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It's not due to my looks. I'm well above average, tall, and live a pretty good life compared to the majority of the population. I just feel bored in life, like there's nothing to it. I'm 17 and I've done everything I can think of: sports, lifting, partying, drugs, traveling, messing around with girls, and whatever dumb shit I can do (like a felony). Whenever there's something to do, I do it to try and cure my boredom.
It's gotten so bad that I go around baiting people online and trying to get them to off themselves or just make their day worse. I'm a pretty average rotter; I find it amusing and fun. I've also gone through multiple surgeries related to physical issues, like a bar in my chest for pectus excavatum and my lung basically exploding. I'm fine now, but those honestly brought me more joy in life than what I currently do.
I'm not suicidal or anything. I don't want to die or really hurt anyone. I don't think I'm a bad person. I just want to cure my boredom. Nothing brings me joy that lasts over an hour. It's been like this for a year now. I have plenty of friends and have had multiple girlfriends, and I socialize a lot. I'm not really open or emotional with anyone or about anything. I just don't know what to do with my life. It's like I'm missing something I never had, and I can't seem to put my finger on it.
I don't think I'm depressed, for those who will probably try and call me that. My parents have thought the same thing and tried putting me on a few different meds. I didn't really think anything of it. I still find it as a placebo effect, which it was. All it did was make me constantly angry at everyone and anything for no reason. Nothing changed whilst on the meds.
I don't know what I'm going to end up doing in life or really have any plans to do anything.
TL;DR: I have an uncurable boredom, lost in life, and have no purpose.
It's not due to my looks. I'm well above average, tall, and live a pretty good life compared to the majority of the population. I just feel bored in life, like there's nothing to it. I'm 17 and I've done everything I can think of: sports, lifting, partying, drugs, traveling, messing around with girls, and whatever dumb shit I can do (like a felony). Whenever there's something to do, I do it to try and cure my boredom.
It's gotten so bad that I go around baiting people online and trying to get them to off themselves or just make their day worse. I'm a pretty average rotter; I find it amusing and fun. I've also gone through multiple surgeries related to physical issues, like a bar in my chest for pectus excavatum and my lung basically exploding. I'm fine now, but those honestly brought me more joy in life than what I currently do.
I'm not suicidal or anything. I don't want to die or really hurt anyone. I don't think I'm a bad person. I just want to cure my boredom. Nothing brings me joy that lasts over an hour. It's been like this for a year now. I have plenty of friends and have had multiple girlfriends, and I socialize a lot. I'm not really open or emotional with anyone or about anything. I just don't know what to do with my life. It's like I'm missing something I never had, and I can't seem to put my finger on it.
I don't think I'm depressed, for those who will probably try and call me that. My parents have thought the same thing and tried putting me on a few different meds. I didn't really think anything of it. I still find it as a placebo effect, which it was. All it did was make me constantly angry at everyone and anything for no reason. Nothing changed whilst on the meds.
I don't know what I'm going to end up doing in life or really have any plans to do anything.
TL;DR: I have an uncurable boredom, lost in life, and have no purpose.
