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JamalJackson
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I was high as shit and was getting swinged on while my hands didn't get raised at all, bare fist to the head. But only one punched bruised and it went on the whole right side of my maxilla going up to my nose which pushed my whole nose differently literally like this ")". And its so brutal cuz I used to look somewhat ok and I had alot of muscle from the gym and iv been black pilled since I was 12 but now im chopped and its not something I could work on like before. I could gain back all my muscle and switch from over eating to starving my self every other day but it will never be the same. And its soo noticeable how different I get treated for being more chopped. Iv been using substances to forget about it but right now im sober for the first time in months and I just feel pure despair and sadness. But Iv been try to hammer my nose back into place using my fist and its slightly working but hurtss soo much I can only do it when im not sober, maybe I might be able to push it back to place or I may be causing permanent scars. I don't go a day without thinking about revenge but what can I realisticly do im not trying to get locked up till im 18. and i think it gave bpd or smthing like that. ion know what ill gain for posting this but typing this rn kinda made me forget im sober.
