jammelook
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Now for reference i live in a pretty fast growing city in the U.S so more people is more competition in a sense. I'm a sophomore in high school and i got to a decently small school as it is private. I have good social status across my school and decent social status across the popular friend groups in a lot of the other private schools and some of the public schools in my area. When it comes to looks i wouldn't say I'm notably unattractive if anything im better looking than most of the people im surrounded with at party's/social gatherings and thats probably more important than noting if im lmtn or so in terms of getting girls. Yet in this dating scene the attention i get from woman is near non existent Im able to larp NT and im able to have a conversation one on one with a foid at a party from time to time but their shallow and performative almost as both parties are just talking like robots back and forth i haven't talked to a girl romantically since the end of eighth grade. Its truly been one of the most lonely points in my life of course fixing my looks would be an improvement to this problem and i am making progress in doing so but i just feel like that wont fix it it feels like im never going to get the romantic euphoric feelings you see on tv. I dont want it to sound like im "destined or deserving" of that but most people act like its a canon event like everyones had that highschool love that gave them the butterflies then broke their hearts. Thats all i really want to be honest i mean the term foid is not a joke i mean every convorsation i over hear between a girl with her friend all i can think is how dumb this bitch is and how nothing that will come out of her mouth will ever have importance or seem intelligent. But yet i still feel this need for connection kind of in the sense that i just want to not be lonely but also in the sense that i just want to experience it, i want to have the feelings of euphoria how ever corny it is like i want the butterflies and shit because i think then i would truly be happy with these emotions. It feels like the first time me and my friends were going to try weed and i was excited because it was new to me and it must feel so good because so many people have gotten addicted to it you know? But the point of that analogy was that instead of just buying weed then your able to feel how good it must be, the teenage love feels unattainable almost like im excited to try the weed and feel good for once yet im never going to be able to get it.