Day 29 - I Will, In Fact, Be Carrying The Boats

[True truecel]

Day 29 of life improvement

Warning cringe

Started the early morning w a few wanks. Obviously not good but I need to avoid the triggers and continue to move. I knit some type of no fap god, I don’t give a fuck I just need to stop wanking so I can get time back in my day. Also desexualize my brain ideally

Then I obviously had trouble staying up in the morning but I was surprisingly okay until like 5pm. Sunlight helps w sleep deprivation, that’s so fucking useful

Sort of figured out the health shit but it’s in a weird limbo state rn. I need to be careful about being satisfied on its progress even if it’s “passive” and out of my control. Have to get it done, after all it’s my problem not theirs.

Work is a mess ngl. Hopefully tomorrow I can clear it all up.

I like that I’m setting habits but I need to be conscious and consistent.

I’m a crazy ass nigga I’ll get this shit done one way or the other

Retrospective: gotta get better at speaking to people. Maybe think before saying random shit or while the other person is talking

Good thing: at least I can fucking talk ffs, I remember when I was fucked up in April and couldn’t talk at all

Mental health: feeling kinda tired, not burnt out, but I just need something to fall into place. But shit not working out for me somehow gives me more motivation.

3 things I’m greatful for:

That I got to play tennis w my friends as a kid

I’m not homeless - it’s hot as fuck

I can throw , maybe not to save my life but for that kind of a shoulder maybe it’s not as bad as k thought, I’m overestimating

1 thing: health shit follow up

 

[Epochs]

Day 29 of life improvement

Warning cringe

Started the early morning w a few wanks. Obviously not good but I need to avoid the triggers and continue to move. I knit some type of no fap god, I don’t give a fuck I just need to stop wanking so I can get time back in my day. Also desexualize my brain ideally

Then I obviously had trouble staying up in the morning but I was surprisingly okay until like 5pm. Sunlight helps w sleep deprivation, that’s so fucking useful

Sort of figured out the health shit but it’s in a weird limbo state rn. I need to be careful about being satisfied on its progress even if it’s “passive” and out of my control. Have to get it done, after all it’s my problem not theirs.

Work is a mess ngl. Hopefully tomorrow I can clear it all up.

I like that I’m setting habits but I need to be conscious and consistent.

I’m a crazy ass nigga I’ll get this shit done one way or the other

Retrospective: gotta get better at speaking to people. Maybe think before saying random shit or while the other person is talking

Good thing: at least I can fucking talk ffs, I remember when I was fucked up in April and couldn’t talk at all

Mental health: feeling kinda tired, not burnt out, but I just need something to fall into place. But shit not working out for me somehow gives me more motivation.

3 things I’m greatful for:

That I got to play tennis w my friends as a kid

I’m not homeless - it’s hot as fuck

I can throw , maybe not to save my life but for that kind of a shoulder maybe it’s not as bad as k thought, I’m overestimating

1 thing: health shit follow up

Imma do ts with you starting tomorrow

 

[True truecel]

Imma do ts with you starting tomorrow

Yessir

 

[Stranger to myself]

Day 29 of life improvement

Warning cringe

Started the early morning w a few wanks. Obviously not good but I need to avoid the triggers and continue to move. I knit some type of no fap god, I don’t give a fuck I just need to stop wanking so I can get time back in my day. Also desexualize my brain ideally

Then I obviously had trouble staying up in the morning but I was surprisingly okay until like 5pm. Sunlight helps w sleep deprivation, that’s so fucking useful

Sort of figured out the health shit but it’s in a weird limbo state rn. I need to be careful about being satisfied on its progress even if it’s “passive” and out of my control. Have to get it done, after all it’s my problem not theirs.

Work is a mess ngl. Hopefully tomorrow I can clear it all up.

I like that I’m setting habits but I need to be conscious and consistent.

I’m a crazy ass nigga I’ll get this shit done one way or the other

Retrospective: gotta get better at speaking to people. Maybe think before saying random shit or while the other person is talking

Good thing: at least I can fucking talk ffs, I remember when I was fucked up in April and couldn’t talk at all

Mental health: feeling kinda tired, not burnt out, but I just need something to fall into place. But shit not working out for me somehow gives me more motivation.

3 things I’m greatful for:

That I got to play tennis w my friends as a kid

I’m not homeless - it’s hot as fuck

I can throw , maybe not to save my life but for that kind of a shoulder maybe it’s not as bad as k thought, I’m overestimating

1 thing: health shit follow up

Good shot bhaiya