changfrommumbai
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The life of lifelong KHHV LTN:
It's more the fear that women can love, but they can't love me. The fear of being defective in a way which excludes you from human intimacy is a strong motivation for feeling hopeless, especially where this fear is reinforced by an history of rejection.
i feel like i should always be ready that nothing good will happen to me but that is pathetic to live like this i am expecting everyone to abandon me and act and feel surprised when i see they doing good to me.
deep in my heart i just want to be proven wrong. because no human can intrinsically desire pain or discomfort, in the discomfort or pain itself the desire to be happy is instilled.
It's more the fear that women can love, but they can't love me. The fear of being defective in a way which excludes you from human intimacy is a strong motivation for feeling hopeless, especially where this fear is reinforced by an history of rejection.
i feel like i should always be ready that nothing good will happen to me but that is pathetic to live like this i am expecting everyone to abandon me and act and feel surprised when i see they doing good to me.
deep in my heart i just want to be proven wrong. because no human can intrinsically desire pain or discomfort, in the discomfort or pain itself the desire to be happy is instilled.
