D
Deleted member 16970
Married 💑
- Joined
- Jan 2, 2022
- Posts
- 1,716
- Reputation
- 2,241
i was depressed and suicidal from age 16-21. Used to cry myself to sleep n shit.
I went to a therapist once and got diagnosed, they wanted to put me on meds. I never went back.
I kept living my life. doing stupid shit like gaming, eating shit to cope. eventually, i got a gf, miraculously through willpower one party night out. But i was still depressed because she was a whore that could never be a good mother. I took roids to fix it, maybe if i got huge, my depression would go away?
this depression that i kept calling out to as if it was there, kept reminding me of a bad time. And i kept feeding it like it was there.
So i roided to get jacked and shreded. got poosy, but was still depressed? Why did nothing lead to a positive outcome i asked myself. Then through the discipline i built from gym, i applied to school. i disciplined everyday, i showed up to the library like i showed up to the gym.
and suddenly, i didn't have depression.
depression only exists when u want it to. and when u make small progress towards ur ultimate positive outlook in life. it no longer exists.
never consume the goy, consume discipline, day by day.
I went to a therapist once and got diagnosed, they wanted to put me on meds. I never went back.
I kept living my life. doing stupid shit like gaming, eating shit to cope. eventually, i got a gf, miraculously through willpower one party night out. But i was still depressed because she was a whore that could never be a good mother. I took roids to fix it, maybe if i got huge, my depression would go away?
this depression that i kept calling out to as if it was there, kept reminding me of a bad time. And i kept feeding it like it was there.
So i roided to get jacked and shreded. got poosy, but was still depressed? Why did nothing lead to a positive outcome i asked myself. Then through the discipline i built from gym, i applied to school. i disciplined everyday, i showed up to the library like i showed up to the gym.
and suddenly, i didn't have depression.
depression only exists when u want it to. and when u make small progress towards ur ultimate positive outlook in life. it no longer exists.
never consume the goy, consume discipline, day by day.
