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I’ve been getting more and more suicidal everyday. I already cut myself. I’ve been hospitalized twice.

I spend all my time trying to improve so that maybe one day i’ll re-ascend. I used to be a HTN, with foids literally fighting over me. I tried to be a good little boy, and save myself for the right girl, maybe make God proud…

But in the end, i just got uglier, and older. My hairline is rapidly leaving me. My skin is getting worse. I smell worse. I have to shave everyday but my beard grows terribly. I literally have to shave my hands and arms to look normal…

I train like a mad man every single day. I work hard on my business every single day. I’m hoping, PRAYING, that this will all work out and i’ll finally be human again.

But i’m so lonely. I’m in so much pain. My self esteem is so low. I’m 21 and i feel like the game is already over for me. Strangers look at me and then quickly look away as if i’m disgusting. When i was a teenager everyone would smile at me as if i was someone special.

WHY WON’T ANYONE SMILE AT ME ANYMORE

i know why. It’s because i’m an ugly worthless virgin. I have no social experience because i didn’t go to the parties. I haven’t had a single friend or girlfriend in 4 years.

I’m gonna do it soon. I’ve got a shotgun. I’m gonna blow my brains all over this wall. No more cutting. No more hanging. One shot. One kill.

But i wanted to ask, is anyone else where i am? Is anyone else ready to end it all
 
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I’ve been getting more and more suicidal everyday. I already cut myself. I’ve been hospitalized twice.

I spend all my time trying to improve so that maybe one day i’ll re-ascend. I used to be a HTN, with foids literally fighting over me. I tried to be a good little boy, and save myself for the right girl, maybe make God proud…

But in the end, i just got uglier, and older. My hairline is rapidly leaving me. My skin is getting worse. I smell worse. I have to shave everyday but my beard grows terribly. I literally have to shave my hands and arms to look normal…

I train like a mad man every single day. I work hard on my business every single day. I’m hoping, PRAYING, that this will all work out and i’ll finally be human again.

But i’m so lonely. I’m in so much pain. My self esteem is so low. I’m 21 and i feel like the game is already over for me. Strangers look at me and then quickly look away as if i’m disgusting. When i was a teenager everyone would smile at me as if i was someone special.

WHY WON’T ANYONE SMILE AT ME ANYMORE

i know why. It’s because i’m an ugly worthless virgin. I have no social experience because i didn’t go to the parties. I haven’t had a single friend or girlfriend in 4 years.

I’m gonna do it soon. I’ve got a shotgun. I’m gonna blow my brains all over this wall. No more cutting. No more hanging. One shot. One kill.

But i wanted to ask, is anyone else where i am? Is anyone else ready to end it all
I want to ask you a simple question. Are you serious of doing this? Not the best moment to tell you this but there are many things in life that you could do besides thinking about looks. I understand you have been severely black pilled but forget about it....
 
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I’ve been getting more and more suicidal everyday. I already cut myself. I’ve been hospitalized twice.

I spend all my time trying to improve so that maybe one day i’ll re-ascend. I used to be a HTN, with foids literally fighting over me. I tried to be a good little boy, and save myself for the right girl, maybe make God proud…

But in the end, i just got uglier, and older. My hairline is rapidly leaving me. My skin is getting worse. I smell worse. I have to shave everyday but my beard grows terribly. I literally have to shave my hands and arms to look normal…

I train like a mad man every single day. I work hard on my business every single day. I’m hoping, PRAYING, that this will all work out and i’ll finally be human again.

But i’m so lonely. I’m in so much pain. My self esteem is so low. I’m 21 and i feel like the game is already over for me. Strangers look at me and then quickly look away as if i’m disgusting. When i was a teenager everyone would smile at me as if i was someone special.

WHY WON’T ANYONE SMILE AT ME ANYMORE

i know why. It’s because i’m an ugly worthless virgin. I have no social experience because i didn’t go to the parties. I haven’t had a single friend or girlfriend in 4 years.

I’m gonna do it soon. I’ve got a shotgun. I’m gonna blow my brains all over this wall. No more cutting. No more hanging. One shot. One kill.

But i wanted to ask, is anyone else where i am? Is anyone else ready to end it all
surgerymaxx or death
 
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Looks are important, yes, but looks aren’t ALL (they are a lot though)

Life is worth living man, Jesus saves.

Hmu if you want to chat mens mental health isnt talked about enough.
 
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I want to ask you a simple question. Are you serious of doing this? Not the best moment to tell you this but there are many things in life that you could do besides thinking about looks. I understand you have been severely black pilled but forget about it....
I am. I don’t even care abour being chad anymore. I just want friends. A girlfriend. A social life. People that care about me. I descended to the bottom of society and its all my fault
 
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I am. I don’t even care abour being chad anymore. I just want friends. A girlfriend. A social life. People that care about me. I descended to the bottom of society and its all my fault
If its your fault you got down there it is also your fault you can get out of there.

 
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I’ve been getting more and more suicidal everyday. I already cut myself. I’ve been hospitalized twice.

I spend all my time trying to improve so that maybe one day i’ll re-ascend. I used to be a HTN, with foids literally fighting over me. I tried to be a good little boy, and save myself for the right girl, maybe make God proud…

But in the end, i just got uglier, and older. My hairline is rapidly leaving me. My skin is getting worse. I smell worse. I have to shave everyday but my beard grows terribly. I literally have to shave my hands and arms to look normal…

I train like a mad man every single day. I work hard on my business every single day. I’m hoping, PRAYING, that this will all work out and i’ll finally be human again.

But i’m so lonely. I’m in so much pain. My self esteem is so low. I’m 21 and i feel like the game is already over for me. Strangers look at me and then quickly look away as if i’m disgusting. When i was a teenager everyone would smile at me as if i was someone special.

WHY WON’T ANYONE SMILE AT ME ANYMORE

i know why. It’s because i’m an ugly worthless virgin. I have no social experience because i didn’t go to the parties. I haven’t had a single friend or girlfriend in 4 years.

I’m gonna do it soon. I’ve got a shotgun. I’m gonna blow my brains all over this wall. No more cutting. No more hanging. One shot. One kill.

But i wanted to ask, is anyone else where i am? Is anyone else ready to end it all
Lifemaxx bro, I can guarantee you’re not ugly, and being honest if you were HTN chances are you couldn’t have de-ascended too far, just grow your hair to cover your hairline, take care of your skin and work on hygiene tbh if you’re worried about your skin and smell, also growing out a beard wouldn’t be a terrible idea if it’s growing a lot. Your life is worth it and killing yourself isn’t the answer bro, sending love, don’t let yourself go or kill yourself, have a good day brother.
 
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If its your fault you got down there it is also your fault you can get out of there.

I’ll be reading all these posts today. I hope they have something helpful
 
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Lifemaxx bro, I can guarantee you’re not ugly, and being honest if you were HTN chances are you couldn’t have de-ascended too far, just grow your hair to cover your hairline, take care of your skin and work on hygiene tbh if you’re worried about your skin and smell, also growing out a beard wouldn’t be a terrible idea if it’s growing a lot. Your life is worth it and killing yourself isn’t the answer bro, sending love, don’t let yourself go or kill yourself, have a good day brother.
Thanks man
 
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lol you’re dumb as fuck. Nothing you said is an irreversible failo. Your hair is gone? Then get fin + min and save for a transplant. You were HTN? That means you still have the same bones. You can softmaxx to save yourself. Many of us don’t have that privilege. Some of us have irreversible permanent failos and are doomed. You’re not.
 

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