soapbubble
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After forcing myself into uncomfortable and awkward social interactions with random people countless times I'm fairly certain I could present myself as confident and NT really well in new environments. Because of my parents, I took a class over the summer outside of my school with a small group of people and was able to socialize pretty well, knowing how to make jokes, how to time conversations, how to gossip, and so on. I also mog a fair bit of people in my school facially, including the people who have girlfriends or boyfriends, as most people are pretty ugly and I'm not really that bad off height-wise (~5'8" measured around half a year ago).
After all that, I still don't think I can get a gf. My school reputation is genuine dogshit because I acted like and stood out as a weird social retard for the first two years of high school (people genuinely thought I was autistic and took pity) and at one point embarassed myself so badly, uniquely, and unforgettably that it keeps me up at night even now in front of an entire class, more than 10 months after the incident. After interacting and blending in with normies outside of school several times, I've concluded normies are such vicious gossips that it wouldn't surprise me if more than half the grade spent their time laughing at what a social retard I am and unanimously cementing me in their heads as an incel.
I'm going into my junior year in a few days. None of the people I've became friends with over the past two school years (this is a total of like 3 or 4 people and none of them think that highly of me) are in any of my classes either so I'm not very optimistic.
After all that, I still don't think I can get a gf. My school reputation is genuine dogshit because I acted like and stood out as a weird social retard for the first two years of high school (people genuinely thought I was autistic and took pity) and at one point embarassed myself so badly, uniquely, and unforgettably that it keeps me up at night even now in front of an entire class, more than 10 months after the incident. After interacting and blending in with normies outside of school several times, I've concluded normies are such vicious gossips that it wouldn't surprise me if more than half the grade spent their time laughing at what a social retard I am and unanimously cementing me in their heads as an incel.
I'm going into my junior year in a few days. None of the people I've became friends with over the past two school years (this is a total of like 3 or 4 people and none of them think that highly of me) are in any of my classes either so I'm not very optimistic.
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