anymore. It's mostly nothing, like I feel nothing. On the outside I present the same though. My life is very good. Sure, I could definitely improve some aspects of it, but for where I am I should be much happier, and at least be able to feel more emotions than nothing, happy or sad.

Has anyone here ever gone through these feelings of zoning out, not remembering much and feeling nothing? Should I try medications or SSRI's? I'm not really sure what recent life events would've caused this, I took ashwhaghanda for a couple of weeks like two months ago and it got worse. I don't even remember when all of this started to be honest. Its like I have no sense of self, no hobbies entertain me much, I'm just there. I have friends, talk to people, but at the end of the day I don't really feel like I am experiencing it.

I used to do this thing when I was stressed or bored, I would think, "This sucks but it will be over soon". And now it feels like this whole mentality has taken over my life, I just feel as if the current moment is fleeing, one second I'm thinking "Damn, its already 11am, the day is going by fast", to "Wtf its 9pm and I'm writing a .org shizopost" in an instant.

TLDR: I think I might be depressed and dissociated. I zone out frequently and do not really feel like I am experiencing life. I genuinely have no idea what to do.

 

[InanimatePragmatist]

Idk its weird, I feel really dissociated and most of the time it doesn't really feel like I'm the one talking, the words are just coming out. It's almost like I can think while talking/zone out while talking. I feel like I zone out frequently and nothing really feels the same anymore, I almost feel like I am floating, just experiencing stuff. Sure, I have fun every once in awhile, but I don't feel bored at all anymore. It's mostly nothing, like I feel nothing. On the outside I present the same though. My life is very good. Sure, I could definitely improve some aspects of it, but for where I am I should be much happier, and at least be able to feel more emotions than nothing, happy or sad.

Has anyone here ever gone through these feelings of zoning out, not remembering much and feeling nothing? Should I try medications or SSRI's? I'm not really sure what recent life events would've caused this, I took ashwhaghanda for a couple of weeks like two months ago and it got worse. I don't even remember when all of this started to be honest. Its like I have no sense of self, no hobbies entertain me much, I'm just there. I have friends, talk to people, but at the end of the day I don't really feel like I am experiencing it.

I used to do this thing when I was stressed or bored, I would think, "This sucks but it will be over soon". And now it feels like this whole mentality has taken over my life, I just feel as if the current moment is fleeing, one second I'm thinking "Damn, its already 11am, the day is going by fast", to "Wtf its 9pm and I'm writing a .org shizopost" in an instant.

TLDR: I think I might be depressed and dissociated. I zone out frequently and do not really feel like I am experiencing life. I genuinely have no idea what to do.

No SSRIS. Do more looking into their effects. It is a short term solution that rots your mind, the withdrals are made to kill you. Accept reality. There is nothing you can do against it, you saw too much and now you cannot take it back.

 

[eyemax]

No SSRIS. Do more looking into their effects. It is a short term solution that rots your mind, the withdrals are made to kill you. Accept reality. There is nothing you can do against it, you saw too much and now you cannot take it back.

I'm sure there is some medication I can take that will at least help with this.

 

[InanimatePragmatist]

I'm sure there is some medication I can take that will at least help with this.

If you are not severely ill then I do not recommend them. Do not forget all most all mass shooters were on withdrals from their SSRIS.
If you must, seek professional help but do not accept their drugs. It is a short term fix for a long term operation.

 

[eyemax]

If you are not severely ill then I do not recommend them. Do not forget all most all mass shooters were on withdrals from their SSRIS.
If you must, seek professional help but do not accept their drugs. It is a short term fix for a long term operation.

Yeah, its probably not worth it if the effects are that bad. What about stimulants? I have ADHD which is probably a major part of the "zoning out" effect. I'm aware of non stimulant options as well that are better in the long term. What do you think?

 

[InanimatePragmatist]

Yeah, its probably not worth it if the effects are that bad. What about stimulants? I have ADHD which is probably a major part of the "zoning out" effect. I'm aware of non stimulant options as well that are better in the long term. What do you think?

If you are going to get any, look deep into what type you are planning to use. I do not trust any medication from big pharma. More so in the west or NHS. The greatest shame is free health care. It brings more problems than actually fixing them. I wish instead they can have free health care for kids but not for adults, or at least some middle ground.

 

[xyukeeee]

Depression is your brain telling you to kill yourself because of your inferior genes

 

[eyemax]

If you are going to get any, look deep into what type you are planning to use. I do not trust any medication from big pharma. More so in the west or NHS. The greatest shame is free health care. It brings more problems than actually fixing them. I wish instead they can have free health care for kids but not for adults, or at least some middle ground.

Sides might honestly be worth it for me. Thanks tho, I will look into what I am gonna take completely. I want to live the longest life possible.

 

[eyemax]

Depression is your brain telling you to kill yourself because of your inferior genes

Im not sub5

 

[xyukeeee]

Im not sub5

What you're describing also isn't categorized as depression

 

[eyemax]

What you're describing also isn't categorized as depression

What is it categorized as?

 

[xyukeeee]

What is it categorized as?

Derealization/Depersonalization, I went through this for half a year

 

[eyemax]

Derealization/Depersonalization, I went through this for half a year

Did anything you do help? Or did it just go away with time?

 

[iblame_height]

I had the same thing it got away over time but i would use like medication as the last option but i cant give you my tips ngl because my depressia got away over time and i just became like happier

 

[xyukeeee]

Did anything you do help? Or did it just go away with time?

It did go away with time. Depression could be a trigger to even experience it but judging from your post it doesn't look like it is.

What helped me personally is keeping a journal where I basically write down everything that happened throughout the day and just really try to keep up with everything consciously.

 

[eyemax]

It did go away with time. Depression could be a trigger to even experience it but judging from your post it doesn't look like it is.

What helped me personally is keeping a journal where I basically write down everything that happened throughout the day and just really try to keep up with everything consciously.

Ngl when I head about journaling and stuff I thought it was like dumb bs. I will 100% try it though. Did you write it at the end of the day or just write it in like the notes app throughout the day? Yea, it was not experienced triggered, nothing bad has happened to when it started to happen.

 

[eyemax]

I had the same thing it got away over time but i would use like medication as the last option but i cant give you my tips ngl because my depressia got away over time and i just became like happier

Did you do anything that helped even a little?

 

[xyukeeee]

Ngl when I head about journaling and stuff I thought it was like dumb bs. I will 100% try it though. Did you write it at the end of the day or just write it in like the notes app throughout the day? Yea, it was not experienced triggered, nothing bad has happened to when it started to happen.

At first I wrote whole sentences throughout the day, then I just started to write keywords, and after a while you can write everything in by the end of the day or if you're lucky the problem is already fixed by then.

 

[eyemax]

At first I wrote whole sentences throughout the day, then I just started to write keywords, and after a while you can write everything in by the end of the day or if you're lucky the problem is already fixed by then.

Alr thanks man. I'll try this starting tmr in the notes app or something.

 

[Arminus]

If you are not severely ill then I do not recommend them. Do not forget all most all mass shooters were on withdrals from their SSRIS.
If you must, seek professional help but do not accept their drugs. It is a short term fix for a long term operation

Alr thanks man. I'll try this starting tmr in the notes app or something.

Holy Copium!

 

[eyemax]

Holy Copium!

Yo what do you want me to do then lmao

 

[Arminus]

Yo what do you want me to do then lmao

What’s ur life routine like?

 

[dumb]

i feel the same way

 

[kenibba]

dpdr, welcome to my life bro.

 

[segmt]

do you sleep enough? it got better afterwards
I always had this
dp/dr (depersonalization/derealization) research about it

it kind of goes away with time, it doesn't completely go away, it comes back in some occasions, but it went away mostly for me

but I need good sleep or it gets very, very bad, and anxious situations make it worse
adderall/ritalin fixed it but I don't like it so I don't use them

dpdr and apathy basically

I didn't do shit, don't do any cope methods

just sleep better and exercise if you want to, hang out with friends or something

but the apathy won't go away, it never does

 

[eyemax]

do you sleep enough? it got better afterwards
I always had this
dp/dr (depersonalization/derealization) research about it

it kind of goes away with time, it doesn't completely go away, it comes back in some occasions, but it went away mostly for me

but I need good sleep or it gets very, very bad, and anxious situations make it worse
adderall/ritalin fixed it but I don't like it so I don't use them

dpdr and apathy basically

I didn't do shit, don't do any cope methods

just sleep better and exercise if you want to, hang out with friends or something

but the apathy won't go away, it never does

Man this sucks, I'm gonna try working out more. Wish I could go back to pre covid times.