Childhood and teenage years have RUINED me.. I will never truly recover

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I swear to god.. no matter how much I improve on my looks and my inner self, those childhood and teenage years of being a shy outcast have damaged me so much..
My opinion of myself is still haunted by my view of myself from back then.
Its so over.. it's so hard...
I feel like I should love myself because I do but I can't. My past has made me feel worthless..
Comparisson is the thief of joy. Today I saw a semi-chad and how high T he was behaving and low inhib and while I'm extroverted and social on the outside I have such inner anxiety and fears from my past.. :(
 
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Stop acting like a bitch get off your ass and make up for the lost time
 
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I was indeed severly traumatized and there is No recovery for my brain
 
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Run outside naked everyday
 
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Sorry guys, I use this thread like a diary LOL.
Some days are very hard... this post is probably a bit exaggerated, I'm doing very well in general but deep down I still feel a chain in my past that I will never be able to break.
I just want to stop being so hard on myself
 
the childhood pill is indeed the most brutal son
 
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Its so over
 
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brutal i have always been introverted even when i was the best looking kid in the class
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Holy shit humblemaxx asap , you cant relate to my traumas they are unmoggable :lul: :feelsrope:
 
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Truthmirrorcoper said:
Holy shit humblemaxx asap , you cant relate to my traumas they are unmoggable :lul: :feelsrope:
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wdym son girls have called me ugly to my face when i looked prepubescent at 16 laughing at me when i said i was 16 but looked 12
 
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Latebloomer10 said:
wdym son girls have called me ugly to my face when i looked prepubescent at 16 laughing at me when i said i was 16 but looked 12
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Thats not the same type , i was indeed a gigachad my whole life and have been treated well. But my mind still got raped by sights at a Very Young age , trust me they are unmoggable
 
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Latebloomer10 said:
wdym son girls have called me ugly to my face when i looked prepubescent at 16 laughing at me when i said i was 16 but looked 12
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I have literally erased horrible memories from my school years. I have become completely numb to feel and bring back memories.
 
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Thats not the same type , i was indeed a gigachad my whole life and have been treated well. But my mind still got raped by sights at a Very Young age , trust me they are unmoggable
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you can tell me brother
 
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Can relate. Something about being a 23yo khhv is probably not good for healthty development
 
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Ngl I'm super unstable atm, LOL
Its like I'm bipolar
I think I am losing my mind
 
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Thats not the same type , i was indeed a gigachad my whole life and have been treated well. But my mind still got raped by sights at a Very Young age , trust me they are unmoggable
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your heard creaking upstairs at 3am
went up found your mom doing unimaginable things with me
 
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MrMeeseeksLookAtM said:
I swear to god.. no matter how much I improve on my looks and my inner self, those childhood and teenage years of being a shy outcast have damaged me so much..
My opinion of myself is still haunted by my view of myself from back then.
Its so over.. it's so hard...
I feel like I should love myself because I do but I can't. My past has made me feel worthless..
Comparisson is the thief of joy. Today I saw a semi-chad and how high T he was behaving and low inhib and while I'm extroverted and social on the outside I have such inner anxiety and fears from my past.. :(
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I feel you buddy but @thotbuster3000 is right
 
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MrMeeseeksLookAtM said:
I know he is.. I needed that High T response tbh
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yea buddy dont worry I will help you if you need it check out my last threads I lately got brutally betrayed and I spilled some faccs about reality and how you gotta live your life unfortunately
 
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to_stop_da_cope said:
yea buddy dont worry I will help you if you need it check out my last threads I lately got brutally betrayed and I spilled some faccs about reality and how you gotta live your life unfortunately
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Thanks bro! You're a real one! Can you please link your thread because I can't see your posts, its on private
 
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The self is an illusion
 
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I felt anxiety today almost panic attack, after so long
Reminded me of school :(
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Dude I had a legit panic attack for the first time in my life about 3 days ago. I was breathing hard, legitimately shaking, I was thinking a ton about the blackpill and my life and how over it was and that's what got me all shaken up. I had major brain fog, couldn't think straight for shit, it was scary man. I was legit wanting to blow my brains out too and depressed whilst doing that. I as well have had a shit childhood, it was terrible bro terrible.

And this was me during highschool dude.

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Dude I had a legit panic attack for the first time in my life about 3 days ago. I was breathing hard, legitimately shaking, I was thinking a ton about the blackpill and my life and how over it was and that's what got me all shaken up. I had major brain fog, couldn't think straight for shit, it was scary man. I was legit wanting to blow my brains out too and depressed whilst doing that. I as well have had a shit childhood, it was terrible bro terrible.

And this was me during highschool dude.

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Fuckkkk brooo, we deserve happiness not this bullshit..
How old are you now bro?? Can you PM?
 
 
Same here. Teenage years absolutely fucked with me. Now I can’t cope with any teenage years. I’m stuck behind my peers too and they have gone forward in life meanwhile I live at home with no job at 19 and a full time loner. Everyone says teenage years are the best years of your life. Well, I have no teenage years to compensate with
 
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