Dammit time to stop being optimistic about life

[Deleted member 136383]

This shit is hell. It sucks ass. My cucked Schizophrenic brain is my worst enemy. I can't even cope with escortcelling cause I just remind myself that the experiences were ass and the women I did want to fuck put restrictions on me or just express their disgust with me and with doing the task. I had a roommate and knew someone that used to be in the shitty group home I was in and both of them died. I can't help but envy the peace that they are in now cause they don't have to deal with this bullshit anymore. I can't believe I have to resort to escorts cause I am so fucking ugly and I can't believe I can't better my circumstances because my brain is so damaged. Like, I just think sometimes and get so pissed off like I can't believe this is my life. I'm done man.