Demisexuality, and obsession

[Deleted member 13591]

'Demisexuality is a state of a person for whom sexual attraction is only kindled toward those they have emotional ties with.

since joining this forum
i have not been sexually attracted to some 1 irl
i still feel sexual attraction
but only really to my oneitis

the only things i think about nowadays are a. my oneitis, and b. PSL, and analysing my face, yet due to being a narcissist and not knowing enough PSL ratio, feature analysis, I can't find many failos, so I'm not kms yet


yesterday, I kept obsessing over one eyebrow being 0.2 mm higher than the other
but at the end of the day, I felt super confident about my looks and like a PSL god

PORN ADDICTION:
yeah...
i dont watch porn
but doujinshi plot be

ahhhhhhhhhhh, I should get on NoFap for those benefits, but damnnnnn CHASEEEER EFFECT BROOOOOOOOO



my oneitis has a more masculine face than my estrogenized bloated face

told my m8, i'd get over her by the end of the school year (sept)
told her, i'd get over my 'problem' by that time too

tryna get over her by the end of the week (school break)

reading maxx, and writing maxx or smth
idkkkkk

antidepressants are the only thing keeping me alive rn
otherwise i feel excessively numb, and that a silent force akin to gravity is galvanizing me to the abyss (a different one from this forum)

the true pill is all 4 pills

yet I neglect the whitepill