testosteronetoddler
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Ive always struggled with nuerodivergence and I had a dream recently about it and it was worse than I thought.
I was at school and it didn't feel like a regular dream, the dream felt like reality. We went on a field trip as a school to a science museum and me and my other freind with aspergers got paired with eachother and 3 other people. They ended asking to leave multiple times because we were to weird. In the end they just stayed away from me and him and we played together in a kids area saying they were stupid ect. Just coping. Then after that we go back to school and im in chemistry. My ex is in that class and her bestfreind. We have a assignment were you walk around the room and answer questions taped on the walls and me an her end up meeting at one and talk. and she says something about me acting strange all the time and how im a weirdo and everyone around us agrees and I get mad at her and start over explaining myself and just end up embarrassed. Then we go back to our seats and she whispers to that freind, loud enough for me to hear, and berates me with all these insults. like im not from this planet, im odd, im a weirdo who only looks decent, im totally disconnected, im secluded with no one to relate to. Just all of my deepest insecurities ive never really fully understood myself and in the dream I cry like a fucking baby, super hard, in front of everyone and im just weeping. Everyone is staring at me blank faced. Then I wake up and I start ugly crying loud for like 30 minutes straight at 5:30 in the morning thinking about the past 5 years of my life and everything that happened and what ive done like every little thing comes back to me and I agree that im a complete weirdo. No matter how hard I try ill always be odd.
I puked later on from how bad
For me whispering and teaming up on me is a big trigger and also being called weird. Im still struggling with nt masking today.
Just a little vent for things my friends wouldn't understand as good as this community.
I was at school and it didn't feel like a regular dream, the dream felt like reality. We went on a field trip as a school to a science museum and me and my other freind with aspergers got paired with eachother and 3 other people. They ended asking to leave multiple times because we were to weird. In the end they just stayed away from me and him and we played together in a kids area saying they were stupid ect. Just coping. Then after that we go back to school and im in chemistry. My ex is in that class and her bestfreind. We have a assignment were you walk around the room and answer questions taped on the walls and me an her end up meeting at one and talk. and she says something about me acting strange all the time and how im a weirdo and everyone around us agrees and I get mad at her and start over explaining myself and just end up embarrassed. Then we go back to our seats and she whispers to that freind, loud enough for me to hear, and berates me with all these insults. like im not from this planet, im odd, im a weirdo who only looks decent, im totally disconnected, im secluded with no one to relate to. Just all of my deepest insecurities ive never really fully understood myself and in the dream I cry like a fucking baby, super hard, in front of everyone and im just weeping. Everyone is staring at me blank faced. Then I wake up and I start ugly crying loud for like 30 minutes straight at 5:30 in the morning thinking about the past 5 years of my life and everything that happened and what ive done like every little thing comes back to me and I agree that im a complete weirdo. No matter how hard I try ill always be odd.
I puked later on from how bad
For me whispering and teaming up on me is a big trigger and also being called weird. Im still struggling with nt masking today.
Just a little vent for things my friends wouldn't understand as good as this community.
