Cant enjoy anything anymore

[Prøphet]

Ever since I got super deep into blackpill I cannot enjoy doing anything anymore, because I know how fucked I am and how many absurd excruciating surgeries I will need to go in debt for, to still be a manlet hipcel in the end, it’s actually comical. I can’t enjoy even speaking to my family because all I care about is overcoming my subhumanity. I’ve gone total autist now to the point where my @autistic_tendencies are dominating my entire personality turning me into even more of a weirdo isolated freak day by day. Fuck you guys and fuck the world seriously, I hate being trapped in this existence where aesthetics dictate everything, why does it have to be this way. 99% of the day my mind is just cycling through the surgeries I need and all my facial flaws, it’s absolutely insane like a worm in my brain. And the worst part is, even if I did forget it through some miracle of God, it would still color every interaction I ever have with society.

 

[Prøphet]

I don’t see humans anymore, all I see is genetics.

 

[Lemic]

New avi looks good

 

[Prøphet]

New avi looks good

Thanks

 

[Lemic]

I haven't read the data bro, thus cannot give a good take on your thread.
Im opting out on this one op

 

[Prøphet]

I haven't read the data bro, thus cannot give a good take on your thread.
Im opting out on this one op

Wdym data

 

[Pickletoil]

Ever since I got super deep into blackpill I cannot enjoy doing anything anymore, because I know how fucked I am and how many absurd excruciating surgeries I will need to go in debt for, to still be a manlet hipcel in the end, it’s actually comical. I can’t enjoy even speaking to my family because all I care about is overcoming my subhumanity. I’ve gone total autist now to the point where my @autistic_tendencies are dominating my entire personality turning me into even more of a weirdo isolated freak day by day. Fuck you guys and fuck the world seriously, I hate being trapped in this existence where aesthetics dictate everything, why does it have to be this way. 99% of the day my mind is just cycling through the surgeries I need and all my facial flaws, it’s absolutely insane like a worm in my brain. And the worst part is, even if I did forget it through some miracle of God, it would still color every interaction I ever have with society.

Same. Except I don't obsess over it, It's been burned into my subconscious so I don't even think about it on a conscious level.