Didn't have the energy/virility to help a teenager.

[MoggerGaston]

Had a brutal low in my life yesterday.

Teenager was doing stupid shit on his bicycle with his friends, at some point he hit his head against a pole at a high speed, then fell from his bike like a sack of potatoes and hit his head on the pavement too. After which he lay motionless on the ground.

I was ~50m (160ft) away from him at this point. I got activated and started running towards him, but I saw his friends + people surrounding him who were closer already rushed towards him. So I stopped running and started walking instead as there were already 10 people around him at this point.

When I arrived at the scene, the people were pulling him left and right, no clue on what to do. They were janking on his head, neck, body like crazy. I have first-aid experience so I knew what they were doing was retarded.

I wanted to take control and tell all these people to stop touching him and take over the care, but I just felt dead inside, there was no energy, no fire in me to do it.
I helped with calling the ambulance, at this point there was like 30 people around us and people still were janking at his head and neck, moving him around for no reason, it's the worst you can do.

I did nothing and walked away.
If he had a neck injury, the janking of these retards could've led to nerve damage and paralysis, which I could've prevented had I intervened.


Have had this in the back of my mind since yesterday evening. Idk why I am so dead inside that I didn't take control in this situation. I am wasted potential not just for myself, but also for my surroundings.

Imagine if I was the unconscious guy on the floor? I would've wanted someone like me who knows what he is doing to take control instead of having a mob of people jank at my body and head like retards.

Brutal tbh. Why am I like this?

Been feeling extra suicidal ever since as this situation and my lack of action made me realize how little life/fire/energy I have in me.

 

[MoggerGaston]

@TechnoBoss It's so fucked tbh, I am completely dead inside I don't even help people in desperate need of help due to lack of energy.

absolute low-point.

 

[Deleted member 24554]

Oh look at the poor sympathetic incel

 

[MoggerGaston]

Oh look at the poor sympathetic incel

 

[wsada]

Brutal man couldn't it be the demon in your left shoulder making you feel like this

 

[deadstock]

relatable

 

[MoggerGaston]

Brutal man couldn't it be the demon in your left shoulder making you feel like this

ive been feeling like shit since I stopped using alcohol/drugs 4 weeks ago tbh. I turned into a lifeless robot.

 

[wsada]

ive been feeling like shit since I stopped using alcohol/drugs 4 weeks ago tbh. I turned into a lifeless robot.

Give it time brother have hope !

 

[TechnoBoss]

Had a brutal low in my life yesterday.

Teenager was doing stupid shit on his bicycle with his friends, at some point he hit his head against a pole at a high speed, then fell from his bike like a sack of potatoes and hit his head on the pavement too. After which he lay motionless on the ground.

I was ~50m (160ft) away from him at this point. I got activated and started running towards him, but I saw his friends + people surrounding him who were closer already rushed towards him. So I stopped running and started walking instead as there were already 10 people around him at this point.

When I arrived at the scene, the people were pulling him left and right, no clue on what to do. They were janking on his head, neck, body like crazy. I have first-aid experience so I knew what they were doing was retarded.

I wanted to take control and tell all these people to stop touching him and take over the care, but I just felt dead inside, there was no energy, no fire in me to do it.
I helped with calling the ambulance, at this point there was like 30 people around us and people still were janking at his head and neck, moving him around for no reason, it's the worst you can do.

I did nothing and walked away.

If he had a neck injury, the janking of these retards could've led to nerve damage and paralysis, which I could've prevented had I intervened.


Have had this in the back of my mind since yesterday evening. Idk why I am so dead inside that I didn't take control in this situation. I am wasted potential not just for myself, but also for my surroundings.

Imagine if I was the unconscious guy on the floor? I would've wanted someone like me who knows what he is doing to take control instead of having a mob of people jank at my body and head like retards.

Brutal tbh. Why am I like this?

Been feeling extra suicidal ever since as this situation and my lack of action made me realize how little life/fire/energy I have in me.

Well of course you can think of a scenario where this guy has spinal injuries or something but that’s not necessarily true. Of course it would’ve been better to stop him from getting moved but everyone can look at situations like that and picture an ideal scenario where they would’ve intervened but in practice it’s a lot different and it doesn’t always play out the way a person would’ve liked it to.

Don’t let it affect you. I would’ve done the same thing as you. You can’t just assume it was something serious though this is just kind of a hypothetical scenario. He probably knocked himself out. The human body is really resilient in alot of ways.

In any case just use this a learning experience. Don’t beat yourself up about it everyone on this forum would’ve done the same thing as you. I can understand the lack of energy thing.

Try to make this a teaching moment and try to better yourself in any way you think would be beneficial for you in the future. Not just for yourself but for others as well.

 

[MoggerGaston]

Well of course you can think of a scenario where this guy has spinal injuries or something but that’s not necessarily true. Of course it would’ve been better to stop him from getting moved but everyone can look at situations like that and picture an ideal scenario where they would’ve intervened but in practice it’s a lot different and it doesn’t always play out the way a person would’ve liked it to.

Don’t let it affect you. I would’ve done the same thing as you. You can’t just assume it was something serious though this is just kind of a hypothetical scenario. He probably knocked himself out. The human body is really resilient in alot of ways.

In any case just use this a learning experience. Don’t beat yourself up about it everyone on this forum would’ve done the same thing as you. I can understand the lack of energy thing.

Try to make this a teaching moment and try to better yourself in any way you think would be beneficial for you in the future. Not just for yourself but for others as well.

I guess it comes from a feeling where you know what you should do, what you want to do. Whether it is helping a person, or asking out that girl in the corner who you've been looking at for a while now.

Yet you don't do it. There's no action. It's extremely confrontational.

 

[Deleted member 23558]

try iodine and coffee

 

[Deleted member 31072]

I wouldn't have done shit either. Not my problem. Not like he's family or sth.

 

[JohnDoe]

Why didnt you do it? So bad..

 

[TechnoBoss]

I guess it comes from a feeling where you know what you should do, what you want to do. Whether it is helping a person, or asking out that girl in the corner who you've been looking at for a while now.

Yet you don't do it. There's no action. It's extremely confrontational.

That’s a normal thing but you can’t let your brain wander off and create a scenario where you’re a bad guy in this, yknow? You’re assuming he had some kind of injury that was more serious than it probably was. All we can do is try to be better than we were yesterday. Try not to beat yourself up about it.

 

[cromagnon]

wtf why

 

[MoggerGaston]

wtf why

mental disease

 

[cromagnon]

mental disease

bruh wtfffffff

 

[LilJojo]

Had a brutal low in my life yesterday.

Teenager was doing stupid shit on his bicycle with his friends, at some point he hit his head against a pole at a high speed, then fell from his bike like a sack of potatoes and hit his head on the pavement too. After which he lay motionless on the ground.

I was ~50m (160ft) away from him at this point. I got activated and started running towards him, but I saw his friends + people surrounding him who were closer already rushed towards him. So I stopped running and started walking instead as there were already 10 people around him at this point.

When I arrived at the scene, the people were pulling him left and right, no clue on what to do. They were janking on his head, neck, body like crazy. I have first-aid experience so I knew what they were doing was retarded.

I wanted to take control and tell all these people to stop touching him and take over the care, but I just felt dead inside, there was no energy, no fire in me to do it.
I helped with calling the ambulance, at this point there was like 30 people around us and people still were janking at his head and neck, moving him around for no reason, it's the worst you can do.

I did nothing and walked away.
If he had a neck injury, the janking of these retards could've led to nerve damage and paralysis, which I could've prevented had I intervened.


Have had this in the back of my mind since yesterday evening. Idk why I am so dead inside that I didn't take control in this situation. I am wasted potential not just for myself, but also for my surroundings.

Imagine if I was the unconscious guy on the floor? I would've wanted someone like me who knows what he is doing to take control instead of having a mob of people jank at my body and head like retards.

Brutal tbh. Why am I like this?

Been feeling extra suicidal ever since as this situation and my lack of action made me realize how little life/fire/energy I have in me.

There’s nothing wrong you did. When you went to help him there already were people jerking his head and spine.

 

[RichardSpencel]

Tbh fuck him ,

I was working some edm event like a month ago and this BIG FAT NIGGAH (he was white)

Passed out and I got called over to give assistance,exactly same as what you said happened,people trying to move this 140 kg fatass who is unconscious,

I don’t know what to do in those situations other than lye them on their sides,but this guy was so fat sweaty and gross with his buttcrack hanging out I would rather he just die than have to touch him

Random patrons gave him first aid until paramedics came while I just watched

 

[MoggerGaston]

There’s nothing wrong you did. When you went to help him there already were people jerking his head and spine.

Yeah but if I had stepped in, taken up space and acted loud, confident + dominating, told people to move away and leave him alone, taken control of the situation, I could've helped him. I am 100% sure people would've accepted this confident dominating attitude of me because people had no clue what to do so they would've let me take control. People were in panic.

This is what I wanted to do and what, years ago, I was trained to do when I had training as a first-aider. I just couldn't bring it up inside of me to do it in this public scenario. The fire/energy to act confident+dominant, take control, wasn't there.

I guess back then when I worked as a first-aider I would have my work-clothing on, red-crosses on my clothing, professional look, big medical backpack, badge on my chest, etc. So you feel more in the role and act more like what is expected of you?

Back then I had no issues taking control while working at events as a first-aider.
Everyone just looks at you as a first-aider and is like: 'oh look at him, the person who knows what to do has arrived, let him cook.'
People give you control immediately and you can do your thing.

In this public situation it's harder because you are in streetwear and you are a nobody so you have to assert dominance instead of it being given to you due to your look/clothing.

I just hated myself so much that night because the person I want to be, the personality I want to have, would've taken control, asserted dominance.

 

[ramirezfanboy]

do you have derealisation? kind of where it feels like your barely living almost like nothing really matters? maybe thats why i have it too foe years

 

[apocalypse]

One of your sadder threads ngl

 

[MoggerGaston]

Tbh fuck him ,

I was working some edm event like a month ago and this BIG FAT NIGGAH (he was white)

Passed out and I got called over to give assistance,exactly same as what you said happened,people trying to move this 140 kg fatass who is unconscious,

I don’t know what to do in those situations other than lye them on their sides,but this guy was so fat sweaty and gross with his buttcrack hanging out I would rather he just die than have to touch him

Random patrons gave him first aid until paramedics came while I just watched

brutal looks-pill

imagine the person passing out being some 50kg 25yo MTB foid. U would've been all over her to help her and make her feel good.

I feel the same though.

I've worked as a first-aider at festivals and young foids would pass-out during headliner shows in the heat+crowd.
You bring them to the first-aid post, they have a young female friend with them too, and you chill with them for a while, give them some water/snacks, talk with them, chill with them.

Best times for me.
And you could feel they were mirin' you as you were the 'protecting man'- type guy who watched over them. They saw you as their daddy basically.
Big daddy-energy vibe and girls mirin' hard.

Brutal being a big fat niggah instead

 

[RichardSpencel]

brutal looks-pill

imagine the person passing out being some 50kg 25yo MTB foid. U would've been all over her to help her and make her feel good.

I feel the same though.

I've worked as a first-aider at festivals and young foids would pass-out during headliner shows in the heat+crowd.
You bring them to the first-aid post, they have a young female friend with them too, and you chill with them for a while, give them some water/snacks, talk with them, chill with them.

Best times for me.
And you could feel they were mirin' you as you were the 'protecting man'- type guy who watched over them. They saw you as their daddy basically.
Big daddy-energy vibe and girls mirin' hard.

Brutal being a big fat niggah instead

Yeah whenever I do young girl events I’m always super hands on with them lmao

 

[LilJojo]

Yeah but if I had stepped in, taken up space and acted loud, confident + dominating, told people to move away and leave him alone, taken control of the situation, I could've helped him. I am 100% sure people would've accepted this confident dominating attitude of me because people had no clue what to do so they would've let me take control. People were in panic.

This is what I wanted to do and what, years ago, I was trained to do when I had training as a first-aider. I just couldn't bring it up inside of me to do it in this public scenario. The fire/energy to act confident+dominant, take control, wasn't there.

I guess back then when I worked as a first-aider I would have my work-clothing on, red-crosses on my clothing, professional look, big medical backpack, badge on my chest, etc. So you feel more in the role and act more like what is expected of you?

Back then I had no issues taking control while working at events as a first-aider.
Everyone just looks at you as a first-aider and is like: 'oh look at him, the person who knows what to do has arrived, let him cook.'
People give you control immediately and you can do your thing.

In this public situation it's harder because you are in streetwear and you are a nobody so you have to assert dominance instead of it being given to you due to your look/clothing.

I just hated myself so much that night because the person I want to be, the personality I want to have, would've taken control, asserted dominance.

This was your destiny. You can’t make a mob of people go away.

 

[MoggerGaston]

do you have derealisation? kind of where it feels like your barely living almost like nothing really matters? maybe thats why i have it too foe years

yes yes yes, I have little to no emotional/conscious connection with life anymore.

It's like you are a robot.

 

[MoggerGaston]

One of your sadder threads ngl

It was just this massive internal struggle.

It reminds me of looking at a girl you like and want to approach, you have this massive burning desire, yet you don't do it. You stay passive.

I haven't felt that in a long time because I don't care about foids that much anymore for me to feel such passion nowadays. It's been a long time since I've felt like that.

But this situation made me feel similar. You know what you want to do, you have the burning desire, yet you don't do it.

You stay passive, you lack this fire, energy, to overcome your fears/doubts.

It was very confrontational.

 

[ramirezfanboy]

yes yes yes, I have little to no emotional/conscious connection with life anymore.

It's like you are a robot.

its soo brutal i can relate,like if my family all died tommorw or i win 1 million euro i would feel the same both situatuions,i would do anything to feel emotions i cant connect to anyting

 

[MoggerGaston]

Yeah whenever I do young girl events I’m always super hands on with them lmao

My best event was Pinkpop 2014 (Netherlands), was working as first-aider. We had a massive storm coming up, code red, meaning shit is absolutely fucked and they were thinking about evacuating the entire festival and ending it all.



the sky was beautiful. I have NEVER seen such magnificent cloud formations, a show of force from nature, I have never seen such a beautiful natural thing again.

anyways, the festival-organizers decided it was best that people just sat down and waited out the storm instead of ending the festival and evacuating. People were sitting down on the festival fields in their rain-coats.

But many young scared girls were coming up to my first-aid post, in fear, so terrified. They didn't want to sit out in public, but wanted to be with us in our first-aid cabin instead. They were so scared, afraid.
Man, this was the best. I got to sit down with so many young hot girls, all being so scared, hugging each other and me. Me caressing them, being their daddy, hugging them, telling them it was going to be all right.

Holy fuck man, I was not looksmaxxed back then, literally I was LTN subhuman during this time, yet I was hugging scared HTB festival girls. holy fuck they were so hot and they valued my attention so much.

I wish I was looksmaxxed HTN back then like I am now, probably would've fucked many of these girls.
I had back-stage access at these festivals as a first-aider, and my supervisors had little/no control over me so I could basically do whatever I wanted.
Could've easily bagged some HTB foid with my back-stage access status if I wasn't LTN-subhuman back then. brutal.

 

[MoggerGaston]

its soo brutal i can relate,like if my family all died tommorw or i win 1 million euro i would feel the same both situatuions,i would do anything to feel emotions i cant connect to anyting

Yes, it's not a life worth living tbh. Very relatable.

Without emotional connection, life is so fucking bland, it's so boring. I have suffered from this for years.

fuck man, it's a disease. holy fuck. I hope one day we can find emotional connection with what we are doing again.

 

[T50 Demon]

Had a brutal low in my life yesterday.

Teenager was doing stupid shit on his bicycle with his friends, at some point he hit his head against a pole at a high speed, then fell from his bike like a sack of potatoes and hit his head on the pavement too. After which he lay motionless on the ground.

I was ~50m (160ft) away from him at this point. I got activated and started running towards him, but I saw his friends + people surrounding him who were closer already rushed towards him. So I stopped running and started walking instead as there were already 10 people around him at this point.

When I arrived at the scene, the people were pulling him left and right, no clue on what to do. They were janking on his head, neck, body like crazy. I have first-aid experience so I knew what they were doing was retarded.

I wanted to take control and tell all these people to stop touching him and take over the care, but I just felt dead inside, there was no energy, no fire in me to do it.
I helped with calling the ambulance, at this point there was like 30 people around us and people still were janking at his head and neck, moving him around for no reason, it's the worst you can do.

I did nothing and walked away.
If he had a neck injury, the janking of these retards could've led to nerve damage and paralysis, which I could've prevented had I intervened.


Have had this in the back of my mind since yesterday evening. Idk why I am so dead inside that I didn't take control in this situation. I am wasted potential not just for myself, but also for my surroundings.

Imagine if I was the unconscious guy on the floor? I would've wanted someone like me who knows what he is doing to take control instead of having a mob of people jank at my body and head like retards.

Brutal tbh. Why am I like this?

Been feeling extra suicidal ever since as this situation and my lack of action made me realize how little life/fire/energy I have in me.

Get in random street fights to regain fire

 

[iblamechico]

Have had this in the back of my mind since yesterday evening. Idk why I am so dead inside that I didn't take control in this situation. I am wasted potential not just for myself, but also for my surroundings.

Imagine if I was the unconscious guy on the floor? I would've wanted someone like me who knows what he is doing to take control instead of having a mob of people jank at my body and head like retards.

Brutal tbh. Why am I like this?

Been feeling extra suicidal ever since as this situation and my lack of action made me realize how little life/fire/energy I have in me.

You feel bad about it though at least which means you have some empathy (means you're a good guy)

 

[MoggerGaston]

You feel bad about it though at least which means you have some empathy (means you're a good guy)

I am dead inside. I hate what life made me become.

This is not my fault.