describe your psyche - thread you can vent in about your neurodivergence

[IrishSlayer1483]

im curious as to how your guys heads are at, what are your inherent mental traits and diagnosis'

i personally am i high functioning autistic, i very much didnt get social skills well as a kid, no eye contact, airing people, butting into conversations with my facts and interests without regard for others.

I am very selfish, self centered always will be. I masked very early on 13-15 and thats when i finally copped on social skills properly, i dont bother with it any more.

i had anger issues as a kid and have impulse control (low inhib), this lead to me getting into fights and i had a period in my life where i stole for more than a year straight.

I am 130iq as found in my assessment from the psychologist. I also have inattentive adhd. (cant sit still + very hard to pay attention if i dont care aout something)

i constantly made enemies with normies by accident and my name became known in my city as an annoying guy before 15 when i had got cop on.

I suffer from npd, i feel very grandiose but very reliant on validation for ego.

i have high awareness and processing speed which allowed me to quickly learn what i was doing wrong when i had social messes up.


now that i ascended i have felt a catharsis from the weight of my psyche and lovebeing able to be myself and not mask. i like my minds pros but honestly i feel apathy alot and misandry which are making me feel how different i am from others all the same, although i get what i want i cant help but mentally feel at times like my old bullied self. its truely because we are who we are. you cant escape your predetermined proclivities.

life is good but the forum gives me great confort when conversing with people like myself, i do like helping people.

(if you read this far i hope you make it, are capable of ascending)

 

[IrishSlayer1483]

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[FaceandBBC]

I am 130iq as found in my assessment from the psychologist.

 

[IrishSlayer1483]

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standard in autism diagnosis, i have my trade offs and nerfs for it. i am not blessed. i didnt lie once in this thread

 

[kisuke]

im curious as to how your guys heads are at, what are your inherent mental traits and diagnosis'

i personally am i high functioning autistic, i very much didnt get social skills well as a kid, no eye contact, airing people, butting into conversations with my facts and interests without regard for others.

I am very selfish, self centered always will be. I masked very early on 13-15 and thats when i finally copped on social skills properly, i dont bother with it any more.

i had anger issues as a kid and have impulse control (low inhib), this lead to me getting into fights and i had a period in my life where i stole for more than a year straight.

I am 130iq as found in my assessment from the psychologist. I also have inattentive adhd. (cant sit still + very hard to pay attention if i dont care aout something)

i constantly made enemies with normies by accident and my name became known in my city as an annoying guy before 15 when i had got cop on.

I suffer from npd, i feel very grandiose but very reliant on validation for ego.

i have high awareness and processing speed which allowed me to quickly learn what i was doing wrong when i had social messes up.


now that i ascended i have felt a catharsis from the weight of my psyche and lovebeing able to be myself and not mask. i like my minds pros but honestly i feel apathy alot and misandry which are making me feel how different i am from others all the same, although i get what i want i cant help but mentally feel at times like my old bullied self. its truely because we are who we are. you cant escape your predetermined proclivities.

life is good but the forum gives me great confort when conversing with people like myself, i do like helping people.

(if you read this far i hope you make it, are capable of ascending)

i've been diagnosed with ocd and chronic anxiety at a young age and always felt like a retard for not understanding how regular people interact and how they found interest in talking about such meaningless shit , then i got old enough for aderall and it pretty much saved me during social gatherings and i just became better at faking my interactions with people , most people around me that don't know about my problems probably couldn't guess but i never really had someone i felt close to except for 1 guy that i've been friends with for 15 years , but i always felt pretty peaceful about the fact that i'm lonely , i gotta deal with the fact i'll feel this lonely for the rest of my life , being nd was our pre matured death

 

[IrishSlayer1483]

i've been diagnosed with ocd and chronic anxiety at a young age and always felt like a retard for not understanding how regular people interact and how they found interest in talking about such meaningless shit , then i got old enough for aderall and it pretty much saved me during social gatherings and i just became better at faking my interactions with people , most people around me that don't know about my problems probably couldn't guess but i never really had someone i felt close to except for 1 guy that i've been friends with for 15 years , but i always felt pretty peaceful about the fact that i'm lonely , i gotta deal with the fact i'll feel this lonely for the rest of my life , being nd was our pre matured death

yeah i get along with people now due to the halo effect but i feel so disconnected to them. i take tyvense for my inattentive adhd and its basically aleviated that at least.

neurotypicals will never understand what its like to be in neurodivergent shoes. ascending improves life makes you get girls and social life better but it doesnt make you feel like you belong more there will always be that nagging in me.

i have chosen to keep many people in my life jsut aquaintances because i know we arent compatible i only have 2 good firends i cant count on. others i keep cordial alone. there a rarely truely sound people