VRTGO
Slaymaxxing Hypergamous Women
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I thought I was over this girl so many times. Each time we would hang out as friends again and I would find myself wanting to kiss her again.
I originally coped by quitting the stimulants I was on at the time, rotted, and half-assed workouts in the gym. On the 4th or 5th day in, something changed. I had the urge to do drugs again.
"What could go wrong, I've tried being sober"
I snort 2 tablets (5mg dexamphetamines p/t) and head to the gym. After it not working with the other girls I've talked to in the last 6 months, I would typically just smoke weed to cope, and it worked until I got schizophrenia periodically and it now solidifying itself as a semi-central problem. As I walk to the gym, my vision starts to disable itself in certain parts of my FOV. I hit up my guy to buy a couple J's.
This gym session was one of the best things to happen to me.
I arrive at the gym at around 1:30 am. I aim to get there after 12:30 am to avoid any late-comers (usually people finishing a late shift) but I also aim to finish up before 4am to reduce contact with early birds. I do this to allow unrestricted access to equipment, but also mainly to accomodate for my autistic self. Anyway, I did every forearms, biceps and triceps workout I could think of and finished with 20 mins on stairmaster to burn fat so I can keep my hollow cheeks.
I left the gym finally feeling happy to exist.
About a week later, I buy a cart so that I can properly cope the way I used to. I'm now schizo again and spent quite a bit of money on slop, BUT, it gave me a clear mind. The day I got the cart we had organised to hang, me, her and a mutual male friend. Her and I catch the bus to a spot I made with friends (crack shack) and we get to spot (spot is what we call the spot). After about 30 mins of waiting, my friend with the carts gets up and he gives me mine. I take a drag of that shit instantaneously, and her (thinking it's a vape) takes one too, then realises it isn't a vape. She ended up taking another couple of hits.
After getting myself fried as shit, everyone leaves, and previously when it had been just us in a secluded spot in nature and music, I had been less restricted in what ways I could express myself to her. Now I can't kiss her or even be able to comfortably cuddle with her. But with my clear mind from the cart, I exert all of my energy to twist my neck and look at her. When I look at her this time, I didn't feel like I was longing for something more than a friendship. Instead, I just look at her with a blank slate, and I don't see her personality or lips or her past, but I can't help but feel somewhat disgusted. Not necessarily at her, but at myself for being blinded into thinking I loved someone whos personality I now found to be corny or extra. The things I let LLTB's do to my mental
Since obtaining the cart, I've descended a bit and it's destroyed my productivity. DON'T RECOMMEND
On the other hand I've been high nonstop for the last 5 days and I've never been this non-ND.
Essentially, if you need to cope with something like a break up or failed talking stage, I would recommend stimulants and locking in on here or at the gym. I recommend weed if you wanna be really sad for a bit but wanna get over it within a week, just know ur limits and don't get schizo. And somewhere between the 2 I'd put sober coping. In last place, I'd never recommend using alcohol (so many lookism negatives and destroys body & brain)
TLDR;
Break-ups or failed talking stages are rough. To cope with this, I either use stimulants to help lock in with lookism, or I use weed (I recommend the first). I don't recommend alcohol use or sober coping, I have better results with drug use.
I AM NOT A PROFESSIONAL AND THIS IS NOT MEDICAL ADVICE, CONSULT A CERTIFIED GENERAL PRACTITIONER PRIOR TO THE USE OF SUBSTANCES MENTIONED
I originally coped by quitting the stimulants I was on at the time, rotted, and half-assed workouts in the gym. On the 4th or 5th day in, something changed. I had the urge to do drugs again.
"What could go wrong, I've tried being sober"
I snort 2 tablets (5mg dexamphetamines p/t) and head to the gym. After it not working with the other girls I've talked to in the last 6 months, I would typically just smoke weed to cope, and it worked until I got schizophrenia periodically and it now solidifying itself as a semi-central problem. As I walk to the gym, my vision starts to disable itself in certain parts of my FOV. I hit up my guy to buy a couple J's.
This gym session was one of the best things to happen to me.
I arrive at the gym at around 1:30 am. I aim to get there after 12:30 am to avoid any late-comers (usually people finishing a late shift) but I also aim to finish up before 4am to reduce contact with early birds. I do this to allow unrestricted access to equipment, but also mainly to accomodate for my autistic self. Anyway, I did every forearms, biceps and triceps workout I could think of and finished with 20 mins on stairmaster to burn fat so I can keep my hollow cheeks.
I left the gym finally feeling happy to exist.
About a week later, I buy a cart so that I can properly cope the way I used to. I'm now schizo again and spent quite a bit of money on slop, BUT, it gave me a clear mind. The day I got the cart we had organised to hang, me, her and a mutual male friend. Her and I catch the bus to a spot I made with friends (crack shack) and we get to spot (spot is what we call the spot). After about 30 mins of waiting, my friend with the carts gets up and he gives me mine. I take a drag of that shit instantaneously, and her (thinking it's a vape) takes one too, then realises it isn't a vape. She ended up taking another couple of hits.
After getting myself fried as shit, everyone leaves, and previously when it had been just us in a secluded spot in nature and music, I had been less restricted in what ways I could express myself to her. Now I can't kiss her or even be able to comfortably cuddle with her. But with my clear mind from the cart, I exert all of my energy to twist my neck and look at her. When I look at her this time, I didn't feel like I was longing for something more than a friendship. Instead, I just look at her with a blank slate, and I don't see her personality or lips or her past, but I can't help but feel somewhat disgusted. Not necessarily at her, but at myself for being blinded into thinking I loved someone whos personality I now found to be corny or extra. The things I let LLTB's do to my mental
Since obtaining the cart, I've descended a bit and it's destroyed my productivity. DON'T RECOMMEND
On the other hand I've been high nonstop for the last 5 days and I've never been this non-ND.
Essentially, if you need to cope with something like a break up or failed talking stage, I would recommend stimulants and locking in on here or at the gym. I recommend weed if you wanna be really sad for a bit but wanna get over it within a week, just know ur limits and don't get schizo. And somewhere between the 2 I'd put sober coping. In last place, I'd never recommend using alcohol (so many lookism negatives and destroys body & brain)
TLDR;
Break-ups or failed talking stages are rough. To cope with this, I either use stimulants to help lock in with lookism, or I use weed (I recommend the first). I don't recommend alcohol use or sober coping, I have better results with drug use.
I AM NOT A PROFESSIONAL AND THIS IS NOT MEDICAL ADVICE, CONSULT A CERTIFIED GENERAL PRACTITIONER PRIOR TO THE USE OF SUBSTANCES MENTIONED
