Do you ever feel real feelings?

[Romeo1111]

It’s been so long since I actually felt happy and felt enjoyment, the last time I actually remember feeling joy was when I was a kid.

I thought it was cause I was depressed so I got help and got on medication. I started to get friends and forced my self to be an extrovert. I thought if I got with girls it would make me happy. So I started to get with girls after my mini glow up. But in the end I only was with them to try to make myself feel better, in the process I just ended up hurting their feelings cause I was unable to feel anything for them.

The only time I actually feel anything is when I’m off my medication but I only start to feel sad and depressed and start to get bad thoughts in my head.

Do anyone of you feel the same happiness that you felt as a child when you was just out playing with your friends and didn’t have to worry about anything?

This probably isn’t the best place to talk about this but I don’t really want to talk to anyone I know irl about it.

 

[PLA1092]

Yes. Dopamine from looksmax reps

 

[Lookologist003]

Not much anymore, but horror games always do something for me. I turn my house's lights off wait until it's midnight and then start a scary game.
I also yesterday found two huge house spiders in my kitchen. That was scary.
I think what you're describing is graduation from being a kid to an adult and then subsequently becoming aware you may never return to that stage of life ever.

 

[fuckingtheuniverse]

Only when i listen to a real hero

 

[cytoplasm]

Maybe you're gay. Fuck a few guys, see how it feels

 

[SurgeryEnjoyer]

It’s been so long since I actually felt happy and felt enjoyment, the last time I actually remember feeling joy was when I was a kid.

I thought it was cause I was depressed so I got help and got on medication. I started to get friends and forced my self to be an extrovert. I thought if I got with girls it would make me happy. So I started to get with girls after my mini glow up. But in the end I only was with them to try to make myself feel better, in the process I just ended up hurting their feelings cause I was unable to feel anything for them.

The only time I actually feel anything is when I’m off my medication but I only start to feel sad and depressed and start to get bad thoughts in my head.

Do anyone of you feel the same happiness that you felt as a child when you was just out playing with your friends and didn’t have to worry about anything?

This probably isn’t the best place to talk about this but I don’t really want to talk to anyone I know irl about it.

The magic just disappears, can’t be careless and exploring the world anymore. Can’t enjoy adult things or relate to them in the slightest.Gotta get a job now. Unironically hop off medication and inject T, see if that helps. Give it 2 weeks.

 

[nigtard]

No I'm dead inside I fake emotions so that I don't get put on anti depressants

 

[Gus17]

I rarely feel joy. If I watch something extremely funny I’ll be happy but that’s a rare occurrence. Also having fun with freinds is nice. Tbh I think you have something wrong with u if you can’t enjoy anything.

 

[User49]

yep

impossible to be happy, i gave up

 

[incel194012940]

no

generally each day I am mostly sad or happy, both of which I enjoy

 

[MongolTurk]

despair is real asf, so is the dopamine boost from nicotine

 

[Pikabro]

I am empty and melancholy 99% of times

Running/sports makes me happy though (but I never do it).

 

[Allornothing]

It’s horrible watching myself lose the ability to feel joy in social interactions it’s been happening since secondary school. I literally don’t care about anyone but myself.

 

[Pikabro]

It’s horrible watching myself lose the ability to feel joy in social interactions it’s been happening since secondary school. I literally don’t care about anyone but myself.

Secondary school is active that’s why

 

[TUSSELEIF]

Holy shit you describe me to the core as well.

I also realized that I am with girls to try to make myself feel better and to not be alone, and to feel like a "slayer". Not because I want to, but because of a feeling of missing out and wanting to satisfy my fantasies but with no desire for a relation. But when I get with them, I realize it’s not all that and all I want is to be alone and I usually ghost most of them because I can’t feel anything for them. And I get ghosted a lot as well, and my loneliness and mental health was already fragile enough from before meeting girls that I can’t risk harming my mental health even more.

I am very depressed tbh, many people often point out how serious and devoid of emotions I am. My parents say I was happy often, smiled often, joked a lot, but now they say I never smile, never seem happy, always seem serious and talk slow/soundly.