EverythingMattersCel
that bitch
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- Apr 11, 2020
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Introduction:
Sorry guys, this is going to be a long post... cueing dnr memes. I will break it up into sub-headings to make it more readable.
Obviously, I'm not a renowned shitposter or someone that really posted often so most here probably don't know me. I have racked up 75 days online here though and I have been lurking for a lot longer.
Background on my life:
Lately, I gained some real introspection. I realised that I know my failos, I know where I stand and I know where I need to improve. When I found this place I was skinny-fat, I had cystic acne, I had a shitty haircut, I looked bloated and I had bad acne scarring. I was very mentally ill and completely out of touch with reality. On top of my terrible mental state, girls had given me negative reinforcement throughout my life. In high school they would call me names - "Ogre", "Llama", "Shrek", "Rat"... and everything you can really think of. On the bus to school, it was especially bad and I wondered what I had done to get treated so badly by strangers. It even continued in university... a couple of girls said "eww", called me "butterz", "clapt", "ugly" while walking down the streets or in a public setting during my first year of studies. This led me to rationalise these irl experiences and assume that LOOKS were everything. Over the past 2 years, I have soft-maxxed in every conceivable way: skin-maxxing, hair-maxxing, gym-maxxing and now I am on the journey of lean-maxxing. The way I am treated by girls irl... has improved a lot. Some of them actually smile at me, talk to me like a human and give iois. Heck, a few have even cold approached me on the street while I was minding my own business. Lookism is 100% real... make no mistakes.
I am still KHV at 21 (almost 22 now) and my looks were definitely the problem, but they are not the bottleneck any longer. It's ironically my incel mindset that has persisted from years of mental illness and prior treatment from people. I don't talk to any girls, I don't make any effort to befriend people and I haven't addressed any of my debilitating internal issues.
Why I am leaving:
Now that I am in a semi-lucid state and I have gained some introspection... I have realised a few things. Being gym-maxxed, decent height and high tier normie FACE is enough to get laid with good-looking girls, IF you are socially outgoing. You don't need to be chad to get a GF. I'm far from a chad and certainly don't have the facial aesthetics of the male models posted here, but I still get some female attention. Hypergamy is real but not to the extent that some users will preach. Looks matter a lot but so does acting like a normal person.
I have scraped together the info from the Best-of-Best threads and I will be deleting my account in the coming weeks. Also, I am checking in for psychotherapy...
The state of the forum:
This place has turned into a bit of shitshow. All of the high IQ posters have left and the content seems to be recycled ad infinitum. Also, the blackpill going mainstream on TikTok has infested this place with teenagers, so the demographics of the userbase have changed since I first joined. I find myself browsing way too long here, not digesting anything useful and really just wallowing in self-pity.
My final remarks:
Even though the userbase can be toxic asf and I have been harsh on some users in the rating threads, I wish the best for everyone on here... and I hope you all find happiness in this life. That's the most important thing at the end of the day.
Got a bit emotional typing this up... ngl.
EverythingMattersCel - Checking out
Sorry guys, this is going to be a long post... cueing dnr memes. I will break it up into sub-headings to make it more readable.
Obviously, I'm not a renowned shitposter or someone that really posted often so most here probably don't know me. I have racked up 75 days online here though and I have been lurking for a lot longer.
Background on my life:
Lately, I gained some real introspection. I realised that I know my failos, I know where I stand and I know where I need to improve. When I found this place I was skinny-fat, I had cystic acne, I had a shitty haircut, I looked bloated and I had bad acne scarring. I was very mentally ill and completely out of touch with reality. On top of my terrible mental state, girls had given me negative reinforcement throughout my life. In high school they would call me names - "Ogre", "Llama", "Shrek", "Rat"... and everything you can really think of. On the bus to school, it was especially bad and I wondered what I had done to get treated so badly by strangers. It even continued in university... a couple of girls said "eww", called me "butterz", "clapt", "ugly" while walking down the streets or in a public setting during my first year of studies. This led me to rationalise these irl experiences and assume that LOOKS were everything. Over the past 2 years, I have soft-maxxed in every conceivable way: skin-maxxing, hair-maxxing, gym-maxxing and now I am on the journey of lean-maxxing. The way I am treated by girls irl... has improved a lot. Some of them actually smile at me, talk to me like a human and give iois. Heck, a few have even cold approached me on the street while I was minding my own business. Lookism is 100% real... make no mistakes.
I am still KHV at 21 (almost 22 now) and my looks were definitely the problem, but they are not the bottleneck any longer. It's ironically my incel mindset that has persisted from years of mental illness and prior treatment from people. I don't talk to any girls, I don't make any effort to befriend people and I haven't addressed any of my debilitating internal issues.
Why I am leaving:
Now that I am in a semi-lucid state and I have gained some introspection... I have realised a few things. Being gym-maxxed, decent height and high tier normie FACE is enough to get laid with good-looking girls, IF you are socially outgoing. You don't need to be chad to get a GF. I'm far from a chad and certainly don't have the facial aesthetics of the male models posted here, but I still get some female attention. Hypergamy is real but not to the extent that some users will preach. Looks matter a lot but so does acting like a normal person.
I have scraped together the info from the Best-of-Best threads and I will be deleting my account in the coming weeks. Also, I am checking in for psychotherapy...
The state of the forum:
This place has turned into a bit of shitshow. All of the high IQ posters have left and the content seems to be recycled ad infinitum. Also, the blackpill going mainstream on TikTok has infested this place with teenagers, so the demographics of the userbase have changed since I first joined. I find myself browsing way too long here, not digesting anything useful and really just wallowing in self-pity.
My final remarks:
Even though the userbase can be toxic asf and I have been harsh on some users in the rating threads, I wish the best for everyone on here... and I hope you all find happiness in this life. That's the most important thing at the end of the day.
Got a bit emotional typing this up... ngl.
EverythingMattersCel - Checking out
