confession of depressed ADHD loner

[Deleted member 3828]

Sometimes I become fully aware of the illusion
only when I've been in isolation
in front of screens
neglecting basic needs
the point when I'm anxious to even pick up the phone

then rest of the time
I'm a soulless man

I'm pretending there is no precious time being lost
and I'm pretending my addictions are fun
the problems somehow disappear from my head and I cease to care
I become nihilistic and cinnic
@Thompsonz you were right to call me a larper because it's not the real me

And there is plenty to justify this in my head
cause it was never perfect and it's always sucked
and I suck

these are probably the reasons why I can never truly rest or have any work done and feel like shit

now how could a guy like me talk to a woman or even think about dating one
I do interact with people when I have to-at work or in school but I never open myself and connect with anyone
I feel like people are living in a different world than mine and in the place where should be our things in common-a bridge where we can meet
is a black chasm instead
and it's my fault but I can't fix it

22.5yo btw

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[Deleted member 15577]

the point when I'm anxious to even pick up the phone

I feel this one

 

[xefo]

I feel this one

‘no side effects from finasteride’

 

[Deleted member 15577]

‘no side effects from finasteride’

I’ve had this problem way before I started fin

Never had these titties tho, those are new

 

[xefo]

I’ve had this problem way before I started fin

It’s still a hormonal problem

 

[Deleted member 3828]

‘no side effects from finasteride’

I'm angry at you for responding with this cause it's like you don't care and just came to campaign against something
but whatever

I really don't see how that's relevant

 

[xefo]

I'm angry at you for responding with this but whatever

I really don't see how that's relevant

because everything you described is a physiological problem - one you have had your whole life prob

once you acquire enough energy (metabolicmax) all of these problems will just lift off your shoulders - anxiety, soulessness - nihilism

you’re not alone. most people are just husks, even if they seem like they’re not

 

[Deleted member 16677]

How can you face your problems if your face is the problem

 

[xefo]

I'm angry at you for responding with this cause it's like you don't care and just came to campaign against something
but whatever

I really don't see how that's relevant

I do care and it actually weight heavily on me because I was in the same position as you which is why I always preach this shit

 

[Deleted member 3828]

because everything you described is a physiological problem - one you have had your whole life prob

once you acquire enough energy (metabolicmax) all of these problems will just lift off your shoulders - anxiety, soulessness - nihilism

you’re not alone. most people are just husks, even if they seem like they’re not

yeah I get your point
that's the first place I'd be looking when trying to fix myself

the problem is bigger than this unfortunately
maybe you're right

I hope you're right

I really wish

 

[xefo]

the problem is bigger than this unfortunately

I doubt it

very rarely do you see mental ‘maladaptions’ or ‘identities’ which aren’t accompanied by physical pathologies

with enough energy it’s like your personality sheds off

most of personality being neuroticism and adaption to trauma from childhood and stress. when you are in perfect harmony with your environment, most of your identity just drops off

you too can experience blissful health & be a child again with vigour

 

[n0rthface]

It’s your body telling to go get some Pusey!

 

[Deleted member 3828]

It’s your body telling to go get some Pusey!

sometimes I feel it but only in dreams/daydreaming

normally I'm too traumatised and too low to feel that

 

[xefo]

feel free to disc DM me some time if you wanna talk about this stuff

 

[n0rthface]

sometimes I feel it but only in dreams/daydreaming

normally I'm too traumatised and too low to feel that

What traumatised you?

 

[Incellectually_Shy]

very rarely do you see mental ‘maladaptions’ or ‘identities’ which aren’t accompanied by physical pathologies

You have some potential.

 

[Deleted member 3828]

What traumatised you?

I mean shitty experience that made me believe I'm worthless
I don't have one moment that destroyed my life

dickshamed when I was 10 by some creep from school peeking on me in the toilet
probably started my insecurities

later I was sometimes bullied but mostly avoided
I got traumatised by some minor shit as well like harsh criticism being laughed at because of negative reinforcement
so I call it trauma because I carry that with me

 

[n0rthface]

I mean shitty experience that made me believe I'm worthless
I don't have one moment that destroyed my life

dickshamed when I was 10 by some creep from school peeking on me in the toilet
probably started my insecurities

later I was sometimes bullied but mostly avoided
I guess I got traumatised by some minor shit as well like harsh criticism being laughed at because of negative reinforcement

Join a boxing club to get over your feelings of weakness.

Try to turn every negative situation into a positive one, if people are laughing at you

In your head be like “those fags are jealous of me” then just reinforce this thought pattern consistently.


try getting into nature more as well, take a few hours and just contemplate your life in a naturalistic setting. The head space it puts you in can change your perspective on thinks.

 

[Trickane]

this is exactly like me
i think its common for people who got treated poorly in childhood

 

[Deleted member 13332]

be a child again with vigour

how

 

[Deleted member 5786]

You have to start loving yourself first

 

[one job away]

I mean shitty experience that made me believe I'm worthless
I don't have one moment that destroyed my life

dickshamed when I was 10 by some creep from school peeking on me in the toilet
probably started my insecurities

later I was sometimes bullied but mostly avoided
I got traumatised by some minor shit as well like harsh criticism being laughed at because of negative reinforcement
so I call it trauma because I carry that with me

You’re stuck in the past bro.


Many people see it like this: I would be a fool if it didn’t think I was dumb 6 months ago. We live and learn and we move on.
Learn from the past and their mistakes and do it better.

Being stuck in the past can be especially hard to overcome when your situation didn’t change. You still live where you at. You still doing what you did. You still hanging with people from them. If you truly wanna start over you should change your situation.


And lastly just like loox was once a bullied teen look at him now. He changed himself so much he doesn’t even really identify with his former self anymore.



Change your situation, change yourself and understand that we are to live learn and do it better next time

 

[justadude]

feel free to disc DM me some time if you wanna talk about this stuff

dont make it gay
its already hard enough to make a thread like this

 

[Deleted member 3828]

dont make it gay
its already hard enough to make a thread like this

Nah its alright
I havent been on discord since forever tho
And it doesnt matters since won't have any messages

 

[Deleted member 5786]

 

[Deleted member 3828]

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Thx quotes guy

 

[Deleted member 3828]

You have to start loving yourself first

>roped

@subhuman incel @Gargantuan

 

[Gargantuan]

>roped

@subhuman incel @Gargantuan

Wise beyond measure

 

[Deleted member 17791]

Sometimes I become fully aware of the illusion
only when I've been in isolation
in front of screens
neglecting basic needs
the point when I'm anxious to even pick up the phone
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then rest of the time
I'm a soulless man

I'm pretending there is no precious time being lost
and I'm pretending my addictions are fun
the problems somehow disappear from my head and I cease to care
I become nihilistic and cinnic
@Thompsonz you were right to call me a larper because it's not the real me

And there is plenty to justify this in my head
cause it was never perfect and it's always sucked
and I suck

these are probably the reasons why I can never truly rest or have any work done and feel like shit

now how could a guy like me talk to a woman or even think about dating one
I do interact with people when I have to-at work or in school but I never open myself and connect with anyone
I feel like people are living in a different world than mine and in the place where should be our things in common-a bridge where we can meet
is a black chasm instead
and it's my fault but I can't fix it

22.5yo btw

Spoiler: taggin users

@ropemax @Thompsonz @TsarTsar444 @Idontknowlol @Sphinx @BeyondHope @EverythingMattersCel @thecel @Jamesothy @eduardkoopman @SMESH @rightfulcel @Baldingman1998 @Trickane @PingPong @ShowerMaxxing @FastBananaCEO @lutte @n0rthface @vermillioncore @oldcelloser @russiancel @OldVirgin @subhuman incel @Leonardo DiCaprio @FailedNormieManlet @ShowerMaxxing @Romeo1111 @AdamAdam

dht and its consequences have been a disaster for men

I was like that too until my t fell off a cliff and I could cry and shit and be sensitive again

 

[Deleted member 3828]

dht and its consequences have been a disaster for men

I was like that too until my t fell off a cliff and I could cry and shit and be sensitive again

what are you talking about you crazy?

 

[Deleted member 17791]

what are you talking about you crazy?

Im more sensitive now and get highly depressed less often but cry over small things more

 

[Deleted member 19499]

Life never begun for us sub5 mentalcel truecels

 

[Deleted member 3828]

Life never begun for us sub5 mentalcel truecels

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