christmas dones't feel like christmas

[hax]

i don't want to be that guy "muh life lost its... SPARK!!" but i deadass feel it now.
it's not snowing at all, the 2 week break isn't all that long, i still can't looksmax and i have no more "real" irl friends...

i deadass have no christmas present ideas too (that aren't roids) and i don't have anything to offer.
the only thing i could go with is clothes but it's too late and expensive if i ship them only today so i'm basically done for.

asking for anything after that just feels like i'm not greatful, then i go back top school and it all starts again.

 

[lowiqmanlet]

i asked for money, so I can buy benzos

 

[hax]

i asked for money, so I can buy benzos

asking for money makes me feel so ungreatful too though:
"i'm too old for this shit just give me money"
really all i want is shit to fix my aesthetic but anything except clothes is "insecure".

 

[lowiqmanlet]

asking for money makes me feel so ungreatful too though:
"i'm too old for this shit just give me money"
really all i want is shit to fix my aesthetic but anything except clothes is "insecure".

Forgot I also asked for a custom shirt, but you shouldn't feel bad for asking for money, you're just gonna buy the things you would like to get gifted, but you don't see them listed online or they are just too expensive to get gifted from one person. At least that's how I see it.

 

[car12345]

you gotta go ultra ER and build an atomicbomb that nukes your whole country