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I've described myself as a KHHV (kissless, handholdless, hugless, virgin) on this forum in the past, but I just remembered a situation when I was 12, and I now realize that I'm not actually a KHHV.
When I was 12, there was this Syrian immigrant girl in my class. I don't know why, but she took a liking to me all of a sudden. I'd never spoken to her before, but suddenly she came up to me with another girl and said I was her boyfriend. I was a late bloomer, and I was among the shortest in the class. I was also very skinny. This led me to become a rather submissive boy, so she and her tall female friend easily took control of me and dragged me around the school like I was a ragdoll.
I remember her taking me to some of my friends, and one of them said, "Wait, you're boyfriend and girlfriend now?" He looked slightly shocked. I was embarrassed but, at the same time, proud.
She would wrap her arms around me and push her body up against mine. I was very erect, and I pushed my body away from hers to avoid anyone noticing.
After that episode, we never talked again. I ended up being forced to switch to a private school a couple months later because my parents thought my potential was being wasted in a public school. This was back in 2015, and I haven't seen the girl since. So I never got a good understanding of why that girl acted the way she did.
There was also another girl (high MTB) who clearly had interest in me, but I switched schools before the relationship could develop further.
As for switching to a private school, It was a mistake. The kids in the private school never welcomed me, and I was very inhibited, so I never tried to befriend any of them. The only people who talked to me were two girls (one of them being HTB+). But again, I was too inhibited and thought it was cringeworthy to be friends with girls, so I ended up missing a opportunity.
Being the guy with no friends who sat alone for the first time in his life made me extremely insecure, and so my inhibited behavior led me to develop social anxiety. After a couple months, I couldn't take it anymore, and so I began homeschooling. I never had any friends after that.
This has led me to where I am today: High inhib, mild social anxiety, schizotypal personality disorder, and stunted social skills.
So basically, I'm not KHHV but KV instead.
I was so close to getting a girlfriend, but I failed right before the finish line.
Oddly enough, I don't feel sad about it. It is what it is.
@TRUE_CEL
@chrisN
@chaddyboi66
When I was 12, there was this Syrian immigrant girl in my class. I don't know why, but she took a liking to me all of a sudden. I'd never spoken to her before, but suddenly she came up to me with another girl and said I was her boyfriend. I was a late bloomer, and I was among the shortest in the class. I was also very skinny. This led me to become a rather submissive boy, so she and her tall female friend easily took control of me and dragged me around the school like I was a ragdoll.
I remember her taking me to some of my friends, and one of them said, "Wait, you're boyfriend and girlfriend now?" He looked slightly shocked. I was embarrassed but, at the same time, proud.
She would wrap her arms around me and push her body up against mine. I was very erect, and I pushed my body away from hers to avoid anyone noticing.
After that episode, we never talked again. I ended up being forced to switch to a private school a couple months later because my parents thought my potential was being wasted in a public school. This was back in 2015, and I haven't seen the girl since. So I never got a good understanding of why that girl acted the way she did.
There was also another girl (high MTB) who clearly had interest in me, but I switched schools before the relationship could develop further.
As for switching to a private school, It was a mistake. The kids in the private school never welcomed me, and I was very inhibited, so I never tried to befriend any of them. The only people who talked to me were two girls (one of them being HTB+). But again, I was too inhibited and thought it was cringeworthy to be friends with girls, so I ended up missing a opportunity.
Being the guy with no friends who sat alone for the first time in his life made me extremely insecure, and so my inhibited behavior led me to develop social anxiety. After a couple months, I couldn't take it anymore, and so I began homeschooling. I never had any friends after that.
This has led me to where I am today: High inhib, mild social anxiety, schizotypal personality disorder, and stunted social skills.
So basically, I'm not KHHV but KV instead.
I was so close to getting a girlfriend, but I failed right before the finish line.
Oddly enough, I don't feel sad about it. It is what it is.
@TRUE_CEL
@chrisN
@chaddyboi66
