balding17yomanletcel
Apostle Of GlaxoSmithKline
- Joined
- Nov 1, 2019
- Posts
- 14,721
- Reputation
- 33,909
Today i had the extreme surge of returning to monkey, which is the act of returning to rural roots and defying the cities urbanized life. At the heat of moment i had requested account ban which i specifically asked jannies of .me to don't let me request a ban lift but they've did anyway.
But after the heated moment pass i had felt empty requested ban lift within thirty minutes of ban request, i once had proved myself unreliable and indecisive. This was my nature. But after all of this i had learned something, novel. A new thing that has diseased my mind over the years. It was all in my head, this place had me with it's dirty echo chamber thoughts, along with multiple hoax exposures i've experienced on internet over the years i grow up on it since at mere age of 4.
There was no conspiracy, no hypergamy. It was all in my head, the chance of becoming ever happy was in my hands, but i had refused unknowingly, but i could achieve this, but i was lacking purpose, i've thought to myself my ancestors worked hard, they didn't had moment to think over insignificant subjects. They didn't think for the life of theirs and what would happen in following years, they've only thought about tomorrow and what food are they are going to bring to table today.
I had moment of eurake, i had realized that i needed to work, eighteen years of pure rotting infront of my computer had also rotted my organic compound brain itself. How could i not realize my mistake and believe in those haters of work, who were also incels.
I knew i had to take action, i had to set a goal, a purpose. Now it is set. I will return to my rural roots and work hard, and educate myself and get good job. The moments i've had before when i worked hard, it was full of dopamine, i felt like something. Now it was time to make it life-long. I will never ever let myself have free time, i will be constantly improving myself through education free of copes. I will truly make something out of myself and will never give time to recrational activities, leisure and such.
I had enough of entertainment, real world has began for me.
But after the heated moment pass i had felt empty requested ban lift within thirty minutes of ban request, i once had proved myself unreliable and indecisive. This was my nature. But after all of this i had learned something, novel. A new thing that has diseased my mind over the years. It was all in my head, this place had me with it's dirty echo chamber thoughts, along with multiple hoax exposures i've experienced on internet over the years i grow up on it since at mere age of 4.
There was no conspiracy, no hypergamy. It was all in my head, the chance of becoming ever happy was in my hands, but i had refused unknowingly, but i could achieve this, but i was lacking purpose, i've thought to myself my ancestors worked hard, they didn't had moment to think over insignificant subjects. They didn't think for the life of theirs and what would happen in following years, they've only thought about tomorrow and what food are they are going to bring to table today.
I had moment of eurake, i had realized that i needed to work, eighteen years of pure rotting infront of my computer had also rotted my organic compound brain itself. How could i not realize my mistake and believe in those haters of work, who were also incels.
I knew i had to take action, i had to set a goal, a purpose. Now it is set. I will return to my rural roots and work hard, and educate myself and get good job. The moments i've had before when i worked hard, it was full of dopamine, i felt like something. Now it was time to make it life-long. I will never ever let myself have free time, i will be constantly improving myself through education free of copes. I will truly make something out of myself and will never give time to recrational activities, leisure and such.
I had enough of entertainment, real world has began for me.
