Can't even cope anymore

[Lonenely sigma]

At this point I just hope I die somehow. All my copes were very unlikely to happen, and now they seem further and further from reality.

For a long time I had a plan to earn money and do surgeries when I am around 25 (I am 18 rn). In order to do this plan I had 3 problems to solve:

1) I have to moneymaxx a lot
2) Design it perfectly
3) Convince my parents that its not insane

Ig many people won't understand the third one, but I have a moral obligation to not ruin their lives. Maybe I am just naive and stupid, but whatever, this is something that prevents me from ascending.

My dad is 100% determined to get a therapist to talk with me. I am generally NT and quite good at debating but I see no point in blackpill debates with a fucking liberal therapist

My family will prevent my surgerymaxxing, and if I do it they will be devastated. Its completely pointless, I have no road to go as I will either die alone or make them depressed.

 

[Graham]

Unfortunately I think most parents of zoomers come from a different time where they can't quite understand how things have changed.

My parents think I'm insane and I was diagnosed with BDD, but it's been proven how important looks are in developed nations.

I guess it must be pretty depressing if you were to have a son and all they were thinking about was suicide and cutting their face open.

 

[Deleted member 27746]

lonenely sigma

 

[Lonenely sigma]

Unfortunately I think most parents of zoomers come from a different time where they can't quite understand how things have changed.

My parents think I'm insane and I was diagnosed with BDD, but it's been proven how important looks are in developed nations.

I guess it must be pretty depressing if you were to have a son and all they were thinking about was suicide and cutting their face open.

I agree 100%, I would feel terrible if my son was in a similar situation. But those situations have a solution, and surgeries are sometimes a solution. I was never a quiter, and my dad recognises this, but claims that I focus on "negative things", you must've heard this a million times too.

Instead of quitting, I tried to find a solution. God dammit, its not that deep and I am not that sick to ruin my life with failed surgeries. I was ready to earn 4 times the amount of money needed for surgeries just in case I fail. It seems pointless to argue with them anyway.

Kinda hard situation to be in ngl, at this point I could either continue with my current story and possible be put under fucking medication, or I could just pretend I changed my mind and then make them have a heart attack in a few years. Or you know, just give up on life at 18...

 

[thickdickdaddy27]

What are your failos?

 

[Lonenely sigma]

What are your failos?

Recessed chin and quite bad under-eye area. I plan to do zygo implants as well as they would greatly ascend me but I'd consider them average

 

[Deleted member 25198]

 

[Graham]

I focus on "negative things", you must've heard this a million times too

Yeah, all the time.

I need to start wageslaving again, but IDK if I actually see my situation improving. What I'm currently doing is just trying to stop aging - let alone looksmaxing.

Realistically speaking even if I did get a large amount of money + surgery I'd still be a KV at like 28.

 

[Lonenely sigma]

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brb gotta tell my therapist how this confession... meant... nothing

 

[thickdickdaddy27]

Recessed chin and quite bad under-eye area. I plan to do zygo implants as well as they would greatly ascend me but I'd consider them average

fixing the chin should be a priority, but it has to be subtle such that you can lie about it and attribute it mewing (show them mewing videos and shit)

 

[Dr. Bludy]

Become batman

 

[Lonenely sigma]

Yeah, all the time.

I need to start wageslaving again, but IDK if I actually see my situation improving. What I'm currently doing is just trying to stop aging - let alone looksmaxing.

Realistically speaking even if I did get a large amount of money + surgery I'd still be a KV at like 28.

I respect that you decided to just do what you want and not what they tried to convince you, I wish to do as well but I will have to play my cards smartly

 

[Graham]

I respect that you decided to just do what you want and not what they tried to convince you, I wish to do as well but I will have to play my cards smartly

IDK, I had two years out while I took the damn drugs I was assigned. At the beginning I was NW0 and was looksmaxed, but by the end I was getting fat and balding, so I got back onto looksim sites.

 

[Lonenely sigma]

fixing the chin should be a priority, but it has to be subtle such that you can lie about it and attribute it mewing (show them mewing videos and shit)

Yeah I fucked up a bit by talking about surgeries with them when I was depressed, so doubt they will fall for mewing.

I GIGA-fucked it up because I fell for bonesmashing meme for a short time and one time bruised myself. They got scared and in order to make them feel less scared I told them what I did and why. Really dumb I know, and if my kid did this I would make him go to a therapist straight away. But I know I am not insanse, I was just kinda dumb to believe it would work jfl

Realistically I have to speak about this openly with them, the only question is if I need to tell them now or in a few years

 

[thereallegend]

don't tell ur parents about the surgeries. just do them

 

[Lonenely sigma]

IDK, I had two years out while I took the damn drugs I was assigned. At the beginning I was NW0 and was looksmaxed, but by the end I was getting fat and balding, so I got back onto looksim sites.

Damn, it happened due to drugs?

 

[Graham]

Damn, it happened due to drugs?

Doubt it. Although I did cope for a bit thinking it was and that my hair would come back. It might be like some steroids - where if you already are predisposed to MPB it accelerates it. It happened not long after I was on the drugs so it could easily be related, but I have shit genetics anyway.

 

[Lonenely sigma]

Doubt it. Although I did cope for a bit thinking it was and that my hair would come back. It might be like some steroids - where if you already are predisposed to MPB it accelerates it. It happened not long after I was on the drugs so it could easily be related, but I have shit genetics anyway.

Shame man, sorry to hear that. Not much I can advise you really other than looking for the best solution to your situation, even if others don't think its the best one. I need some of that skill myself

 

[Deleted member 28473]

At this point I just hope I die somehow. All my copes were very unlikely to happen, and now they seem further and further from reality.

For a long time I had a plan to earn money and do surgeries when I am around 25 (I am 18 rn). In order to do this plan I had 3 problems to solve:

1) I have to moneymaxx a lot
2) Design it perfectly
3) Convince my parents that its not insane

Ig many people won't understand the third one, but I have a moral obligation to not ruin their lives. Maybe I am just naive and stupid, but whatever, this is something that prevents me from ascending.

My dad is 100% determined to get a therapist to talk with me. I am generally NT and quite good at debating but I see no point in blackpill debates with a fucking liberal therapist

My family will prevent my surgerymaxxing, and if I do it they will be devastated. Its completely pointless, I have no road to go as I will either die alone or make them depressed.

Ropemaxxing is your next destination.

 

[Lonenely sigma]

Ropemaxxing is your next destination.

Thanks anon56

 

[Deleted member 28473]

Thanks anon56

You’re welcome, Lonenely sigma.

 

[horizontallytall]

Unfortunately I think most parents of zoomers come from a different time where they can't quite understand how things have changed.

My parents think I'm insane and I was diagnosed with BDD, but it's been proven how important looks are in developed nations.

I guess it must be pretty depressing if you were to have a son and all they were thinking about was suicide and cutting their face open.

This. Like they just cant understand how vastly things have changed . The media does its work here in a third world country by gaslighting parents to make sure parents make their son a subhuman wage slave fro life

 

[Graham]

This. Like they just cant understand how vastly things have changed . The media does its work here in a third world country by gaslighting parents to make sure parents make their son a subhuman wage slave fro life

yeah, I love my parents and I don't blame them. The media / establishment has been manipulating the masses for centuries to make everyone conform by their own free will.