Venting Do you gotta pretend to have any friends?

[blonde slayer]

Ik that in order to socialmaxx u def need to mask and pretend, but when the mask gets heavy I want to be myself with someone but I recently found out with all my friends that I actually gotta mask to fit in, so I dropped 80% od my friends and now even lonelier than before.

How do you even find people with the same political/world views?

I swear getting into an ltr is easier than finding a true friend, looksmaxxing also doesn't seem to help much in this regard

Maybe adderall will be my friend (once i actually find a fucking dealer who sells something other than weed)

Any tips welcome

 

[mcmentalonthemic]

yes

 

[Rayryan]

Ik that in order to socialmaxx u def need to mask and pretend, but when the mask gets heavy I want to be myself with someone but I recently found out with all my friends that I actually gotta mask to fit in, so I dropped 80% od my friends and now even lonelier than before.

How do you even find people with the same political/world views?

I swear getting into an ltr is easier than finding a true friend, looksmaxxing also doesn't seem to help much in this regard

Maybe adderall will be my friend (once i actually find a fucking dealer who sells something other than weed)

Any tips welcome

you sound like jaden smith

 

[blonde slayer]

yes

But if you get disrespected then you gotta drop them right?

 

[mcmentalonthemic]

But if you get disrespected then you gotta drop them right?

yeah

 

[blonde slayer]

you sound like jaden smith

Tbh kinda insulting to say I sound like a nigger

 

[Ryza]

Ik that in order to socialmaxx u def need to mask and pretend, but when the mask gets heavy I want to be myself with someone but I recently found out with all my friends that I actually gotta mask to fit in, so I dropped 80% od my friends and now even lonelier than before.

How do you even find people with the same political/world views?

I swear getting into an ltr is easier than finding a true friend, looksmaxxing also doesn't seem to help much in this regard

Maybe adderall will be my friend (once i actually find a fucking dealer who sells something other than weed)

Any tips welcome

real shit bro

 

[GigachadAspie1997]

I used to mask a lot and tryhard my way into NT and social maxxing yet people still saw the cracks on the wall, so i stopped pretending being someone i'm not long time ago.

 

[blonde slayer]

I used to mask a lot and tryhard my way into NT and social maxxing yet people still saw the cracks on the wall, so i stopped pretending being someone i'm not long time ago.

I think that's just cuz ur mask wasn't good enough, masking is def the solution, because right now I dropped all my friends and my status as a lonely loser is rising.
You need to socialmaxx bevause otherwise it will bring you down. Knowing how to fit in is crucial for your survival.

 

[GigachadAspie1997]

I think that's just cuz ur mask wasn't good enough, masking is def the solution, because right now I dropped all my friends and my status as a lonely loser is rising.
You need to socialmaxx bevause otherwise it will bring you down. Knowing how to fit in is crucial for your survival.

Dude, i'm 28 years old now. Trust me, i've tried and seen enough.
I'm not NT, neighter into the stuff that NT's are. I just cannot even imagine being someone i'm not and being with people that make me feel even more lonely and out of place.

Funny thing i used to mog the NT's not only intellectually and artistically (as well as height if that matters, lmao), but also by status BIG time (used to run a business 3 years ago). Had quite the (unwanted) fame and popularity by the younger normies in my less than 30k small town.
BUT none of that matters once they find out that you are NonNT and not fit in.

 

[blonde slayer]

Dude, i'm 28 years old now. Trust me, i've tried and seen enough.
I'm not NT, neighter into the stuff that NT's are. I just cannot even imagine being someone i'm not and being with people that make me feel even more lonely and out of place.

Funny thing i used to mog the NT's not only intellectually and artistically (as well as height if that matters, lmao), but also by status BIG time (used to run a business 3 years ago). Had quite the (unwanted) fame and popularity by the younger normies in my less than 30k small town.
BUT none of that matters once they find out that you are NonNT and not fit in.

So you'rr saying it doesn't matter how good your mask is it will never seen genuine? What did you do then? How do you deal with the loneliness?

 

[browncurrycel]

Yeah, but you really can't fake it for too long

Find people that you can hangout with and not feel 'unsafe' (can't think of a better word, but wtv)

But don't overshare your insecurities, trauma etc with ANYBODY.

 

[Notcel]

Im trying to learn how too
Its fucked to a insane extent

 

[blonde slayer]

Yeah, but you really can't fake it for too long

Find people that you can hangout with and not feel 'unsafe' (can't think of a better word, but wtv)

But don't overshare your insecurities, trauma etc with

How do i find these people, been searching my whole life. There gotta be some key word

 

[GigachadAspie1997]

So you'rr saying it doesn't matter how good your mask is it will never seen genuine?

Spot on.

What did you do then?

Extremely, and i mean E-X-T-R-E-M-E-L-Y brutal LDAR that led me to attempt ending my life once and for all by trying overdosing with a pricey gray area fat burner that is known to be deadly in higher dosages. (not gonna name it due to harm prevention, but i learned about that substance from this exact forum). As you can probably tell - that failed. Seems that the Lord himself gave me a second chance.

How do you deal with the loneliness?

Currently copping by doing gamedev, playing games, Internet and drugs.

 

[blonde slayer]

Spot on.


Extremely, and i mean E-X-T-R-E-M-E-L-Y brutal LDAR that led me to attempt ending my life once and for all with a pricey gray area fat burner that is known to be deadly in higher dosages. (not gonna name it due to harm prevention, but i learned about that substance from this exact forum). As you can probably tell - that failed. Seems that the Lord himself gave me a second chance.


Currently copping by doing gamedev, playing games, Internet and drugs.

Which drugs can you sustainably take? I am trynna hop on adderall, ritalin or some lprazolam maybe, difficult to find in EU, any tips?

 

[GigachadAspie1997]

Which drugs can you sustainably take? I am trynna hop on adderall, ritalin or some lprazolam maybe, difficult to find in EU, any tips?

By doing drugs, i meant recreationally to fuck myself up really hard (MDMA, LSD, Meth/amphetamines such as your desired Adderall and so on). But i do take Lyrica daily (Pregabalin). I can get it as easily as candy from the pharma shop where i live, so i don't even need a prescription.

Used to abuse street grade amphetamines a shit ton to get wasted and i can't even imagine using this shit as a medicine or smth.

I don't recommend taking any kind of amphetamines for the sake of mood improvement or productivity, this is a nigger substance that would make you end up in a slippery slop. Neighter Ritalin nor benzos as they can make you physically dependant ( so far i only tried Diazepam out of curiosity and it's not my thing.)

And speaking of sourcing - It's really easy once you know how to access the dark net.

 

[blonde slayer]

By doing drugs, i meant recreationally to fuck myself up really hard (MDMA, LSD, Meth/amphetamines such as your desired Adderall and so on). But i do take Lyrica daily (Pregabalin). I can get it as easily as candy from the pharma shop where i live, so i don't even need a prescription.

Used to abuse street grade amphetamines a shit ton to get wasted and i can't even imagine using this shit as a medicine or smth.

I don't recommend taking any kind of amphetamines for the sake of mood improvement or productivity, this is a nigger substance that would make you end up in a slippery slop. Neighter Ritalin nor benzos as they can make you physically dependant ( so far i only tried Diazepam out of curiosity and it's not my thing.)

And speaking of sourcing - It's really easy once you know how to access the dark net.

Alright then ill hold off the amphetamines for now, i wanna try out oxytocin nasal spray, should i also look for it on the dark net? Cuz there is a shop but it costs 40 bucks + 14 bucks shipping, is thata good price or should there be smth cheaper on the dark net?

 

[GigachadAspie1997]

Alright then ill hold off the amphetamines for now, i wanna try out oxytocin nasal spray, should i also look for it on the dark net? Cuz there is a shop but it costs 40 bucks + 14 bucks shipping, is thata good price or should there be smth cheaper on the dark net?

No idea about the oxytocin tbh.