can i text her now?

[puppyboy264]

i really miss her to the point where it is affecting me way too much and it gets worse and worse ewe

we broke up 8-9 months ago but we would still talk on and off and now we haven't talked for 2 weeks and i feel like im gonna die TwT

I used to have a "doomscrolling befroe bedtime" from like 11:30-1 am that has turned into think about my ex time from 11:30-2:30, when i do tests or homework i can only think of her and edn up doing worse than usual and getting an 80 TwT

why is this so hard
I really need to talk to her, just for my sanity
the other day i was very tired and started seeing her around my house
every time i post here people tell me not to text her and get over her
maybe thats what i need to hear rn but idek if itl even help this time i feel like i am going insane :/

all i do on org anymore is shizopost about her ;-;

i just need to text her and talk to her once, see how shes doing, hear what she thinks about me etc
is it time
pls help ):

 

[dictator]

nigga you are the girlfriend

 

[puppyboy264]

rq follow up,

i have reposted like 20 tiktoks about her in the past week

i wonder if she sees them and ignores them or ahe cant even bother to check my reposts anymore T-T

AND IDEK WHICH ONE OF THOSE OPTIONS IS WORSE

 

[puppyboy264]

nigga you are the girlfriend

pls dont be mean to me rn

dg has to stand together in toight times ):

 

[Joeseminate]

i have reposted like 20 tiktoks about her in the past week

you are homosexual

 

[psltristan1]

Shut the fuck up nigga
I just lost my oneitis I'm not tolerating this gay shit

 

[Finalkiosk]

i really miss her to the point where it is affecting me way too much and it gets worse and worse ewe

we broke up 8-9 months ago but we would still talk on and off and now we haven't talked for 2 weeks and i feel like im gonna die TwT

I used to have a "doomscrolling befroe bedtime" from like 11:30-1 am that has turned into think about my ex time from 11:30-2:30, when i do tests or homework i can only think of her and edn up doing worse than usual and getting an 80 TwT

why is this so hard
I really need to talk to her, just for my sanity
the other day i was very tired and started seeing her around my house
every time i post here people tell me not to text her and get over her
maybe thats what i need to hear rn but idek if itl even help this time i feel like i am going insane :/

all i do on org anymore is shizopost about her ;-;

i just need to text her and talk to her once, see how shes doing, hear what she thinks about me etc
is it time
pls help ):

just text her and tell her you wanna talk to her

be honest bhai, shel appreciate you

 

[puppyboy264]

just text her and tell her you wanna talk to her

be honest bhai, shel appreciate you

she left me on seen ):
and last couple of times we have talked it has been me texting her and she leaves me on delivered for hours on end
and the last message is me askinf "how was your sleep" TwT

i really wanna talk to her though

 

[shedontluv-U]

I have questions are you polish perchance???

 

[Finalkiosk]

she left me on seen ):
and last couple of times we have talked it has been me texting her and she leaves me on delivered for hours on end
and the last message is me askinf "how was your sleep" TwT

i really wanna talk to her though

atp just be honest with her

tell her you really like talking to her

she probably thinks your just yapping and dont care

 

[puppyboy264]

I have questions are you polish perchance???

no
i have said this numerous times
way more east TwT

 

[karmacitathugmaxx]

wtf u realistically expect her to say

u have to replace her somehow mane thats just how it goes in the trenches

 

[puppyboy264]

atp just be honest with her

tell her you really like talking to her

she probably thinks your just yapping and dont care

ive told her amot
i also told her ive been miserable and have basically said it was mostly cuz i couldn't talk to her

):

 

[puppyboy264]

wtf u realistically expect her to say

u have to replace her somehow mane thats just how it goes in the trenches

i will never be able to replace her

id rather rope so i dont have to see her move on

or kill her and then rope

 

[shedontluv-U]

no
i have said this numerous times
way more east TwT

Sorry I didn't know just wanted to verify sum

 

[Hihi21]

Nooo TwT

You got this I believe in you bhai UwU

 

[Finalkiosk]

ive told her amot
i also told her ive been miserable and have basically said it was mostly cuz i couldn't talk to her

):

i feel for you bro

i know how it feels

just try your best to not take it personally, it'll pass hopefully

 

[Finalkiosk]

i will never be able to replace her

id rather rope so i dont have to see her move on

or kill her and then rope

if you truly love someone you wouldnt fuck up their life before ending your own

you dont love her

 

[puppyboy264]

Nooo TwT

You got this I believe in you bhai UwU

thank u

 

[puppyboy264]

if you truly love someone you wouldnt fuck up their life before ending your own

you dont love her

i dont actually mean kill her

but i love her to the point where it has made me incredibly selfish when it comes to her

i need her as a part of me

i do want her to be happy but the fact that it will be without me will probably kill me before i can even do anything

so probably just the rope option

 

[illoan82]

plz kill urself

 

[puppyboy264]

i feel for you bro

i know how it feels

just try your best to not take it personally, it'll pass hopefully

WHEN DOES IT END ):

 

[Finalkiosk]

WHEN DOES IT END ):

for me it never did

but it gets a bit better

try to distract yourself with other stuff

 

[puppyboy264]

plz kill urself

big things are coming

 

[puppyboy264]

for me it never did

but it gets a bit better

try to distract yourself with other stuff

I have been
the past 9 months

i have made so many new friends, done so many new drugs, been to so many parties

nothing helps TwT
sorry im just rambling

i also hope the same for you
thank you for being so nuce to me

 

[karmacitathugmaxx]

i will never be able to replace her

id rather rope so i dont have to see her move on

or kill her and then rope

u think she didnt already move on

 

[puppyboy264]

u think she didnt already move on

i know she didn't

ik my post was long but i have been talking to her on and off and shes been telling me about her life ^u^

just fhe past 2-3 weeks

 

[Finalkiosk]

I have been
the past 9 months

i have made so many new friends, done so many new drugs, been to so many parties

nothing helps TwT
sorry im just rambling

i also hope the same for you
thank you for being so nuce to me

im happy i found someone i can understand

yea its really tough, some days its literally all you want and it feels like everything

i guess trying to talk to them is the best thing we can do,

i distract myself with random shit in my life so i dont have time to let it consume me ifykwim

if i give it some time it becomes everything and its really hard to fight it and i get really frustrated

it is what it is, we'll all figure it out eventually

 

[karmacitathugmaxx]

I have been
the past 9 months

i have made so many new friends, done so many new drugs, been to so many parties

nothing helps TwT
sorry im just rambling

i also hope the same for you
thank you for being so nuce to me

none of that is a flexable skill and also doing this while chopped removes like 90% of the benefits come on

Lock in on something useful or impressive maybe then she take ur ahh back

 

[puppyboy264]

im happy i found someone i can understand

yea its really tough, some days its literally all you want and it feels like everything

i guess trying to talk to them is the best thing we can do,

i distract myself with random shit in my life so i dont have time to let it consume me ifykwim

if i give it some time it becomes everything and its really hard to fight it and i get really frustrated

it is what it is, we'll all figure it out eventually

do you ever talk to them?

like when was the last time

 

[Finalkiosk]

do you ever talk to them?

like when was the last time

almost everyday

probably not good for addiction

 

[puppyboy264]

none of that is a flexable skill and also doing this while chopped removes like 90% of the benefits come on

Lock in on something useful or impressive maybe then she take ur ahh back

i have also picked up new hobbies

i finished calc 1 and 2 in 5-6 months
i started playing alot of new video games, watching movies, reading some books that ive wanted to read
i am doing alot >:3
but nothing has ever come close to the happiness i got when i would talk to her TwT

 

[puppyboy264]

almost everyday

probably not good for addiction

but does it make you happy?

do you ever feel like they don't wanna talk to you? what do you do then?

 

[jeffersonmogs54321]

Just move on nigga it cant be this bad

 

[Finalkiosk]

but does it make you happy?

do you ever feel like they don't wanna talk to you? what do you do then?

yea makes me super happy

sometimes i feel guilty but its probably just paranoia from tren making me anxious and overthink more than i usually do

i dont force them to talk, it just happens and if we magically talk for 4 hrs at midnight il take it and enjoy it

 

[puppyboy264]

Just move on nigga it cant be this bad

IT IS THAT BAD
IT IS SO BAD

 

[Finalkiosk]

IT IS THAT BAD
IT IS SO BAD

it leaves a hole

 

[puppyboy264]

yea makes me super happy

sometimes i feel guilty but its probably just paranoia from tren making me anxious and overthink more than i usually do

i dont force them to talk, it just happens and if we magically talk for 4 hrs at midnight il take it and enjoy it

how long ago was the breakup?

sorry if im intruding by asking to many questions

i just wish to be in the same boat

 

[jeffersonmogs54321]

IT IS THAT BAD
IT IS SO BAD

FIND A WAY PLEASE if she has a shred of thought that ur needy for her it’s basically game over and its been NINE MONTHS MY BROTHA shes prob getting pounded my bro just move on

 

[Finalkiosk]

how long ago was the breakup?

sorry if im intruding by asking to many questions

i just wish to be in the same boat

its not exactly like that, lemme dm you

 

[puppyboy264]

FIND A WAY PLEASE if she has a shred of thought that ur needy for her it’s basically game over and its been NINE MONTHS MY BROTHA shes prob getting pounded my bro just move on

shes not
i hate when people say that
i know her well enough

she definitely knows i need her

 

[karmacitathugmaxx]

i have also picked up new hobbies

i finished calc 1 and 2 in 5-6 months
i started playing alot of new video games, watching movies, reading some books that ive wanted to read
i am doing alot >:3
but nothing has ever come close to the happiness i got when i would talk to her TwT

Bro i could literally type the exact same message again

 

[puppyboy264]

Bro i could literally type the exact same message again

okay so then what is productive?

if your gonna say hitting the gym just dnr

 

[shedontluv-U]

Puppyboy answer my question genuinely

 

[shedontluv-U]

Are you a honeypot made by mod @puppyboy264 ???

 

[puppyboy264]

Puppyboy answer my question genuinely

i did

 

[puppyboy264]

Are you a honey made by mod @puppyboy264 ???

what the fuck does that even mean

 

[shedontluv-U]

what the fuck does that even mean

You didn't watched the movie?

 

[karmacitathugmaxx]

okay so then what is productive?

if your gonna say hitting the gym just dnr

Literally anything that your average drunk would consider a flex. You go to a lot of parties, so surely you must have figured out what impresses these people. Gymflation is terrible these days, if you dont roid you won't be able to flex your gains anyway

You gotta ask yourself 'is this distraction helping me get money or clout'. If the answer's always no then thats a clear wakeup call that you need to budget your time better. Of course you gotta leave some time to fuck around but if you stay like this you just gonna end up back at the starting line every day

 

[puppyboy264]

Literally anything that your average drunk would consider a flex. You go to a lot of parties, so surely you must have figured out what impresses these people. Gymflation is terrible these days, if you dont roid you won't be able to flex your gains anyway

You gotta ask yourself 'is this distraction helping me get money or clout'. If the answer's always no then thats a clear wakeup call that you need to budget your time better. Of course you gotta leave some time to fuck around but if you stay like this you just gonna end up back at the starting line every day

so your solve to my problems is money??

no amount of money could get me out of this
i had a couple of bandz on me at some point and i felt even more miserable because i couldn't buy her anything with them ):

and the parties i go to i am usually the life of the party and girls tend to talk to me and like me but as soon as i realize they are not her i get disappointed and drink myself to death ewe

im currently sober of a couple of months
maybe thats whars makijg it so much worse ewe