
Gs.
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Hi, im writing today to talk about something that's slowly driving me insane, day by day
Im surprisingly good at talking to people, but ive been struggling for a few months, not because im shy, or because im mean or ugly
No, ive been struggling to stay with my NT mask on, as if all that effort is slowly chipping off at the essence of my soul
I hate talking to people, they couldnt care less, almost every single one of them are superficial, fake or just plain dumb/disgusting, and im faking being one of them
And that is whats bothering me so much
Even while interacting with my "friends" i cant help but feel disgusted by how they act
The way those people talk, how dumb they are, how they lack ambition/knowledgment
Maybe im the problem?
They all go well together, so how could i myself be the only outcast? What went wrong?
Those thoughts just make me more tempted to just give up and just... Be myself, as funny as that sounds
But
i fear losing connections, losing my friends who ive know for so long, or being titled as weird
I dont want to turn my last 2 years of high school into hell, im popular, i know alot of people and they like the version of myself that i show
Should i just give up on socializing?
Or should i keep the mask up?
Answer me .org
Im surprisingly good at talking to people, but ive been struggling for a few months, not because im shy, or because im mean or ugly
No, ive been struggling to stay with my NT mask on, as if all that effort is slowly chipping off at the essence of my soul
I hate talking to people, they couldnt care less, almost every single one of them are superficial, fake or just plain dumb/disgusting, and im faking being one of them
And that is whats bothering me so much
Even while interacting with my "friends" i cant help but feel disgusted by how they act
The way those people talk, how dumb they are, how they lack ambition/knowledgment
Maybe im the problem?
They all go well together, so how could i myself be the only outcast? What went wrong?
Those thoughts just make me more tempted to just give up and just... Be myself, as funny as that sounds
But
i fear losing connections, losing my friends who ive know for so long, or being titled as weird
I dont want to turn my last 2 years of high school into hell, im popular, i know alot of people and they like the version of myself that i show
Should i just give up on socializing?
Or should i keep the mask up?
Answer me .org