Corny rant I guess

[brian_2009]

I cant stand people. All those horrible fucking people in school bringing me and others down just because the way we look. I hate them. I hate them all I want them dead. I cant even fucking sit in school without those rotten people degrading me. Just because I EXIST. And even when I find someone that "likes" me for the guy I pretend to be they just end up being just as bad to people even uglier and shorter than me. I cant help but feel the wish for them to die.
I honestly wanna kms every time I walk into school because all I see is people taller then me mocking me. Even most girls are taller. And I always got taken advantage of when I fell in love. How can this subhuman dare to long for some form of love right? I tried to get closer to a girl and she acted like she liked me. Always Called me, randomly asking if we wanna meet (even though it was always really short and convenient for her because she had something to do where we met after or beforehand), putting her head on my shoulder, always laughing about my jokes. And then after the summer break in school I was at the table with her and her friends and she just bursts out laughing exposing that she just acted like liking me saying im way to short to be able to have a chance with her and that I should call her when I get a growth spurt. And in the only relationship I had the girl just broke up with me via textmessage without a reason and proceeded to leak every bit of my secrets to everyone in our class. And even during the relationship she always was with her friends mocking me about some message I send.

And oh how I hate my parents. All my dad did was being a jobless alcoholic beating my mom and all my mom did was complain about me being so quiet all the time and when I tried to open up she just ignores it, talks over me or complains about it. And how I fucking hate her for always wanting to belittle me in front of my family. I bet she doesnt even realize it because Im a short and absolutely ugly excuse of a teen so its natural to degrade me or whatever. She told the whole family about me crying because of a girl and just straight up laughed in my face. I sat beside her and just watched in horror as the disgusting bitch that should love me kept on ranting about the gutwrenching scenario (not the ones from above) I found myself in and oh how she enjoyed just laughing. She couldnt stop. I hate her. I always did. Also she always tries to portray me as weak or obedient. Always making comments about how ugly my body is or how obedient I am just because Im showing basic human decency and helping her out when asked. Not only she but also her friends do that. They say things like that my face looks like its from a girl and that only my voice is the thing differentiating me from a girl or that I should make myself useful and paint their nails. I hate it I just want it to stop is that too much to ask for? How can people be so annoying? I hate myself enough i dont need others reinforcing it. And even when no ones around to hear her jokes she just cant help but humiliate me e.g. for asking her if she could cook something because all this bitch does is buy some microwave slop for me to eat. I just cook for myself now or go to my grandma sometimes for something proper to eat. I feel like my grandma is the only person that has love in her heart for me. She always asks me to stay longer. I love being able to help her and just be there so she isnt all alone in her apartment. And my mom dares to talk bad about her. She always belittles the food she makes and complains about her. This whore deserves to die. I would be so fucking happy.

Recently Ive been making good progress in my face but that just doesnt suffice. I wanna kms. I just cant do this. No one would care anyways. Maybe Im just a crybaby and I deserve all this and all this is normal idk. I dont know anything really. I cant understand how people act normal. Every time I say something it ends up being laughed at and shared between others or they just ignore me and give me a weird look. And I always zone out in school and then snap back to some annoying guy or bitch saying sth like "are you geeked?" Or "why are you looking there the whole time?" Or "whats so interesting?".

I hate this world. And I hate myself even more. If only I had better genetics...

 

[iblamexyz]

I cant stand people. All those horrible fucking people in school bringing me and others down just because the way we look. I hate them. I hate them all I want them dead. I cant even fucking sit in school without those rotten people degrading me. Just because I EXIST. And even when I find someone that "likes" me for the guy I pretend to be they just end up being just as bad to people even uglier and shorter than me. I cant help but feel the wish for them to die.
I honestly wanna kms every time I walk into school because all I see is people taller then me mocking me. Even most girls are taller. And I always got taken advantage of when I fell in love. How can this subhuman dare to long for some form of love right? I tried to get closer to a girl and she acted like she liked me. Always Called me, randomly asking if we wanna meet (even though it was always really short and convenient for her because she had something to do where we met after or beforehand), putting her head on my shoulder, always laughing about my jokes. And then after the summer break in school I was at the table with her and her friends and she just bursts out laughing exposing that she just acted like liking me saying im way to short to be able to have a chance with her and that I should call her when I get a growth spurt. And in the only relationship I had the girl just broke up with me via textmessage without a reason and proceeded to leak every bit of my secrets to everyone in our class. And even during the relationship she always was with her friends mocking me about some message I send.

And oh how I hate my parents. All my dad did was being a jobless alcoholic beating my mom and all my mom did was complain about me being so quiet all the time and when I tried to open up she just ignores it, talks over me or complains about it. And how I fucking hate her for always wanting to belittle me in front of my family. I bet she doesnt even realize it because Im a short and absolutely ugly excuse of a teen so its natural to degrade me or whatever. She told the whole family about me crying because of a girl and just straight up laughed in my face. I sat beside her and just watched in horror as the disgusting bitch that should love me kept on ranting about the gutwrenching scenario (not the ones from above) I found myself in and oh how she enjoyed just laughing. She couldnt stop. I hate her. I always did. Also she always tries to portray me as weak or obedient. Always making comments about how ugly my body is or how obedient I am just because Im showing basic human decency and helping her out when asked. Not only she but also her friends do that. They say things like that my face looks like its from a girl and that only my voice is the thing differentiating me from a girl or that I should make myself useful and paint their nails. I hate it I just want it to stop is that too much to ask for? How can people be so annoying? I hate myself enough i dont need others reinforcing it. And even when no ones around to hear her jokes she just cant help but humiliate me e.g. for asking her if she could cook something because all this bitch does is buy some microwave slop for me to eat. I just cook for myself now or go to my grandma sometimes for something proper to eat. I feel like my grandma is the only person that has love in her heart for me. She always asks me to stay longer. I love being able to help her and just be there so she isnt all alone in her apartment. And my mom dares to talk bad about her. She always belittles the food she makes and complains about her. This whore deserves to die. I would be so fucking happy.

Recently Ive been making good progress in my face but that just doesnt suffice. I wanna kms. I just cant do this. No one would care anyways. Maybe Im just a crybaby and I deserve all this and all this is normal idk. I dont know anything really. I cant understand how people act normal. Every time I say something it ends up being laughed at and shared between others or they just ignore me and give me a weird look. And I always zone out in school and then snap back to some annoying guy or bitch saying sth like "are you geeked?" Or "why are you looking there the whole time?" Or "whats so interesting?".

I hate this world. And I hate myself even more. If only I had better genetics...

Hymen

 

[sick kunt31]

dnr

 

[samz]

Brutal

 

[Evergreen]

I read every word, damn man

I really hope it gets better, girls stop doing that shit altogether and your mom would start being nicer

I don’t know how you handle these types of emotions but the way I did it was I planned going ER against everyone who had ever done anything wrong against me but that is NOT the solution it will only make your mental health worse

I don’t know if all those thoughts and plans and things I did caused me to get anger issues or if it was the other way around but going ER is not a solution of any kind

But I really hope it gets better though best for you would be to leave the forum and community completely because this place will make you closer to going ER and suicide than just being ugly and LDARing

 

[zakfatstack$]

I hope it gets better for you, man. Remember, just keep trying your hardest to look the best you can, and I recommend hitting the gym or doing a martial art; it builds confidence, and if someone tries disrespecting you again, beat the tf out of them. People like to pick on easy targets; just don't be one of them. Life is a cruel game; you just have to learn how to play it. I also recommended talking to a therapist or psychologist, they'll help you with what you're dealing with.

 

[sub⁶⁶⁶]

holy shit this is brutal im so sorry

 

[loserboy13]

i relate with most of this

I cant stand people. All those horrible fucking people in school bringing me and others down just because the way we look. I hate them. I hate them all I want them dead. I cant even fucking sit in school without those rotten people degrading me. Just because I EXIST. And even when I find someone that "likes" me for the guy I pretend to be they just end up being just as bad to people even uglier and shorter than me. I cant help but feel the wish for them to die.
I honestly wanna kms every time I walk into school because all I see is people taller then me mocking me. Even most girls are taller. And I always got taken advantage of when I fell in love. How can this subhuman dare to long for some form of love right? I tried to get closer to a girl and she acted like she liked me. Always Called me, randomly asking if we wanna meet (even though it was always really short and convenient for her because she had something to do where we met after or beforehand), putting her head on my shoulder, always laughing about my jokes. And then after the summer break in school I was at the table with her and her friends and she just bursts out laughing exposing that she just acted like liking me saying im way to short to be able to have a chance with her and that I should call her when I get a growth spurt. And in the only relationship I had the girl just broke up with me via textmessage without a reason and proceeded to leak every bit of my secrets to everyone in our class. And even during the relationship she always was with her friends mocking me about some message I send.

And oh how I hate my parents. All my dad did was being a jobless alcoholic beating my mom and all my mom did was complain about me being so quiet all the time and when I tried to open up she just ignores it, talks over me or complains about it. And how I fucking hate her for always wanting to belittle me in front of my family. I bet she doesnt even realize it because Im a short and absolutely ugly excuse of a teen so its natural to degrade me or whatever. She told the whole family about me crying because of a girl and just straight up laughed in my face. I sat beside her and just watched in horror as the disgusting bitch that should love me kept on ranting about the gutwrenching scenario (not the ones from above) I found myself in and oh how she enjoyed just laughing. She couldnt stop. I hate her. I always did. Also she always tries to portray me as weak or obedient. Always making comments about how ugly my body is or how obedient I am just because Im showing basic human decency and helping her out when asked. Not only she but also her friends do that. They say things like that my face looks like its from a girl and that only my voice is the thing differentiating me from a girl or that I should make myself useful and paint their nails. I hate it I just want it to stop is that too much to ask for? How can people be so annoying? I hate myself enough i dont need others reinforcing it. And even when no ones around to hear her jokes she just cant help but humiliate me e.g. for asking her if she could cook something because all this bitch does is buy some microwave slop for me to eat. I just cook for myself now or go to my grandma sometimes for something proper to eat. I feel like my grandma is the only person that has love in her heart for me. She always asks me to stay longer. I love being able to help her and just be there so she isnt all alone in her apartment. And my mom dares to talk bad about her. She always belittles the food she makes and complains about her. This whore deserves to die. I would be so fucking happy.

Recently Ive been making good progress in my face but that just doesnt suffice. I wanna kms. I just cant do this. No one would care anyways. Maybe Im just a crybaby and I deserve all this and all this is normal idk. I dont know anything really. I cant understand how people act normal. Every time I say something it ends up being laughed at and shared between others or they just ignore me and give me a weird look. And I always zone out in school and then snap back to some annoying guy or bitch saying sth like "are you geeked?" Or "why are you looking there the whole time?" Or "whats so interesting?".

I hate this world. And I hate myself even more. If only I had better genetics...

 

[satangoy]

I cant stand people. All those horrible fucking people in school bringing me and others down just because the way we look. I hate them. I hate them all I want them dead. I cant even fucking sit in school without those rotten people degrading me. Just because I EXIST. And even when I find someone that "likes" me for the guy I pretend to be they just end up being just as bad to people even uglier and shorter than me. I cant help but feel the wish for them to die.
I honestly wanna kms every time I walk into school because all I see is people taller then me mocking me. Even most girls are taller. And I always got taken advantage of when I fell in love. How can this subhuman dare to long for some form of love right? I tried to get closer to a girl and she acted like she liked me. Always Called me, randomly asking if we wanna meet (even though it was always really short and convenient for her because she had something to do where we met after or beforehand), putting her head on my shoulder, always laughing about my jokes. And then after the summer break in school I was at the table with her and her friends and she just bursts out laughing exposing that she just acted like liking me saying im way to short to be able to have a chance with her and that I should call her when I get a growth spurt. And in the only relationship I had the girl just broke up with me via textmessage without a reason and proceeded to leak every bit of my secrets to everyone in our class. And even during the relationship she always was with her friends mocking me about some message I send.

And oh how I hate my parents. All my dad did was being a jobless alcoholic beating my mom and all my mom did was complain about me being so quiet all the time and when I tried to open up she just ignores it, talks over me or complains about it. And how I fucking hate her for always wanting to belittle me in front of my family. I bet she doesnt even realize it because Im a short and absolutely ugly excuse of a teen so its natural to degrade me or whatever. She told the whole family about me crying because of a girl and just straight up laughed in my face. I sat beside her and just watched in horror as the disgusting bitch that should love me kept on ranting about the gutwrenching scenario (not the ones from above) I found myself in and oh how she enjoyed just laughing. She couldnt stop. I hate her. I always did. Also she always tries to portray me as weak or obedient. Always making comments about how ugly my body is or how obedient I am just because Im showing basic human decency and helping her out when asked. Not only she but also her friends do that. They say things like that my face looks like its from a girl and that only my voice is the thing differentiating me from a girl or that I should make myself useful and paint their nails. I hate it I just want it to stop is that too much to ask for? How can people be so annoying? I hate myself enough i dont need others reinforcing it. And even when no ones around to hear her jokes she just cant help but humiliate me e.g. for asking her if she could cook something because all this bitch does is buy some microwave slop for me to eat. I just cook for myself now or go to my grandma sometimes for something proper to eat. I feel like my grandma is the only person that has love in her heart for me. She always asks me to stay longer. I love being able to help her and just be there so she isnt all alone in her apartment. And my mom dares to talk bad about her. She always belittles the food she makes and complains about her. This whore deserves to die. I would be so fucking happy.

Recently Ive been making good progress in my face but that just doesnt suffice. I wanna kms. I just cant do this. No one would care anyways. Maybe Im just a crybaby and I deserve all this and all this is normal idk. I dont know anything really. I cant understand how people act normal. Every time I say something it ends up being laughed at and shared between others or they just ignore me and give me a weird look. And I always zone out in school and then snap back to some annoying guy or bitch saying sth like "are you geeked?" Or "why are you looking there the whole time?" Or "whats so interesting?".

I hate this world. And I hate myself even more. If only I had better genetics...

bro i read every single bit and holy shitt, I've had the exact same issue at school maybe not for height but mfs bullied me too and i used to get mad derealizations and zone out,
at school regardless of ur situation don't isolate urself from people it'll make the problem worse and they'll hate you even more for being the wierd outcast, put on an NT mask, get some friends even if they're fake just for the sake of having someone at school, when it comes to family issues i also had them u just got to cut urself off from family do what's necessary and that's all, also don't be a pussy when it comes to fighting back, always fight back and show that ur not the type to tolerate disrespect if you can train martial arts no it's not cope and yes combine it with gymceling and get on a roid cycle so mfs will fear they'll get their ass torn and raped when they disrespect you.
Wish you the best as someone who also had similar problems it does get better but it takes a lot of time so be patient and do the best u can

 

[abzz!]

bro i read every single bit and holy shitt, I've had the exact same issue at school maybe not for height but mfs bullied me too and i used to get mad derealizations and zone out,
at school regardless of ur situation don't isolate urself from people it'll make the problem worse and they'll hate you even more for being the wierd outcast, put on an NT mask, get some friends even if they're fake just for the sake of having someone at school, when it comes to family issues i also had them u just got to cut urself off from family do what's necessary and that's all, also don't be a pussy when it comes to fighting back, always fight back and show that ur not the type to tolerate disrespect if you can train martial arts no it's not cope and yes combine it with gymceling and get on a roid cycle so mfs will fear they'll get their ass torn raped when they disrespect you.
Wish you the best as someone who also had similar problems it does get better but it takes a lot of time so be patient and do the best u can

advice never misses chad

 

[Deleted member 298271]

I cant stand people. All those horrible fucking people in school bringing me and others down just because the way we look. I hate them. I hate them all I want them dead. I cant even fucking sit in school without those rotten people degrading me. Just because I EXIST. And even when I find someone that "likes" me for the guy I pretend to be they just end up being just as bad to people even uglier and shorter than me. I cant help but feel the wish for them to die.
I honestly wanna kms every time I walk into school because all I see is people taller then me mocking me. Even most girls are taller. And I always got taken advantage of when I fell in love. How can this subhuman dare to long for some form of love right? I tried to get closer to a girl and she acted like she liked me. Always Called me, randomly asking if we wanna meet (even though it was always really short and convenient for her because she had something to do where we met after or beforehand), putting her head on my shoulder, always laughing about my jokes. And then after the summer break in school I was at the table with her and her friends and she just bursts out laughing exposing that she just acted like liking me saying im way to short to be able to have a chance with her and that I should call her when I get a growth spurt. And in the only relationship I had the girl just broke up with me via textmessage without a reason and proceeded to leak every bit of my secrets to everyone in our class. And even during the relationship she always was with her friends mocking me about some message I send.

And oh how I hate my parents. All my dad did was being a jobless alcoholic beating my mom and all my mom did was complain about me being so quiet all the time and when I tried to open up she just ignores it, talks over me or complains about it. And how I fucking hate her for always wanting to belittle me in front of my family. I bet she doesnt even realize it because Im a short and absolutely ugly excuse of a teen so its natural to degrade me or whatever. She told the whole family about me crying because of a girl and just straight up laughed in my face. I sat beside her and just watched in horror as the disgusting bitch that should love me kept on ranting about the gutwrenching scenario (not the ones from above) I found myself in and oh how she enjoyed just laughing. She couldnt stop. I hate her. I always did. Also she always tries to portray me as weak or obedient. Always making comments about how ugly my body is or how obedient I am just because Im showing basic human decency and helping her out when asked. Not only she but also her friends do that. They say things like that my face looks like its from a girl and that only my voice is the thing differentiating me from a girl or that I should make myself useful and paint their nails. I hate it I just want it to stop is that too much to ask for? How can people be so annoying? I hate myself enough i dont need others reinforcing it. And even when no ones around to hear her jokes she just cant help but humiliate me e.g. for asking her if she could cook something because all this bitch does is buy some microwave slop for me to eat. I just cook for myself now or go to my grandma sometimes for something proper to eat. I feel like my grandma is the only person that has love in her heart for me. She always asks me to stay longer. I love being able to help her and just be there so she isnt all alone in her apartment. And my mom dares to talk bad about her. She always belittles the food she makes and complains about her. This whore deserves to die. I would be so fucking happy.

Recently Ive been making good progress in my face but that just doesnt suffice. I wanna kms. I just cant do this. No one would care anyways. Maybe Im just a crybaby and I deserve all this and all this is normal idk. I dont know anything really. I cant understand how people act normal. Every time I say something it ends up being laughed at and shared between others or they just ignore me and give me a weird look. And I always zone out in school and then snap back to some annoying guy or bitch saying sth like "are you geeked?" Or "why are you looking there the whole time?" Or "whats so interesting?".

I hate this world. And I hate myself even more. If only I had better genetics...

Darkest Before Dawn

 

[loseratgenes]

hit the gym and start pinning testosterone en masse, if the only thing that makes people know you're a man is your voice then you're probably hella feminine with a narrow jaw. it's probably over, go ER on them