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I have a few stories that I think I can share here because there’s many dudes who went through the same thing for sure.
So I’ve always been the youngest in my class throughout school because my parents made me jump grade 1 and grade 5 mainly so that it’s easier for them to manage and because I was too smart for those 2 grades. I thought it was a good thing but fuck was I wrong. Since I’ve always been the youngest I never got to have any sort of social life because all the my classmates were more developed than I was. They were older than me by 1-3 years. I could never converse with my peers. They were developed by looks, by the mind, the way they think, the things they were into etc. I might sound like I’m overreacting but from my experience it really, really ruined me and made me waste my teenage life. I’m now in college and now realising how I really missed all the fun, the real school life that others got to experience. My age was an issue for one, but for two my absolute shitty social anxiety.
In grade 10 I had my first crush ever and it was on a girl that was in grade 9. She was still older than me by 2 years. I was young like 12-13 at that time and she was 14-15. I know this might sound creepy as fuck (we’ve all done this though) but I would skip my classes just to see her. I never had the courage to speak to her. This kept going on for a year I always tried to build up the confidence to talk to her but never had it in me. I was too young and shy I had no friends either. Some of my peers were friends with the higher grade and the lower grade, but me, I always sat in a corner had absolutely no interaction with anyone unless it was the bullies in my class that constantly picked on me. I figured what her name was when one of my peers called her name, it was Soleil. One time when I was sitting in a different classroom I saw her name written on a wall, next to one of my bully’s name and it lowkey struck me to the core. I tried my best to ignore it maybe they were friends? Because my bully was one of those popular guys that was well known around hella girls. I wish I had that easy life. I never had any friends at all, at lunch I was alone, in class I was alone, basically all the time. I was lowkey known as the dork lol I had been bullied before since 7th grade (in the same school) and because of that people though of me as some stupid quiet dork.
Few months later it was exam season and in school everytime it’s exams seasons they’d usually put up a page on different classrooms with the student’s name mixing different grades assigning the students with what classroom they’d take their exam in, mainly to prevent cheating. I was looking through all the names to find Soleil and her last name. I found out what her last name was through this, I was so obsessed lol. I found her Instagram and followed her with an alt account with no real name (dumb mistake). It was obviously sketchy someone with no name or pfp and 0 followers 0 followings is trying to follow you… so she rejected my request. I found out she had a public account too. I’d look at her profile pic, and at that time she was beautiful to me like absolutely stunning. She had that curled up long blond hair and those hazel eyes. She had good bones I’d say she was like an mtb. I didn’t look at her with lust though I was too young for that anyway but I would daydream of us as a couple. I don’t know why I had this habit of searching up the number plates of people that I wanted to know more about, maybe I was thinking it’d actually give me some info on them, it was true it did. I searched up her number plate (I had followed her during home time once and she had a nice white honda civic [rich people shit]). Apparently she had an account for the car because she was a car girl. So it gave me more to admire about her. She was really popular at school and was adorable to me at that time.
All these day dreams had to come to and end when one day I saw her going down the stairs… she blew a kiss to another man and it killed me… I figured she found a boyfriend because after that she would stick with him at all times. It broke me man it made me cry that night. How I wished I had the courage to speak up to her and bag her before any other guy does but of course, I didn’t have the looks, the fame, the popularity, the friend group or anything of the sort to attract her in the first place. It has always been like this. My crushes irl will never come true I’ll never have a chance with anyone. I knew I had to respect them though, I always thought to myself that guy is ugly and it should’ve been me not him which is true he was ugly. He was a brown guy too. But I backed off and a year had passed by, I saw her again in school this time she had a BIG glow down and I was like wtf? She cut her hair really short and had gained weight I’d say she really downgraded to lltb bro.
I still think of how poorly I handled this crush because of my lack of similarities in interests with my peers and my lack of social interaction. She never knew me bro she never acknowledged my presence. I mean when she looked at me even for a second it did make my day and made me think she might be into me but I was a dumbass kid. She’ll never know I had a huge crush on her to the point I’d make excuses to leave my class just to see her even for a minute. I have more stories like this but what about you guys do you have any similar story? I’d love to hear some.
So I’ve always been the youngest in my class throughout school because my parents made me jump grade 1 and grade 5 mainly so that it’s easier for them to manage and because I was too smart for those 2 grades. I thought it was a good thing but fuck was I wrong. Since I’ve always been the youngest I never got to have any sort of social life because all the my classmates were more developed than I was. They were older than me by 1-3 years. I could never converse with my peers. They were developed by looks, by the mind, the way they think, the things they were into etc. I might sound like I’m overreacting but from my experience it really, really ruined me and made me waste my teenage life. I’m now in college and now realising how I really missed all the fun, the real school life that others got to experience. My age was an issue for one, but for two my absolute shitty social anxiety.
In grade 10 I had my first crush ever and it was on a girl that was in grade 9. She was still older than me by 2 years. I was young like 12-13 at that time and she was 14-15. I know this might sound creepy as fuck (we’ve all done this though) but I would skip my classes just to see her. I never had the courage to speak to her. This kept going on for a year I always tried to build up the confidence to talk to her but never had it in me. I was too young and shy I had no friends either. Some of my peers were friends with the higher grade and the lower grade, but me, I always sat in a corner had absolutely no interaction with anyone unless it was the bullies in my class that constantly picked on me. I figured what her name was when one of my peers called her name, it was Soleil. One time when I was sitting in a different classroom I saw her name written on a wall, next to one of my bully’s name and it lowkey struck me to the core. I tried my best to ignore it maybe they were friends? Because my bully was one of those popular guys that was well known around hella girls. I wish I had that easy life. I never had any friends at all, at lunch I was alone, in class I was alone, basically all the time. I was lowkey known as the dork lol I had been bullied before since 7th grade (in the same school) and because of that people though of me as some stupid quiet dork.
Few months later it was exam season and in school everytime it’s exams seasons they’d usually put up a page on different classrooms with the student’s name mixing different grades assigning the students with what classroom they’d take their exam in, mainly to prevent cheating. I was looking through all the names to find Soleil and her last name. I found out what her last name was through this, I was so obsessed lol. I found her Instagram and followed her with an alt account with no real name (dumb mistake). It was obviously sketchy someone with no name or pfp and 0 followers 0 followings is trying to follow you… so she rejected my request. I found out she had a public account too. I’d look at her profile pic, and at that time she was beautiful to me like absolutely stunning. She had that curled up long blond hair and those hazel eyes. She had good bones I’d say she was like an mtb. I didn’t look at her with lust though I was too young for that anyway but I would daydream of us as a couple. I don’t know why I had this habit of searching up the number plates of people that I wanted to know more about, maybe I was thinking it’d actually give me some info on them, it was true it did. I searched up her number plate (I had followed her during home time once and she had a nice white honda civic [rich people shit]). Apparently she had an account for the car because she was a car girl. So it gave me more to admire about her. She was really popular at school and was adorable to me at that time.
All these day dreams had to come to and end when one day I saw her going down the stairs… she blew a kiss to another man and it killed me… I figured she found a boyfriend because after that she would stick with him at all times. It broke me man it made me cry that night. How I wished I had the courage to speak up to her and bag her before any other guy does but of course, I didn’t have the looks, the fame, the popularity, the friend group or anything of the sort to attract her in the first place. It has always been like this. My crushes irl will never come true I’ll never have a chance with anyone. I knew I had to respect them though, I always thought to myself that guy is ugly and it should’ve been me not him which is true he was ugly. He was a brown guy too. But I backed off and a year had passed by, I saw her again in school this time she had a BIG glow down and I was like wtf? She cut her hair really short and had gained weight I’d say she really downgraded to lltb bro.
I still think of how poorly I handled this crush because of my lack of similarities in interests with my peers and my lack of social interaction. She never knew me bro she never acknowledged my presence. I mean when she looked at me even for a second it did make my day and made me think she might be into me but I was a dumbass kid. She’ll never know I had a huge crush on her to the point I’d make excuses to leave my class just to see her even for a minute. I have more stories like this but what about you guys do you have any similar story? I’d love to hear some.
