Coming back to school makes me even more depressed.

[Deleted member 14392]

I'm coming back to school tomorrow for my last year of HS, and i'm feeling so severely depressed that i barely have any energy to move out of my bed.

I don't have any real friends, only 'fakefriends' who don't give a fuck about me. I used to eat alone during lunch and i go in the library during intervals because i don't want to be seen alone. Now, i have to experience it all again for one last time, and i don't know if i'll be able to go through it.

Knowing i have lost my youth is like adding salt to this open wound i have in my heart. I wasted it by living like the rat i am, this despicable vermin that i think is called me. I think i can at least try to cope by assuming that none of the good things were destined to happen to me, so i didn't really waste anything.

 

[thegoat]

I know many people who were absolute studycels in hs then ascended in uni. Unfortunately I wasn't one of them. However it's not over for you until you've rotted away your whole early 20s.