Dealing with social trauma and social anxiety is the worst

[Emerq]

dnr i know

I might regret this rant but I feel really suicidal I'm not seeing a bright future ahead and I just need to get it off me

I don't wish it upon anybody, emotions shut off completely when in a huge crowded city like Manhattan NYC metro trains or Chicago and have no idea where to go, people start staring at you like you crawled out of earth and your heart is beating out of your chest as if its going to explode

I could have something spiking my hand and making me bleed but I wouldn't move if it meant initiating social interaction with someone that could lead to a negative outcome, that's how bad it is

It's so over I went to this e-bike shop to get an e-bike for the first time and I waited like 4 hours there sitting not saying that much after they said " yeah just wait " and then I had the courage to ask again after being patient and then I got it instantly so I was waiting for no reason and they forgot about my existence

if I was just a little more attractive I wouldn't get treated like this

I feel so lost and judged by millions of people, in school when we get in groups I always end up alone no matter how well I dress, no matter if my bodyfat is the lowest there, no matter if im jacked, if i play hockey, nothing matters with the face that I have (I like how I look but people hate it and see me completely differently)

i've just been so overstimulated and i dissasociated feeling like im outside of my own body and my emotions shut off completely, sometimes I should be extremely anxious but my emotions go completely numb and I don't feel anything anymore

There's so much trauma and pain inside of me that no matter how kind I am people will always judge me

I'm so tired I feel like im going to pass out right now, my forehead and the back of my head burns I feel barbed wires in my throat and I can feel my heart hurt straight from my chest

maybe if I fixed my facial flaws then I'd know what its like to be loved for once

 

[Whiteboard7]

dnr i know

I might regret this rant but I feel really suicidal I'm not seeing a bright future ahead and I just need to get it off me

I don't wish it upon anybody, emotions shut off completely when in a huge crowded city like Manhattan NYC metro trains or Chicago and have no idea where to go, people start staring at you like you crawled out of earth and your heart is beating out of your chest as if its going to explode

I could have something spiking my hand and making me bleed but I wouldn't move if it meant initiating social interaction with someone that could lead to a negative outcome, that's how bad it is

It's so over I went to this e-bike shop to get an e-bike for the first time and I waited like 4 hours there sitting not saying that much after they said " yeah just wait " and then I had the courage to ask again after being patient and then I got it instantly so I was waiting for no reason and they forgot about my existence

if I was just a little more attractive I wouldn't get treated like this

I feel so lost and judged by millions of people, in school when we get in groups I always end up alone no matter how well I dress, no matter if my bodyfat is the lowest there, no matter if im jacked, if i play hockey, nothing matters with the face that I have (I like how I look but people hate it and see me completely differently)

i've just been so overstimulated and i dissasociated feeling like im outside of my own body and my emotions shut off completely, sometimes I should be extremely anxious but my emotions go completely numb and I don't feel anything anymore

There's so much trauma and pain inside of me that no matter how kind I am people will always judge me

I'm so tired I feel like im going to pass out right now, my forehead and the back of my head burns I feel barbed wires in my throat and I can feel my heart hurt straight from my chest

maybe if I fixed my facial flaws then I'd know what its like to be loved for once

Has this happened before, multiple instances. Do you feel like you know everyone but you don't even have a true friend. I'm sorry bhai I relate heavy. Hope it gets better

 

[Emerq]

I'm sorry bhai I relate heavy. Hope it gets better

It's all good, I was legit sleep deprived when I wrote all of that appreciate it tho also mirin' signature song, I remember that from old zyzz vids I got hella PRs listening to ts

Do you feel like you know everyone but you don't even have a true friend

Yeah it's like being in a friend group and if you were to tie your shoe laces they could leave you behind not noticing you being left behind, kind of how it is

 

[Whiteboard7]

It's all good, I was legit sleep deprived when I wrote all of that appreciate it tho also mirin' signature song, I remember that from old zyzz vids I got hella PRs listening to ts


Yeah it's like being in a friend group and if you were to tie your shoe laces they could leave you behind not noticing you being left behind, kind of how it is

Hope it gets better bhai. I see what your saying I guess

 

[hollowed]

I was going through the same thing. I isolated myself and don’t really leave my house. I recommend doing the same if it gets too bad

 

[Emerq]

I was going through the same thing. I isolated myself and don’t really leave my house. I recommend doing the same if it gets too bad

Fr, that does help a lot

I was just extremely overstimulated, like when you're navigating an entire crowded airport all by yourself for the first time but you get used to it after ngl

anxiety really just comes from perceived negative social interactions tbh

 

[KingAze]

dnr i know

I might regret this rant but I feel really suicidal I'm not seeing a bright future ahead and I just need to get it off me

I don't wish it upon anybody, emotions shut off completely when in a huge crowded city like Manhattan NYC metro trains or Chicago and have no idea where to go, people start staring at you like you crawled out of earth and your heart is beating out of your chest as if its going to explode

I could have something spiking my hand and making me bleed but I wouldn't move if it meant initiating social interaction with someone that could lead to a negative outcome, that's how bad it is

It's so over I went to this e-bike shop to get an e-bike for the first time and I waited like 4 hours there sitting not saying that much after they said " yeah just wait " and then I had the courage to ask again after being patient and then I got it instantly so I was waiting for no reason and they forgot about my existence

if I was just a little more attractive I wouldn't get treated like this

I feel so lost and judged by millions of people, in school when we get in groups I always end up alone no matter how well I dress, no matter if my bodyfat is the lowest there, no matter if im jacked, if i play hockey, nothing matters with the face that I have (I like how I look but people hate it and see me completely differently)

i've just been so overstimulated and i dissasociated feeling like im outside of my own body and my emotions shut off completely, sometimes I should be extremely anxious but my emotions go completely numb and I don't feel anything anymore

There's so much trauma and pain inside of me that no matter how kind I am people will always judge me

I'm so tired I feel like im going to pass out right now, my forehead and the back of my head burns I feel barbed wires in my throat and I can feel my heart hurt straight from my chest

maybe if I fixed my facial flaws then I'd know what its like to be loved for once

take magic mushrooms, i know it seems like the worst idea ever but the thoughts and mind set you get are the best feeling there is, no drug can compare to psychedelics, no youre not gonna freak out. Make sure youre in a setting you feel comfortable in and no people around, i recommend a dosage of about 2g-3g depending if youre a psychedelic beginner or not make sure you have headphones with nice calming music (i recommend tame impala) on and about 6-8 hours of time. During this trip you are gonna learn so much about yourself and your problems.

Blah blah enough rant, if you dont belive me theres studies on people with depression and mental problems that took shrooms and felt WAY better afterwards.

 

[Emerq]

Blah blah enough rant, if you dont belive me theres studies on people with depression and mental problems that took shrooms and felt WAY better afterwards.

Ngl in my entire life never drank alcohol, no drugs, no smoking, im just rawdogging life atp

I agree and people take weed and such drugs they feel way better but if I want a future with a family and healthy children if I don't end up dying alone I wouldn't want to do that

 

[KingAze]

Ngl in my entire life never drank alcohol, no drugs, no smoking, im just rawdogging life atp

I agree and people take weed and such drugs they feel way better but if I want a future with a family and healthy children if I don't end up dying alone I wouldn't want to do that

no actual drug other than caffeine,steroids and shrooms are worth it but look at this chart shrooms have 0 genuine risk potential it does 0 harm

 

[Whiteboard7]

I was going through the same thing. I isolated myself and don’t really leave my house. I recommend doing the same if it gets too bad

Whys that?

 

[hollowed]

Whys that?

if your asking why I would recommend it, it’s because it’s easier than fixing social anxiety and has good benefits. I don’t think it’s better for everyone though.

 

[GynoGladiator]

we're all gonna turn out alriht

 

[Whiteboard7]

if your asking why I would recommend it, it’s because it’s easier than fixing social anxiety and has good benefits. I don’t think it’s better for everyone though.

I guess but your just avoiding the problem

 

[hollowed]

I guess but your just avoiding the problem

Avoiding a problem isn’t inherently bad

 

[Yoshiteeq]

I been in a similar situation, i been isolating myself from the people around me because i don’t feel great on my own skin, it’ll get better bhai. Cope as much as you can, cope it until you make it

 

[Emerq]

Avoiding a problem isn’t inherently bad

Yeah basically

People treat someone badly because of looks = Negative social interactions

staying inside to protect your mental health sometimes is necessary for those dealing with the same, its no help if someone keeps getting hurt or rejected over and over again

 

[Whiteboard7]

Avoiding a problem isn’t inherently bad

Idk about that would you have another valid example

 

[Sacrimoon]

dnr i know

I might regret this rant but I feel really suicidal I'm not seeing a bright future ahead and I just need to get it off me

I don't wish it upon anybody, emotions shut off completely when in a huge crowded city like Manhattan NYC metro trains or Chicago and have no idea where to go, people start staring at you like you crawled out of earth and your heart is beating out of your chest as if its going to explode

I could have something spiking my hand and making me bleed but I wouldn't move if it meant initiating social interaction with someone that could lead to a negative outcome, that's how bad it is

It's so over I went to this e-bike shop to get an e-bike for the first time and I waited like 4 hours there sitting not saying that much after they said " yeah just wait " and then I had the courage to ask again after being patient and then I got it instantly so I was waiting for no reason and they forgot about my existence

if I was just a little more attractive I wouldn't get treated like this

I feel so lost and judged by millions of people, in school when we get in groups I always end up alone no matter how well I dress, no matter if my bodyfat is the lowest there, no matter if im jacked, if i play hockey, nothing matters with the face that I have (I like how I look but people hate it and see me completely differently)

i've just been so overstimulated and i dissasociated feeling like im outside of my own body and my emotions shut off completely, sometimes I should be extremely anxious but my emotions go completely numb and I don't feel anything anymore

There's so much trauma and pain inside of me that no matter how kind I am people will always judge me

I'm so tired I feel like im going to pass out right now, my forehead and the back of my head burns I feel barbed wires in my throat and I can feel my heart hurt straight from my chest

maybe if I fixed my facial flaws then I'd know what its like to be loved for once

Kinda DNR but skimmed through it.

Yeah it’s humiliating, i feel so inferior everywhere i go. I feel intimidated by literal kids sometimes.

But don’t kill yourself nigga

 

[hollowed]

Idk about that would you have another valid example

Example of what mb