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suicidalsurgerymaxx
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I’ve been getting more and more suicidal everyday. I already cut myself. I’ve been hospitalized twice.
I spend all my time trying to improve so that maybe one day i’ll re-ascend. I used to be a HTN, with foids literally fighting over me. I tried to be a good little boy, and save myself for the right girl, maybe make God proud…
But in the end, i just got uglier, and older. My hairline is rapidly leaving me. My skin is getting worse. I smell worse. I have to shave everyday but my beard grows terribly. I literally have to shave my hands and arms to look normal…
I train like a mad man every single day. I work hard on my business every single day. I’m hoping, PRAYING, that this will all work out and i’ll finally be human again.
But i’m so lonely. I’m in so much pain. My self esteem is so low. I’m 21 and i feel like the game is already over for me. Strangers look at me and then quickly look away as if i’m disgusting. When i was a teenager everyone would smile at me as if i was someone special.
WHY WON’T ANYONE SMILE AT ME ANYMORE
i know why. It’s because i’m an ugly worthless virgin. I have no social experience because i didn’t go to the parties. I haven’t had a single friend or girlfriend in 4 years.
I’m gonna do it soon. I’ve got a shotgun. I’m gonna blow my brains all over this wall. No more cutting. No more hanging. One shot. One kill.
But i wanted to ask, is anyone else where i am? Is anyone else ready to end it all
I spend all my time trying to improve so that maybe one day i’ll re-ascend. I used to be a HTN, with foids literally fighting over me. I tried to be a good little boy, and save myself for the right girl, maybe make God proud…
But in the end, i just got uglier, and older. My hairline is rapidly leaving me. My skin is getting worse. I smell worse. I have to shave everyday but my beard grows terribly. I literally have to shave my hands and arms to look normal…
I train like a mad man every single day. I work hard on my business every single day. I’m hoping, PRAYING, that this will all work out and i’ll finally be human again.
But i’m so lonely. I’m in so much pain. My self esteem is so low. I’m 21 and i feel like the game is already over for me. Strangers look at me and then quickly look away as if i’m disgusting. When i was a teenager everyone would smile at me as if i was someone special.
WHY WON’T ANYONE SMILE AT ME ANYMORE
i know why. It’s because i’m an ugly worthless virgin. I have no social experience because i didn’t go to the parties. I haven’t had a single friend or girlfriend in 4 years.
I’m gonna do it soon. I’ve got a shotgun. I’m gonna blow my brains all over this wall. No more cutting. No more hanging. One shot. One kill.
But i wanted to ask, is anyone else where i am? Is anyone else ready to end it all